Leng Yein’s Blog

Hi everyone =)How’s your day today ? Or should i ask in a more suitable manner – How’s your year been treating you ? Time flies yah, it’s nearly July 09 already ~! What have you done ? What have you not done ? Have you turn the bad times into the good, and the worst better ? Have you been taking fabulous time doing far more than just good. or conceivably, like most of us ppl out there, you’re still in the ‘hang-in’ there situation, discouraged by the current recession and being the same old you, doing the same old thing =)

To all the new friends in this room, may i have the humbleness to re-introduce my crazy self again. I am Leng Yein, just turned 24 this April. A girl from Kuantan who moved to KL 3 year plus ago. A typical Aries who wanted to have everything but she couldn’t possibly get it all so she chose to want most of the things – which means a bit of everything =) Hehe ~ I am very very selective of my close ones. Been taking in too much proves me not good in the past. So there u go, I will be good to my love ones, my family, my friends, my girls, my associates, my combat buddies, and all the ppl who’ve helped me along my way. But im a very bad person to those whom i think treats me badly. I learn by my mistakes, I accept gossips about me widely, and i really really wanna thank those people who made my name everywhere they go =) I LIKE YOU SO MUCH ~ mwah ~

I may not know you personally. And i don’t know how you were brought up to be and become. But i do know that one must have the best attitude to succeed that many ppl are aspired to have. So do u have that ? I might feel an iceberg between us if i were to come to u blindly and say hi or befriend u one day. But if i bumped into you in my events, u’ll surely get a sincere smile from me =) Dun get me wrong. We might be very different in age or not so, but we are not very different in life. Perhaps the only difference is that you are a degree graduate who’d already have a plan to even know what you wan2 do for a living in future. I do alot of crazy things, but i am still searching for what i love do best. I must confess that i always fall in love with everything that i am doing. Self-work-obsessions ~ A total ‘profession blind’ person ~ Hah ~ Ppl thought i am such an entrepreneur konon ~ OMG !!@_@ I pretty much try to stay in a constant state of confusion just because of the expression it leaves on my face. Oh, i just love being with good people in my events, doing crazy lil things, making funny face expressions together, and taking crazy pictures =) I’ll keep it in my mind for some time…it makes me happy =)

Never let a problem to be solved, become more important than the person to be loved… The most practical, beautiful, workable philosophy in the world won’t work - if you won’t. And i strongly stand against what i believe, and how i will do my job and deliver. If i ever face a problem at work, i will think of what to throw, and what to keep. Who to stay, and who to go. I align them by putting which is worth more…for their effort, their time, their dedication, their sincerity, their love, and their passion. I always believe that we cannot help a person if they don’t help themselves. Attitude is one of the important key and it counts in what i do. Maybe u think it’s such a cliché but I wouldn’t have turned out the way I was if I didn’t have all those old-fashioned values to rebel against.

Things that i do, my business, my restaurant, my magazine, my events, had brought me so much happiness that it filled half of my time with. They brought me friends, associates, my mirror to reflect on myself, my stories, my life, my friends-turned-foe. Yeah, the not-so-happy part is always the friends-turned-foe part. I pact with it, it’s like flipping the pages of my story book, just that i am the author to it. I believe some of you have this problem too huh ! Well, live with honour. Never settle for less than what you know you deserve. Asking for what you want & need from others, speaking your truth, even though it might create conflict or tension among others, if they don’t accept it, accept yourself and always remember why and how it started and for what purpose does it serve. Behaving in ways that are in harmony with your personal values. Making choices based on what you believe, and not what others believe. Always be mind-clear of the values in yourself and others. Love them, and be ready to be loved back.

We don’t get to know people when they come to us; we must go to them to find out what they are like. Your task is not to seek for love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it, a self-challenge. That’s what i call. To learn to face the bigger world out there, and to prepare ourselves for all that comes our way, to succumb, succeed, and make our mark. My tip, If you want to be successful, find someone who has achieved the results you want and copy what they do and you’ll achieve the same results. If u wanna make your mark faster, pursue on something no one had ever done, it is a short cut, only with a wee bit more hard work and risks to take, to be a wee bit more daring, more bold, more challenging and more fun. So, are you the one ?

Success means doing the best we can with what we have. Success is the doing, not the getting; In the trying, not the triumph. Success is a personal standard, reaching for the highest that is in us, becoming all that we can be. It is almost the end of 2009 in 5 months time. What had you lined up for yourself ? Me, i have at least 7 more major events to go before year ends, some projects to be completed, some planes to catch, and some bit left and right to be done before waving the fetching year 2009. Hmm … i might have no time for my vacations oledi =~~~)

To all my dear friends and all the new friends in this room, i hereby again welcome you, and thank you for taking your precious time reading my story. The pleasure is mine of course. Well, I have to rush off now, gotta go renew my passport =) It’s what i call –dead~ =) Wishing all of you the most excellent luck and may you have the greatest year ever =) Gentle reminder, always remember who you are, and what makes you standing strong upon everyone on this presence day. The difference between failure and success is doing a thing nearly right, and doing a thing exactly right. And always remember - the most practical, beautiful, workable philosophy in the world won’t work - if you won’t.

Love Always,

Leng Yein

ps : For those who have facebook account, kindly add me up in www.facebook.com/lengyein … i am more active over there now ~

Miss Malaysia Glamorous GS Sensation 09/10

15^th April 09 - 1^st Heat

22 ^th April 09 - 2^nd Heat

29^th April 09 - 3^rd Heat

6^th May 09 - Semi Final

13^th May 09 - Final

17 Winning Titles and Prizes :

Winner - RM2000 cash + Crown + Trophy + Sash

1^st Runner Up - RM1000 cash + Trophy + Sash

2^nd Runner Up - RM800 cash + Trophy + Sash

3^rd Runner Up - RM600 cash + Trophy + Sash

4^th Runner Up - RM400 cash + Trophy + Sash

12 Subtitles each gets RM100 cash and the Winning Titles are :

Ms M’sia Glamorous GS Sensation / Best Attire

Ms M’sia Glamorous GS Sensation / Elegant

Ms M’sia Glamorous GS Sensation / Personality

Ms M’sia Glamorous GS Sensation / Intelligence

Ms M’sia Glamorous GS Sensation / Photogenic

Ms M’sia Glamorous GS Sensation / Mesmerizing

Ms M’sia Glamorous GS Sensation / Astonishing

Ms M’sia Glamorous GS Sensation / Princess

Ms M’sia Glamorous GS Sensation / Congeniality

Ms M’sia Glamorous GS Sensation / Vogue

Ms M’sia Glamorous GS Sensation / Popularity

Ms M’sia Glamorous GS Sensation / Bombshell

Send your profile to eventsandpageants@gmail.com

And put your HEADLINE TITLE —– Miss Malaysia Glamorous GS Sensation 09/10

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Fuzion Dance Competition

16 ^th April 09 - 1^st Heat

23 ^th April 09 - 2^nd Heat

30^th April 09 - 3^rd Heat

7^th May 09 - Semi Final

14^th May 09 - Final

Winner - RM3000 cash + 3D2N Pulau Pangkor Trip for two pax + 1 Year Contract with the Company + Crown + Trophy + Sash + Flowers

1^st Runner Up - RM2000 cash + 3D2N Pulau Pangkor Trip for two pax + Crown + Trophy + Sash + Flowers

2^nd Runner Up - RM1000 cash + Crown + Trophy + Sash + Flowers

Miss Popularity - RM 500 cash + Food & Beverage Vouchers worth of RM100 + Sash + Trophy + Flowers

Best Costume - RM 500 cash + Food & Beverage Vouchers worth of RM100 + Sash + Trophy + Flowers

Best Choreography - RM 500 cash + Food & Beverage Vouchers worth of RM100 + Sash + Trophy + Flowers

Send your profile to eventsandpageants@gmail.com

And put your HEADLINE TITLE —– Fuzion Dance Competition 09/10

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Fuzion Singing Competition

4 ^th June 09 - 1^st Heat

11^th June 09 - 2^nd Heat

18^th June 09 - 3^rd Heat

25^th June 09 - Semi Final

2^nd July 09 - Final

Winner - RM3000 cash + 3D2N Pulau PerhentianTrip for two pax + 1 Year Contract with the Company + Crown + Trophy + Sash + Flowers

1^st Runner Up - RM2000 cash + 3D2N Pulau Perhentian Trip for two pax + Crown + Trophy + Sash + Flowers

2^nd Runner Up - RM1000 cash + Crown + Trophy + Sash + Flowers

Miss Popularity - RM 500 cash + Food & Beverage Vouchers worth of RM100 + Sash + Trophy + Flowers

Best Costume - RM 500 cash + Food & Beverage Vouchers worth of RM100 + Sash + Trophy + Flowers

Best Performance - RM 500 cash + Food & Beverage Vouchers worth of RM100 + Sash + Trophy + Flowers

Send your profile to eventsandpageants@gmail.com

And put your HEADLINE TITLE —– Fuzion Singing Competition 09/10

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Blue7 Singing Competition

27^th May 09 - 1^st Heat

3^rd June 09 - 2^nd Heat

10^th June 09 - 3^rd Heat

17^th June 09 - Semi Final

24^th June 09 - Final

Winner - RM3000 cash + 3D2N Pulau Redang Trip for two pax + Crown + Trophy + Sash + Flowers

1^st Runner Up - RM2000 cash + 3D2N Pulau Redang Trip for two pax + Crown + Trophy + Sash + Flowers

2^nd Runner Up - RM1000 cash + Crown + Trophy + Sash + Flowers

Miss Popularity - RM 300 cash + Food & Beverage Vouchers worth of RM100 + Sash + Trophy + Flowers

Best Costume - RM 300 cash + Food & Beverage Vouchers worth of RM100 + Sash + Trophy + Flowers

Best Performance - RM 300 cash + Food & Beverage Vouchers worth of RM100 + Sash + Trophy + Flowers

Send your profile to eventsandpageants@gmail.com

And put your HEADLINE TITLE —– Blue7 Singing Competition 09/10

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Oakleaf Country Club Singing Competition

8^th May 09 - 1^st Heat

15^th May 09 - 2^nd Heat

22^nd May 09 - 3^rd Heat

29^th May 09 - Semi Final

5^th June 09 - Final

Winner - RM2000 cash + FREE 12 Year Exclusive Oakleaf Club Membership + 3D2N Pulau Redang Trip for two pax + Trophy + Sash + Flowers

1^st Runner Up - RM1500 cash + FREE 1 Year Exclusive Oakleaf Club Membership + 3D2N Pulau Redang Trip for two pax + Trophy + Sash + Flowers

2^nd Runner Up - RM1000 cash + Food & Beverage Vouchers worth of RM200 + Hamper worth of RM150 + Trophy + Sash + Flowers

Best Costume - RM 300 cash + Food & Beverage Vouchers worth of RM100 + Sash + Trophy + Flowers

Best Performance - RM 300 cash + Food & Beverage Vouchers worth of RM100 + Sash + Trophy + Flowers

Send your profile to eventsandpageants@gmail.com

And put your HEADLINE TITLE —– Oakleaf Singing Competition 09/10

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Miss Malaysia Global Beauty Queen 09/10

8^th Oct 09 - 1^st Heat

15^th Oct 09 - 2^nd Heat

22^nd Oct 09 - 3^rd Heat

29^th Oct 09 - Semi Final

5^th Nov 09 - Final

20 Winning Titles and Prizes :

Winner - RM3000 cash + 4D3N Trips for two pax to Phuket + Crown + Trophy + Sash + Flowers + Media Coverage

1^st Runner Up - RM2000 cash + 4D3N Trips for two pax to Phuket + Crown +Trophy + Sash + Flowers + Media Coverage

2^nd Runner Up - RM1500 cash + 4D3N Trips for two pax to Phuket + Crown +Trophy + Sash + Flowers + Media Coverage

3^rd Runner Up - RM1000 cash + 4D3N Trips for two pax to Phuket + Crown +Trophy + Sash + Flowers + Media Coverage

4^th Runner Up - RM500 cash + 4D3N Trips for two pax to Phuket + Crown +Trophy + Sash + Flowers + Media Coverage

15 Subtitles will be informed later , still in discussion.

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There’s one more pageant starting around April / May. Details will be open up very soon.

Thank You.

So if u r interested , email ur profile to eventsandpageants@gmail.com

Good Luck ~

What do u think about the economy recession ? Will it be worst throughout d year ? Or does it not affect u at all ? Or did it change alot of things about u, on u ? For me, it did affect my business, but not me, not my life, im a secure person, i always have my plan B. But it did changed my perception on people, on things, on some matters, on life. It did changed some facts, and some facts changed me forever … The power of accurate observation is frequently called cynicism by those who don’t have it. So this is what i think, it’s personal … so it’s my story, my view…

Through my observation on what happened around me :

·9 out of 10 people become more self centred. They rather live a comfort life leaving others to suffer n bear their burdens.

I’ve seen really good people who suffered so much lately and they’ve turned evil. They ran away with cash - their parent’s money, their company’s money, their friend’s money, anything but their own hard earn money. And they left the other party to suffer for sins. Pity those who lived under the shadow they left behind. And those who suffer, swill definitely suffer longer than the sinner himself. Karma is like a donut, and u r not letting ur finger go. When u take d last bite, all u can taste is the bite on ur own finger. Beware … have a heart ~

·Money overshadowed one’s life and took away most of the things… their conceit, their trust, their dignity, their manhood, their reputation, their friendship, their smile, their happiness, their relationship, their perfection

At the edge of things we often see the true colour of one’s face right in front of our eyes, and their true behaviour distinguished the truth. And we shall easily see who’s who, which’s which, and what’s what. Differentiate n calm urself down. This is a good time that u should be composed and accept the disenchantment. Remember, if everyone was what we thought they are, we would’ve been god ~ It is hard to accept one whom we’d always kept close to our hearts, the trust, the respect, the gratitude and the love we have for them and it turned around so quickly. Keep it to urself, need not feel miserable. The second u know that u could handle the situation better, u r keeping up better than they do. Just let them be, be urself too ~

·More con man and scam company, constructing society downfalls n leap of crimes n cheats

Scams were all over the place. Reload machines, water refill machines, retailing scams, frauds, fast money schemes, Oh ~ u just cant finish writing the list down. When there is a threat, everyone started to do things with little contemplation and overlooked the risk that they are taking. But when things surfaced after awhile n matter got out of hand n financial got worst, most of the people will seek for even more dangerous path for fast money. We can only heard n see that much, we couldn’t help in this case but to give advice. But 9 outta 10 wouldn’t want our advise. Coz everybody only believes in themselves n nobody else. Everybody is the same when u r at the boundary of losing. So just watch, and try not to be like them. Read the newspapers, it should help and prevent u from falling into traps and scams, being one of the victim.

·Living in dreamland

When some of the hardworking people are working 2 jobs a day, some others are still sitting there doing nothing n hoping that cash would just fall and rain on them. They refuse to accept the reality, refuse to believe that their life is not going to be as good as it used to be. They still wanna have their the way it was before, spending and enjoying, taking things easy, afraid that people would look down on them once they see the changes in their lifestyle, on their spending. Living in their dream world, refused to accept the truth and move forward n set their feet on the ground, it is pitiful. But it is also a good time to reflect on urself, what u did, why did it happen, and what u should do and prevent it from happening again. Always plan ahead… always have a plan B. And better still, a plan C too.

·The rise of rivalry and condemnation

When one fall, one will automatically be a step above them. This is a time when a huge differences can easily be spotted among two different individuals. Comparison will take place, rivalry come to pass, once an adore can easily turn to abhorrence, envy and jealousy arise among the groups and everyone will start to fight/mouth fight against each other to prove that they are better. Gossips and backstabbing is common. A curser will curse even more just to show their displeasure and annoyance looking at those who are happy. U r either the one who had to save up, or the one who still go on spending~ But either one, no one cares. If ur life is about everything, just remember that their lives too. U r not that important. So save up ur time n do something meaningful other than wasting it on backstabbing others who does well. It only shows that u r going down faster than u think. A fool gives full vent to his anger, but a wise man keeps himself under control. Be wise when choosing which side u wanna be.

·Which is more important in d end of the day - Career or Happiness ?

The two most important requirements for major success are: first, being in the right place at the right time, and second, doing something about it. But i do believe that the very purpose of our life is to seek happiness. That is clear. Whether one believes in religion or not, whether one believes in this religion or that religion, we all are seeking something better in life. So, I think, the very motion of our life is towards happiness… When the time is tough, never let ur problems shadows the one that u love. When u lose them, u lost the most important thing that money can never even buy.

·Learn to play by the rules

There’s a case, I have a friend who were a model, so my friends were trying to be a good friend and kept forwarding her jobs but she held her nose so high n told my friend off ‘ Oh, didn’t u know? Im a full time model now, i don’t do cheap jobs and low class events.’ And outta no where, yesterday, she suddenly popped up again n called my friend asking her for any kind of payment job, as long as there is a job. This is a lesson to learn - Be nice to people on your way up because you will meet them on your way down.

·It’s so hard to play good people. So, lets just be below-average~

Some of us had lived our lives long enough to help alot of people. But most of them will never remember us when they’re outta trouble. And will only remember us when they got into trouble again. Lately, i got calls from long lost friends. Out of no where they called to borrow money, to meet me up, to have a chat, but it’s all n all about lending money. This is a good question, even if u have it, will u give it to them ? I used to have a habit of not knowing when to stop and not knowing when to say ‘NO’. But i soon learned that people is not treating us as friends, but they are using us as an ATM, worst – an idiot. I’d borrowed money, given my friends my bags, my stuffs, the brands, shelter, a ride, whatever u call it. They nvr greet u during festive seasons or on special dates, they never send u regards, they never calls u up on normal days just to see how u r doing right now, they never remember ur birthday, worst, they dun even know ur name ~ Giving out branded bags n clothes aren’t that bad, worst i still can treat it as though ppl helping me to clear my junk. But when u borrow money to someone n they don’t intend to return, it’s not about the money at all, it is about losing a friend forever. They avoid ur calls, they never return ur smses, they never wanna bump into u… Some were afraid that others would know about the money n they start to turn their back on u. They changed, and start treating u like an enemy. Saying heartbreaking things to ur friends so that they save their pride in front of the public. So hows that for playing good guy ? My Chinese sayings ‘ Hou Yan Nan Zou’ ah ~ So, my new policy is – NO CASH NO TALK in business, n DUN BORROW MONEY FROM ME in friendship. Aduh ~ What happen to the world nowadays ? sweat ~

·Save up. Don’t regret when it’s too late

You might be well off some time ago and u’d never thought that anything would happen and u had to use ur back up fund. But why if u’d used it all up n there’s nothing left to spend ? Never have the thinking that u always have to be better off than ur friends. When u see that they have 1 LV, u dig ur wallet and get 1 too. And when u see that they have 2, u went and buy 3. But when ur bank is empty n they’d bought the whole collection back, u have to sell ur 3 bags just to pay the taxi. No more Starhill n Pavilion for u, even worst, no more Sg.Wang. So why show off when the payoff is just for the price of ur pride ? Know ur limits. When ur friends have it n they flaunt it, it doesn’t mean that u have to have it too. Class n lifestyle is just a state of mind. Everyone has it no matter who they are. It’s just that the rate is different. U might not have a branded bag, but u might have something which a well off person would always longed to have. So the admiration goes both ways. It doesn’t have to always be a competition among ur friends, or ended up being compared, or living ur life all on dead objects and creating rivalry wherever u go. Secure ur future. That is what more important for you. If u wanna be the best, learn to maintain n balance d quality of ur life. Then u can really be the best lo ~

·Kiasu, Kiasi

You either get ur feet on the ground and work very hard ; or can still allow urself to keep on spending until the well dries up and then think about it later. U’ve watched enough movies. So it is time to reflect on urself. Sit down n take some time off for urself. Think deep of what u want, what u need, what u don’t want and set a target for urself n then go for it. It is new year. Let us have a chance to fix our fault and start it new again… Let us get it right…

·Have a heart

As for those who’re financially unshuddered, visit an orphanage today. Visit the old folk’s home. Visit those of u love. Donate. Adopt a pet or do something meaningful. Give some love, care and help. Have a happy heart ~ If u need the numbers of certain centre or outlet, tell me. I’ll be happy to forward it to you. May god bless u always …

Though alot of things are happening around the world right now, I am thankful that I’ve had my wonderful time, but this wasn’t it. I hope that u’ve found what u’re looking for in life. Especially at this point of time when the world is turning n changing at such high speed. Life is like a game of cards. The hand that is dealt represents determinism; and the way you play is absolutely free will. So play it well, and take full responsible on the end results. When u lose the game, it doesn’t mean that u’ll lose everything. U can lose the battle, but never lose the war.

Happy Chinese New Year and may ur year be filled with prosperity, luck, joy and ONG ONG ONG ah ~

Love Always … Leng Yein

Love is in the air ~ And it’s the Chinese New Year Time again ~ It’s the Ox year - My year ~ Moo Moo … How’s the first 15 days of ur Chinese New Year 2009 ? Did u stay put ? Did u managed to spent it with ur beloved family ? Did u do anything special this year ?

My CNY eve eve i throw myself whole day shopping and i manage to grab some stuff i wanted for my Skiing trip next month. Bought cute limited edition accessories, scarfs, boots, leather gloves, jackets, wool knitters, leggings and lots more stuff from few brands. Extremely love my new Marc Jacob’s hair clip, it’s so cute ~ and my pink colour gloves ~ Oh, can hardly find any colour like it ~ Love the 2 new fur jacket that i bought. Dont worry, i love animals so it is only pricey but not real fur coat. Leather jackets were cool so i bought 1, some thick scarfs n leather boots. Oh, it overshadows d bill i pay for the trip even before it started~ God knows how many cute stuff i can find when im there ~ Aiks ! Pity my princess coz she’s going to granny’s house so she cant continue shopping with me tomorrow. I missed her already … Duh ~ Bought two full sets of SKII and wrapped it up nicely for mummy n granny ~ And when i came outta the counter, Darn ~ i tot what happened when i saw ppl queuing for something ~ Glad i don’t need the help of Mr.ATM. The queue was like TTHHHHIIIIIIIIIISSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS long !!!OMG ! Jammed all the way home n handed over some presents n gifts to my sister to pass it to my mom n grandparents. Poor princess, have to be a delivery person for me this time as jie wont be going bck to S.P lo =~~~( san fu sai nei lah ~ jie jie love u ~ Muah ~

My CNY eve was spent shopping again first half of d day. Too bad most of the shop are closing early. Hey, some brand’s summer collection is already IN ! Wee ~ i somply love d summer ~ So energetic n sexay ~ Wanted to grab a few RED items for new year but cant seemed to find the right design that i like. Hmm… i guess it happens everytime i wanted to buy things in a rush. But not too bad, though i cant get things in red, i did manage to grab some stuff before our gathering dinner starts. Had a scrumptious dinner with my boyfriend’s family and we laugh, we chat n stuff. Went for a TT session at my mamak watching football, Astro ‘kong’ oledi. Luckily i have two cards to swipe. I ended my day with a long sms to my hubby with wishes, gratitude, all n all ~ Thanks to Jess, she recommended me good phones ~ Now me n my bf can share the same emoticons in our new phone which looks like my baby dinosaur ~ haha ~ Next time i’ll sure buy phones from her again ~ As so, my CNY’s eve was - a day full with love, joy, happiness, laughter n satisfaction ~ Ah ~

ZzZZzzZzzZzz … sms kept coming in ~ Ring Ring ~ Love all my friends as they never failed to put a smile on my face. There were so many cute smses. I woke up each time one rang, as so, i didn’t really slept much. But im happy everytime each of them rang ~ Im thankful that they wasted 15 cent on me ~ My 1^st day of new year kicked start around 1.30pm coz that’s when i finally got myself ready. Aduh ! Went for a gathering @ hubby’s partner’s home @ Tropicana with children running around, mom’s were in a group chit chatting, children were playing while their dads were also chit chatting . Drove some of the kiddos around the club house in our Lambo. Children nowadays really knows how to appreciate luxury Eih~ They took some pictures n everyone is laughing, smiling n very happy. Hubby n his partners n friends were Black Jack’in, a thing i wouldn’t understand how to really play it even though i’s there all the time Duh ~ The gathering ended late evening n we’d got to go to prepare ourselves for tonight’s dinner with his family. Went chillin’ driving around d area n before heading home. Finito dinner quickly as i’s really hungry ~ Watched movie with mommy n hubby n little dinosaur baby, what a beautiful night. Final round was the Mah Jong session with hubby’s friends. Little dinosaur gave us luck and we manage to hit it off some fortune. We head to mamak for another TT session before ending our night ~

My 2^nd day was rather laid back. Chillin’ around, laughing n relaxing with my bf without make up and stuff… Went BSC La Bodega for some Tapas ~ Went groceries shopping @ Cold Storage n hubby drove me around to search for some diving equipments for our Sun Tanning ala Island trip this coming Monday. OooOooo … thinking of the white sandy beaches and the sea water really make my day ~ Too bad the shops were still closed so we’ll have to come bck again nxt week when we’re bck from our Kuantan trip ~ Hubby drove me around d highway vrooming our car to heat up it’s engine since we’ve not been driving baby Lambo for weeks. We managed to spare some mileages though~ Hubby did some squash session @ my home n he went swimming while im writing this blog beside d lap pool. Took a nap at home while my maid is cleaning d house n clean baby dinosaur ~ Yeah ~ Baby now clean clean again ~ Hubby drove me to his home coz mommy cook for us again , so sweet ~ So we’ll be having our dinner at hubby’s house. Mommy’s really good in cooking ~ She always gets my taste of food perfectly right ~Hubby n i planned our trip down to Kuantan, my hometown for my family’s gathering. Everything is well planned n time is sorted out perfectly~ Finito dinner and watched movie with mommy, hubby n baby dinosaur again ~ Mwuahh ~ what an easy day ~ Went massage again with baby n hubby… Hubby fetched me back to mamak n have TT session there. It was quite pack ~ Happy lo ~ Watched another movie @ mamak n hubby drove me home … my day ended with love… sealed with a kiss ~ And not forget to mention, my baby ate alotta stuff ~ yummy yummy mummy ~ My buddies know that i’ll be back tomorrow so all of them called n we started planning our evil project – doing nothing but laughing n laughing until the tears come out ~ Owwhhh ~ I miss em already ~

My 3^rd – 5^th day will be fully spotlight concentrated on my mum. Mum’s a workaholic as well so i guess it’s in d blood. Ah ~ With us around, all schedule will always be very tight, in a rush, but perfecto ~ We’ll always make d best outta everything ! On the 3^rd day of CNY, mummy will be arriving KL from Kedah with my princess today. At first, Princess is having exam so she’ll be staying put in KL while mum is tagging along with me n hubby back to Kuantan for our family’s new year reunion. But unfortunately i’ve got a call from Princess and she’s sick. Poor princess. I think she is too bored this new year. There’s nothing much to do when there’s too many people around. I should’ve gone and drive her around S.P and chill. Now i felt so bad n sad that my dearest dearest princess is sick. Princess is on d way to my house fetching mum n our Kuantan maid from Kedah to go back to Kuantan together… Im worrying and missing her at home… Went out with hubby to makan makan and went around buying some CNY stuff for mummy. Hubby sent me home to pack for the trip and he went home to pack too. As estimated, mummy n princess arrived late evening n princess parked her ride at my house and we sat in hubby’s car and head home, to Kuantan. Arrived Kuantan at night. Dropped mummy and princess at our home to get ready and me n hubby went n got ourselves ready for dinner too. We went for our dinner. I let princess choose what she wanna eat =~~~( Poor baby fall sick, jie so ‘sam thung’ =~~~( saying saying ~ Booked a table for ‘Lou Sang’ and ordered all d food we want for a perfect CNY reunion dinner. We were laughing and we’re so happy that night. Oh, it is so good to be home ~

My 4^th day of CNY - Woke up around afternoon the next day. Fetched mummy for breakfast n lunch, n everywhere she wanna go. Dun wanna let her drive, she’d been a working n driving enough already when im not around. Went cruising around d town n it felt so great. I haven’t been doing that for a long long time. Looking at those new malls, new places, new faces, new buildings, and so on, everything is just new new and new ~ Met my buddies. Oh ! God, i missed them so much. And food ! Ah ~ I love Kuantan’s food. I’d been living n eating here for 21 years. Oh i just love the food… Chilled out at my favourite hang out spot as usual everytime i come back – Kemaman Kopitiam. Went to a few more places much of my interest for food.. Gosh ~ I love Kuantan’s food ~Slurp ! Bumped into all my friends everywhere i go. It’s so good to see them again… Went and bought some food n flowers to pay my late dad a respect @ FLS Crematorium with mommy, princess n hubby. Fetch mummy back to her shop to settle some stuff and we stop at granny’s home. 4 families were there n we decided to have dinner together so we went n get ourselves ready n head for dinner. Meet some of them up at night as they called up for a leisure gathering ~ Haven’t been doing much of a gathering with my hometown’s friends besides my buddies for a long long time… It’s good to see u girls again *muah* Especially my buddies =-** After we finite our gathering, we head to ‘After Seven’ n chill out. Dj were our friend so we got all d songs we want, got ourselves the biggest VIP area n by less than 5 minutes it was packed with all my friends. Oh, it was a crazy night with muh girls ~ Too bad Ai Hwa is still in JB, so sad ~ Fetch em back n head back to hotel. Ah, slept very late again lo ~

It is the 5^th day of CNY and it is time to go so me n hubby n princess n baby woke up earlier than usual to repack our stuff and head home. Mum Mum with mummy before we hit d road. Oh, mummy ~ i missed u … i’ll come back more often this year i promise~ But pls prepare for our family month off trip ya~ Dont worry, i’ve bought enough stuff for u n granny so that u two wont catch cold. Will try to find more stuff for grandpa too =-** So me n hubby n princess n baby is back on d road again… smoking and singing n doing all sorts of silly things~ Reached KL around noon and we went shopping lo. Bought some new stuff for tomorrow’s Island trip ~ Got my new flippers n swimming towel n goggles n some stuff i call ‘puffer’. Hehehe ~ Went home n un[pack my Ktn trip’s dirty clothes n head Midvalley for shopping with princess again~ Bought some things and went mum mum with princess. Pack Pack Pack … pack for my baby little dinosaur too ~ Baby’s must-bring lists : Smarties checked ~ sunglasses checked ~ toy toy checked ~ clothes clothes checked ~ hat hat checked ~ baby’s fav towel checked ~ Lollipop checked~ Camera checked~ Hood checked~ Jacket checked~ Baby’s fav bag bag checked~ and so on … Changed baby’s clothes back to sporty style~ Yeah ~ Baby can do that hip hop dance again ~ Teng Teng Teng ~

My 6^th -10^th day. Woohoo ~ woke up very early as i have a flight to catch. Did some last checking on some must-bring stuffs and ready to go. Driver is here already so he called and i went down carrying all the sexay stuffs that i brought for the trip~ This will be my 1^st Sun Tanning trip for d year ~ Yeehaa ~ Never thought it could start so early. Most of the time booking starts on d third month. The second i’ve got call from my travel agent that it isgreen light to sail the island n that the bad weather is over n that hotels r taking in guests, count me in ! Yeaah ~ Sun Tan ! Well need not say more, bikinis n bikinis, sun tan oils, sun glasses, parios, flippers, ice creams with green apple, pizza by the beach, private cruising, chasing fishes, checking our corals, and of course, playing with my baby little dinosaur ~ It is always and will always be about him … Oh, baby ~ While im taking my time of world into my own sweet pace, princess had already stepped on her flight to London. She’ll be travelling much of Europe for one whole month too…To Paris for shopping, to Switzerland for skiing, to Milan designer brands hunting… and so on. Oh princess, jie will miss u for ur absence one whole month. We shall meet again a month later when we’re both back from our individual one month off trip~ Muah~ So there was the sun… the white sand… the marine… the sky and the food… Details for the trip need not say more, i’ll be posting the pictures up as soon as i get my hand back on the laptop. Pictures says a thousand words ~ and im always here to share … xoxo

11^th day of Chinese New Year ~ Alright, it’s the end of my 1^st sun tan trip now ~ Woke up earlier and pack our stuff n get ready to go. Took our breakfast in the suite. Buggy came to d door n well, i guess it’s time to say good bye ~ Baby say : ‘Bye bye phiishy phiishy ~ I will be back and bring u more breads.’ K baby, papa n mummy will bring u to more and more new places to play play with phiishy k ~ Muah ~ Flew back to the city feeling all tired n lazy. Went for a full body massage n spa before i end my day. Chucked all d sunny sunny beach stuff aside n Oh, i’ve just got back home n now i have to get myself ready for my ‘family/shopping/sightseeing/chilling out/food hunting/skiing’ trip again. Tired ! Will be travelling faraway to a few places n will only be back to Malaysia after a month. Going on vacation with my mom, my granny, n my grandpa. I’ve been neglecting the love for my family all these 6 years, throwing myself all into work. I never took d chance to take some time off for them, and so i wanted a family vacation month off ~~ But Princess will be in Europe skiing by the time im there. Oh dear Princess, jie will always be there with u. Even though we’re in different countries. Jie will miss u so so much lo =~~~~( Princess wont be joining us for this family trip and i missed her ~ Hmm … And i know i’ll miss hubby coz I didnt leave his side for this long for a long long time already… And the second i know im gonna do that, It felt so aggravate. It’s eating me up ! Hmm… =~~~~~~~~( But what to do, have to love my own family too lor ~ Will b missing you so so so much hubby… Poor baby, he’ll be missing papa so so so so much too =~~~~~~~~~(

12^th day of Chinese New Year – My maid came n washed up all d dirty clothes i brought back from my sun tanning trip. Cleaned the house n i got back my zen n peace ~Ah ! Freshness ~ Hmm … it’s time for me prepare the check list for my skiing trip. Went around town n did some last minute shopping to get more stuff i’d need when im in freezing temperature. Pack up my stuff and get ready to go again. I’ve decided to bring my extra large luggage as i know i’ll be buying alot there~ especially with my mummy n granny around. They have great taste in stuffs ~ Shopping ~ Gourmet-ing ~ and of course, Choosing where we wanna go and taking pictures~ Well, i’ll miss all of u when im gone. Will be sharing more pics with u once im back in d early of March ~ Hugs n Kisses ~

Well, i guess that’s how my whole Chinese New Year 2009 looks like. How about u ? I hope that u had great time out with ur family too =) Past mistakes or missteps are all water under the bridge… move on with a whole new life with more meanings and thoughts … leave a sweet memory behind those hearts who matters most to you …

Love Always … Leng Yein

Correct me if I’m wrong, but hasn’t the fine line between sanity and madness gotten finer ? There’s war going on at the other part of d world where ppl were dying everyday but there are more war going on everyday around our lives made by our friends and unknown people around us… It’s not true that life is one damn thing after another; it is one damn thing over and over…

Are you bored with life? Then throw yourself into some work you believe in with all your heart, live for it, die for it, and you will find happiness that you had thought could never be yours. Heck what others say about u. Hey, at least no one is talking about them ? But they are talking about u ~ U r a subject, how cool can it be ? The paradox of an informed society is that over a period of time, it is susceptible to bias towards the same sources that project powerful information. Let them do it while u r too busy shopping ~ Some people just love to spend their free times talking about other people being a not-so-similar kinda FMs n RADIOs n Walkie Talkies~

Learn to laugh it over when u heard things that others say about you. Remember, nobody can hurt you without your permission. If u don’t like them, then don’t grant them one ! Through humour, you can soften some of the worst blows that life delivers. And once you find laughter, no matter how painful your situation might be, you can survive it.

I learn to find that not only women ticked backstabbing n gossiping, men does it too ~ Leave them , never degrades your argument. Better be the main role than being the audience who only heard what’s being told n never watched the actual ‘thingy ting ting’. Who knows, if ur role is great, u might be nominated ~ Haha ~

Judging a person after d first meeting is like assuming tat ur neighbour will only wear red, because tat is what you saw her in, the first time. Just imagine if everyone in this world started judging everyone else by their own standards. It would be like a blind person telling everyone else that the world is a dark place. Ppl change all the time. Be careful of who u chose to trust ~

Friendship is born at that moment when one person says to another, ‘What! You too? I thought I was the only one?’…and then u share, u help, u give, u listen, u laugh… Until one day, they take away their love from u… and they say everything about u differently… It is dangerous to play the sincere game without defence unless you are also stupid. Friendship is always born with love, but it does not always die with it. Moral indignation happens when there is some slight of jealousy in a halo. And when jealousy feeds upon suspicion, it turns into fury or it ends as soon as we pass from suspicion to certainty…and there comes hatred ~

Learn to accept that not everyone likes the things u do. There’s a saying - A successful person makes a habit of doing what the failing person doesn’t like to do. So stick to what u love, stick to the things u do ~ And let the others say what they wanna say. Besides, how many of them can actually do the things u do ? They can’t, that’s why they wanna talk about u. They can’t do the things u do n they can’t have the things u have… therefore they can only talk about u n hope that our lives will be miserable~ Blah ~ People who are capable wouldn’t have time gossiping about what others do, what they have, this n that, so n so. They are too busy doing their own things, taking their own sweet time while others r talking. Those who talk alot, in their mind, they know that words are powerful. But little did they know that only if words are put into actions ~ Duh ! But it is good coz when they put too much of it together, they made us - A highlighted story to tell… and by then we’ve made our mark ~How easy is that ~

For every beauty there is an eye somewhere to see it. For every truth there is an ear somewhere to hear it. For every love there is a heart somewhere to receive it. So no matter what others do… there’ll be a place for everyone to belong … u just have to find that right place ~ I’ve foundmine … and im thankful that they’re always there for me as i will be for them …

I believe the single most significant decision I can make on a day-to-day basis is my choice of attitude. It is more important than my past, my education, my bankroll, my successes or failures, fame or pain, what other people think of me or say about me, my circumstances, or my position. Attitude keeps me going or cripples my progress. It alone fuels my fire or assaults my hope. When my attitudes are right, there is no barrier too high, no valley too deep, no dream too extreme, no challenge too great for me. Hey, in the end of the day, who cares if u r in deep shit anyway ?

If you believe that feeling bad or worrying long enough will change a past or future event, then you are residing on another planet with a different reality system. And only minority stays in there. They never move. And when they did, they’re far away left behind. So, do u wanna be one of them ?

There are two ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle. I chose both and play around with it. I work very hard n believe that there’s no miracle given to me; and when i splurge, i believe that it is a miracle given. Ya, i guess that’s how i balance my life, hmm …

I’ve met ppl , strangers who came up to me being really friendly n nice… and they ended up being my friend. But i’d never came across any strangers who came up to me being really nasty n ended up being my enemy. Hmm…people who dislike me only talks behind me, never in front. Pity them that they don’t have the guts to. Just like one who never dare to look into the mirror just to see the reality that they have the courage to talk but not to face. Some took time to create fake accounts just to drop me some nasty comments, hmm… but they nvr surface ~ Well, thank u for ur time ~ I love u ~ Muah ~

To all the girls who’ve lived your life as happy as ever but unlucky enough to have friends who never stop trying to bring u down … It is better to have a permanent income than to ‘only be able’ to tell fascinating stories about people to others~ They are not qualified enough to be a story teller as they are classified ‘differently’. And they don’t have the blings, consequently they cant make the stories they tell into movies. Short say, they get no where. So, just let them be. Shallow people ~

Flatter me, and I may not believe you. Criticize me, and I may not like you. Ignore me, and I may not forgive you. Encourage me, and I will not forget you. Love me and I may be forced to love you … Hate me … and i Love U ~ Muah ~

Love Always … Leng Yein

A relationship, I think, is like a shark, you know? It has to constantly move forward or it dies. And I think what we got on our hands is a dead shark ~ Hah ~

Have you ever been in love n it doesn’t work out? Horrible isn’t it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defences, you build up a whole suit of armour, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life…You give them a piece of you. They didn’t ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn’t your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like ‘maybe we should be just friends’ turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It’s a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. This is as much as love can get – a broken love.

Some say that there is fairy tale in life. But some say there is none. Well, i agree with both. A woman has got to love a bad man once or twice in her life, to be thankful for a good one. In the end of the day, it is up to us to paint the beautiful picture that we had in our dreams… When our man strayed too far out, it is us to get them back, or let them out. Never underestimate how great n powerful a woman can be. Just look at ur mom. She gave u a life ~

Women marry men hoping they will change. Men marry women hoping they will not. So each is inevitably disappointed. Men have hitherto treated women like birds which have strayed down to them from the heights; as something more delicate, more fragile, more savage, stranger, sweeter, soulful - but as something which has to be caged up so that it shall not fly away. It is because of insecureness that they have, the feeling of losing, the feeling of lost control, taking control…

Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep… wait for the boy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks you’re just as pretty without makeup on. One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky his is to have you…. The one who turns to his friends and says, ‘that’s her.’ I found mine, and i wish that u too, found yours.

Do you want me to tell you something really subversive? Love is everything it’s cracked up to be. That’s why people are so cynical about it. It really is worth fighting for, being brave for, risking everything for. And the trouble is, if you don’t risk anything, you risk even more. Someone asked me why women don’t gamble as much as men do, and I gave the commonsensical reply that we don’t have as much money. That was a true and incomplete answer. In fact, women’s total instinct for gambling is satisfied by marriage. By then, ‘WHY?’ is not the question. There are four questions of value in life… What is sacred? Of what is the spirit made? What is worth living for, and what is worth dying for? The answer to each is the same. Only love. Agree? Not wealth , not Louis Vuitton, Chanel, Versace, nor Gucci, Prada… When the girls longed for branded n luxury lifestyle, even if they got it, and then u place the luxury beside the man they really love, they will go back to basic with their man. With no make-up, no explanation, just love…

All love shifts and changes. I don’t know if you can be wholeheartedly in love all the time. It is a curious thought, but it is only when you see people looking ridiculous that you realize just how much you love them. Funny how love turn around n make things happen just the way it is. Love has d power to change a fixed man. True love always makes a man better, no matter what woman inspires it. It always does. The reflection of each person lies 50% on how their partner’s value weight. So if u see someone behaving somewhat ‘B’, their partner may need to bear half of d blame. So sad ~

I think that between men and women there is no friendship possible. There is passion, enmity, worship, love, but no friendship. At first i disagree, then when i happen to think it all over again, it is so true. It’s either they have the value we’re looking for, they have something we want or we adore, they can help us, they can calm us down n make us feel better, or they can be there for us when we needed someone around… we adore … and we need them around us …

Take Beyonce Knowles’s ‘If I Were A Boy’’s video clip for example - Why is it that men are permitted to be obsessed about their work (n other women), but women are only permitted to be obsessed about their man? Hmm … that’s a good clip which reflects on everyday’s love ~ I don’t know whether u’ll do that to ur man, but man or woman, we’re all d same. Seen n heard too much don’t u think. Well, we should learn to be thankful , appreciative, n cherish when we still have it. When love’s gone, we can only hope for a new one… the past are far bygone.

Men say they love independence in a woman, but they don’t waste a second demolishing it brick by brick. Especially those women who has their strong financial stability n career. The relationship is harder to handle. When love became a comparison, the feeling of challenged n imbalance between two will break the love u had. My first relationship lasted for years but didn’t work out because the man i love couldn’t handle the stress i’d caused. My career, my lifestyle. Though we were so in love, the second i got my feet into business n the society, it changes everything n tore us apart. We started to see a big difference in our income n stability. Our needs for different lifestyle, different things. My crave for lushness n pleasure overshadowed my love for him. I chose to have a lavish life than to stay by my man n not striving forward.

Some of the biggest challenges in relationships come from the fact that most people enter a relationship in order to get something: they’re trying to find someone who’s going to make them feel good. In reality, the only way a relationship will last is if you see your relationship as a place that you go to give, a place that you and the other person can take. Chances are that people walked through the same path, only later to find that they ended up in a different direction. Opportunity knocks for every man, but you have to give a woman a ring. And after the ring is given, another door opens. More challenged, more committed, more problems … more love … Or maybe, does the ring fits the woman’s finger ? Or maybe, does ur ring has the C’s …

You can’t stop loving or wanting to love because when its right, it’s the best thing in the world. When you’re in a relationship and it’s good, even if nothing else in your life is right, you feel like your whole world is complete. Love comes when manipulation stops; when you think more about the other person than about his or her reactions to you. When you dare to reveal yourself fully. When you dare to be vulnerable, u’re ready for love.

The quality of your life is the quality of your relationships. How u’ll live through life and how u’re going to end it rely on how much love u had n gave. People are dying each day, most of them were loved n remembered, some of them were not. If u know u r going to die today, what r u going to do? Work? Get some branded bags? Go on vacation alone? Hug a bear? Adopt a pet?

Don’t settle for a relationship that won’t let you be yourself. U will suffer later. And then only u realised that u’ve gotten a few years older… In real love you want the other person’s good. In romantic love you want the other person. Which one r u ? When we’re incomplete, we’re always searching for somebody to complete us. When, after a few years or a few months of a relationship, we find that we’re still unfulfilled, we blame our partners and take up with somebody more promising. This can go on and on–series polygamy–until we admit that while a partner can add sweet dimensions to our lives, we, each of us, are responsible for our own fulfilment. Nobody else can provide it for us, and to believe otherwise is to delude ourselves dangerously and to program for eventual failure every relationship we enter.

If our relationship is like a rose, how long it lasts, no one will actually know. Love can erase all the awful past. And love can be yours, but you’ll only realise in the end… To feel that love, it sometimes makes you sigh… But to have it to leave, some of you would rather die. A successful marriage requires falling in love many times, always with the same person… I hereby hope that you’ve found that special rose, and that you love and care for the one you’ve chose…

Which is right and what is wrong … I hope u have the answer deep down at the bottom of your heart … Well 2009 , i wish u love for eternity …

Love Always … Leng Yein

First of all, Happy New Year 2009 Moo~Moo~ cow cow cow ~ Wishing u the best of luck, joy, happiness, pink of health n max of wealth ~ Untung duit so so much much much until tak boleh tahan ~  Well it took me awhile to decide whether to get my ass down for an hour or so to update my blog but guess i just missed everyone so much so here i am again, sulking, laughing, complaining, celebrating  life. Darn ~

My new year resolution for 2009 – Put my year on rest mode, chuck away my all-time hectic schedule n overloaded work, giveaway chances n opportunities to others, n enjoy my life to maximum pleasure n satisfaction. This year round, i  want it to be all about me, me and me! Travel travel n travel… Cruising, charted yatch, charted boat, private cruise, no queueing n sharing or so, just myself, i wana go nonstop island hopping … Go shopping shopping n still shopping… Giveaway my old bags n getting all new ones… Giveaway all my old clothes n getting all new ones too, if possible, a whole new wardrobe…New dresses, New tops, New brands brands n brands…New Watches, New Sunglasses, New heels, New Hobbies, New everything that i wanted new ~ Change ~ Change~ n Change ~

I’ve been a good girl, i’ve been working  nonstop for 2008 so it’s time for me to take some time off for myself. I just wanna love myself to d max this year, it’s OX year ~ Moo Moo ~ My year , im born 1985, The Ox ~ Yey ! I love to feel spoilt, spoilt by myself ~

Let’s see what happens in year 2008 :

1.   My house was broken in n i lost –

·         My New Sony Laptop

·         2 WD 500G External Hard Drive

·         All My Company Documents

·         All My Branded Watches

·         36 items of my Louis Vuitton Collections ( some which are limited n i cant buy back Dang! )

·         My Chanel bags

·         Two Gucci bags

·         My Victoria Secrets, La Senza n some Sexy Lingerie ( Crazy )

·         My Dresses that i bought from overseas ( Crazy )

·         My Personal Camera

·         2 Out of my 9 Handphones ( 7 were still there )

·         Half of my Bikini Collection( Crazy )

·         My personal Pictures ( Crazy ) i think they wanna voodoo me ~ Aiks ~

·         Cash, Time ( coz i have to make police report, Dang! )

2.   I’ve lost my long trusted 7 years of friendship with my best friend. She’d turned her back on me, worse still, she stole from me. And on this matter i’ve lost a very very big amount of money stolen by her, not to mentioned all d money  that i’ve spent ON her for this 7 years from the day i called her – MY BEST FRIEND. Hah~

3.   I’ve met a 30++ years old man who wanna work for me when his company he’s working for 7 years or so had finally chuck him out. But he ended up messing everything up, completing NOTHING, n he don’t know how to do ANYTHING at all, but he’s good in taking leaves n leaves n leaves , flying here n there for vacations ( Hey i guess he loves to enjoy himself more than working ). And advance money n advance money n advance money n dont come to work. Not to mention coming to work on time, most of the time he doesn’t come at all. I paid him for 3 months still, i came to have an open talk with him n he decided to quit. After few days, out of sudden he brought his mum, his dad, his ELDER sister( Gosh i think she’s almost 40 years old oledi ) n even his young little brother to come n tell me off that he’d suffer from great stress he’s got from me n wanted me to pay him more. His sister treaten me saying wanna get somebody to come after me this n that. And what happen was, the bitch was scolded by my Indian workers telling her off that his brother didn’t come to work n we have CCTV to prove. And he still have balls to come with the family. Gosh, what had happened to the world ? He keeps mumbling n doesn’t wanna leave , saying i have no friends, saying that everyone left me bcoz i suck ( he refers to the two matters above ), he says that i am a perfectionist, and that no one can fulfil my requests, that things i do are tough n stressful n i put everyone in pain. Hmm… Funny~ Im just a 23 years old kiddo n  he is 30+ already. He’s d one who wanted to work for me in d first place, i nvr offer. He needs a job, i gave him one. He cant do it, he complains, n then he brought his WHOLE family over to shout at me. I guess this is what we call the FAMILY business. A 30++ years old baby who doesn’t even dare to talk to his boss when he quits n needed his WHOLE family to do so. Shameful. This is my first time encounter with such a lousy man. It’s a good laugh.

4.   I’ve bailed a friend out of lock up for some 5 figure amount n ended up he didn’t even called me up a say ‘thank you’ when he’s outta hell. Ah, so Malaysian style ~ Damn ~

5.       I got some good projects. Given chances n jobs to more than 600 applicants.

6.       I’ve opened my first Food Business – Taj Corner Restaurant , my mamak. I’ve learned to go pasar, i have to learn to handle full grown man from overseas working with me for 24 hours. I’ve fired n changed alot of man who doesn’t obey my rules coz they cant live with d fact that they are working with a young girl so out they go, Shuh~ ShuhH~ n i don’t bother remembering your name =P ~Blekk~ Never look down on girls… young girls…

7.   I’ve started a personal project to help the newbies in the modelling industry – Models Magazine

8.   I’ve got myself a baby – my little dinosaur . N im very very obsessed with him since then

9.   I’ve changed almost the whole of my wardrobe, my bags, watches, heels, my fashion line-ups after the break in incident. Like d old sayings ‘If the old one isn’t gone, where do i have places for the new ones to come in’ Ah, unlucky but lucky me ~~

10. I’ve started to buy Cartier n few other brands which i don’t really fancy. But im still a Louis Vuitton person lo.

11. Started to love private cruise n nude tanning. It’s sort of an addiction to me. It’s like a ‘Must do’ thing when i see the beach n d sea

12. Started to get addicted to visit massage parlour every night after my work. Oh… Spa n Massage ~ It’s killing me ~ No ~ No ~

Let’s see what have changed in the 1^st month of 2009 :

1.   I’ve cut my nails short, very short

2.   I’ve cut my hair short, half my original length

3.   I’ve coloured my hair purple maroon red or something like that … Hmm… i don’t know

4.   I’ve lived 12 days totally without make up in the first two weeks wherever i go ( scaring ppl )

5.   I change my little dinosaur’s clothes every two days now

6.   I go home two times a day for nothing. Back then i work d whole day n i didn’t bath. Dang!

7.   I call my princess almost everyday just to tell her i love her. I LOVE U PRINCESS =) MUAH MUAH MUAH !

8.   I’ll hug my little dinosaur everywhere i go … EVERYWHERE …

9.   Dang! Now i cant finito 1 pck of ciggi a day. Bck then i smoke 3 packs per day ( i smoke like dragon )

10. I force myself to brush my teeth EVERYNIGHT before i sleep. Back then, sometimes i was too lazy to do so.

11. I’ve changed my toilet’s flushing pump( kena slaughter RM300 for ONLY changing the pump. Aih, that’s d problem staying in Bangsar, everything will eventually be charged extra expensive )

12.I let my mum know where i stay now. Back then she n my grandparents never knew, even for almost 3 years i’ve shifted to kl. I wanted privacy. I just sort of told them where i live, but i never invited them to visit my home. But im glad i did now. I should have love them more… Mommy, Granny , Granpa  i love u ~~

13. I’ve gave away 18 bags, 6 Watches n alot of fashion stuff to my mommy n grandma. Two LV Pochette Accessoires, LV Tivoli PM, LV Neverfull MM, LV Damier Neverfull, LV Keepall 60 with shoulder strap, LV Trolley 50 brosphore, LV Pegase 70, Two LV Garment cover, LV Beauty case , LV Pochette gange , A Chanel , A Gucci , My Patek Philippe, My Cartier, and so on. I let her try out my set of SKII n she loves it. I’ll buy a full set for her for new year. Granny loves LV too ~ Haha ~ It’s in d blood ~

14. I’ve got myself few new limited editions LVsss. Yey!

15. I’ve got a Whole New Car Audio System with touch screen, USB port, Navigation, Bluetooth function, In-Car Telephone function, Speakers, n i’ve got Wall Paper of my Little Dinosaur on it n i can change anytime i want.~ cheeky ~

16. I’ve break my personal record for training n choreographing more than 120 person on stage within one n a half hour in Sg.Wang for a Fashion Show. Record ~ Happy ~

17. I’d flew down to Singapore just to get my little dinosaur’s recently ordered clothes. And i bought a luggage of baby clothes n themed costumes for my baby again. My baby dinosaur is very happy ~

18. I have a new hobby. Im starting to love Paintball. Pain~

19. I am now officially a - ‘Spa n Massage’ tonight, again, if no choreographing/shows, everyday also i will go person.

Let’s see what have NOT change in the 2009 :

1.   I still don’t do my own house chores. I cant live without maid even for just a week.

2.   I still don’t heat up d ‘already cold’ Domino’s pizza that i’ve ordered. I consider that as cooking.

3.   Im still a demanding person. I only want what i think is best for me n i will get it myself.

4.   I still don’t like d fact that friends should treat other friends as rivals. For me envy is the most stupid of vices, for there is no single advantage to be gained from it. Peace man~

5.   I still wanna believe that i am very lucky to get what i have in my life. I am thankful … ~ double Peace ~

6.   I still dislike d internet speed. It’s always ‘not fast enough’. I wanna upload so many things up ~ Duh ~ stress

7.   I am still as wilful, as loving, as tough.

8.   I am still wondering whether my mum wanted a boy when im in her womb ~ Hmm…

9.   I still love my princess the most and i still kiss her every time we part… MUAH MUAH MUAH ~

10. The love for my boyfriend hasn’t changed a bit.

The greatest happiness of life is the conviction that we are loved — loved for ourselves, or rather, loved in spite of ourselves. Your time is limited, so don’t waste it living someone else’s life. Don’t be trapped by dogma - which is living with the results of other people’s thinking. Don’t let the noise of other’s opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary. If u wait to do everything until you’re sure it’s right, you’ll probably never do much of anything…

The best day of your life is the one on which you decide your life is your own. No apologies or excuses. No one to lean on, rely on, or blame, or to be blamed. The gift is yours - it is an amazing journey - and you alone are responsible for the quality of it. This is the day your life really begins…

Im opening a whole new chapter now… a brand new page filled with wonderful colours and joy… Every new beginning comes from some other beginning’s end. And the beginnings of all things are always small. The successful person makes a habit of doing what the failing person doesn’t like to do. One mustn’t criticize other people on grounds where he can’t stand perpendicular himself. As so I criticize by creation, not by finding imperfections…

Happy New Year everyone … Let the past be bygone and let the new year gives us another chance to set things right.

Love Always … Leng Yein

Models Magazine is a project to help those people who wanted to be a model but has been treated unfairly , let down , teased at , looked down , laughed at , rejected , low self esteem , or those whom others tells you that you are not good enough . Models Magazine is purposely made to fight for you and showcases you to the world , we give you a place to start off with , a place where no one can reject you , because everything that we do , we put you up front and ONLY chooses OUR VERY OWN NEW FACES . This would also be a platform and a training basis for all the new faces who wanted to try out , experience and to be given a chance in the modeling industry . We are not an agency . Jobs & tasks given to you will not be charged a cent or taken a cent off your payment . We just want to see you fly high , coz that is our purpose . No one can say that you are not good enough because everyone can be beautiful …

We provide make over from head to toe . We make sure our models find their true self when they are with us . Just like a loving family . We want to see everyone smiling happily all the time , proving to others that they are just who they want to be . Building their confidence and pride by being just themselves .

Models Magazine is a platform and a short cut for all the new faces . We customize everything FOR you . We create jobs , shows and everything purposely for you . We do not wait . It would be best if the new faces are active and passionate . Coz we will be sending you to international pageants , shows and other magazines to be featuring you too . We take in total newbies , new faces who dare to dream , who aren’t afraid to try , to learn , to stand out and be counted . Do not worry that you do not know anything because we make sure you know everything .

We customize runways , shows , events , functions and pageants specially for our new faces . We send our models everywhere for jobs , runways , shows , competition , international scenes , pageants etc. , giving our models the widest coverage , maximum publicity and meaningful experiences . We dare to ONLY promote the new faces because we strongly believe that everyone should be given a chance to shine . We highly urge the public to support these new faces too .

Models Magazine is a quarterly published magazine distributed throughout the whole of Malaysia nationwide , Borneo , Brunei and Singapore . Our magazine features 50 new faces each issue . We select the most sincere and hardworking people in our list coz attitude and character plays an important part in this industry . Models are not just about the pretty face . You have to learn , adapt , improve , and move forward together with your batch of new faces all the time or you’ll be left out .

Our first batch’s models are very loving . They are like a family . No backstab , no jealousy , no dodgy things going on . Everyone loves everyone in this family . They’re some sleeping new faces too as they’re way too busy to be in this line so lets just say they are lovely too .

We will collect a payment of RM500 for each selected entry for buying yourself a page . Acknowledge that if you want something , never expect that you can get things done your way for free and others have to do all the work and then you can take us for a ride . We are very serious in our profession . If you think RM500 is too much , we wont offer any discounts as it is already half sponsored .

The mere charge of RM500 is compulsory as we will be providing you :

1. NO PERCENTAGE will be taken off for all jobs given to you . YOU WONT BE CHARGE A CENT for the jobs that we promote you to
2. A port folio make over pictures of you . All pictures taken will be given back to you after the magazine is published and distributed .
3. We will hold 2 launches on each issue and prepare you for proper runway preview to the public ( make over will be provided )
4. You will be given one full page of own profile in the upcoming issue of Models Magazine
5. You will be given your own port folio page ( changeable all the time ) , active personal email , blog & account in our official web page www.modelsmagazine.tv
6. You will be included in all jobs , media appearance , launches , parties , shows , runways , pageants , functions , and all the publicity that we customize for you .
7. ( If there is any )You’ll get products from sponsors @ shows , runways , pageants etc.
8. You will be given special models discounts @ our sponsors’ outlets
9. You will be given free passes to selected hang out spots ( the numbers of the spots are growing )
10. ALL the jobs that we propose will be given ONLY to OUR MODELS MAGAZINE’S NEW FACES from the day that you join till no dead line coz once you’re with us , we are a family .
11. If you are active , have good personality and presentation , you will get yourself another 2 extra pages for free in the following issue .
12. If you participated in any of our events , your picture will be up in the featured event pages in the upcoming issue too
13. We will be pushing you in a period time of 3 months during your own issue by holding a lot of shows , events and runways as your platform to modeling .
14. You can enquire about jobs , pageants , events and shows from us personally if you are broke .
15. If you have hidden talents , tell us . We have wide connections to promote you further .
16. Should you have any questions , we will be there to assist you . ( no silly questions pls )
17. We will open you up to the public and let as many people nationwide knows you.
18. We are not an agency . We do not tie you up . You can do whatever you like . You are FREE ! We just promote you and give you maximum publicity .
19. We will guide you personally if you are sincere . We will be guiding you in building your own confidence , and giving you advices and tips in modeling , making things easier for you
20. We will advice you if you are keen on your lifestyle ( changeable and updated ) , your most suitable personal make up and hair styles , and fashion
21. We will inform you on any updates through : friendster , email , or text messages . You have to update us with any changes of any above .
22. Models Magazine is the first and only project that promotes the new faces . We will promote you and give you maximum publicity that no one had ever did before .
23. No matter how bad you think you look , fat or thin , short or tall , ugly or beautiful . Everything can be improved and made better . Dear all , everyone can be beautiful … who dare to judge others when they are imperfect themselves ?
24. You can meet a lot of people from different fields , sponsors , designers , event industry’s people , new friends etc through us . They are lovely people .
25. You will have more jobs opportunities .
26. Anyhow , you have to be active , passionate , understanding , helpful , tolerable , fun and easy going to have the best out of everything . If you are not active and passionate about your dream , it is very hard for us to promote you as you take everything as nothing by doing nothing about it .
27. A home that you belong , in our hearts . You will be part of our family , we will be having trips and day-out together . We’ll be all arms open if you’d loved to join . For those who are feeling down and sad , your secrets and sorrows lies with us and ends here … we love you for who you really are , despite your past , your present or your future … just be yourself … coz you , are beautiful …

We do not accept :

1. People with bad attitude , just sits there and expect dreams would just pour on them ( go dream )
2. People who are demanding . Do not demand a V.I.P treatment . If u cant even wear a 3 inch heels , start practicing today coz no models gets V.I.P treatment for not delivering the basics .
3. People who are irresponsible . Do not be late / not turning up for the show last minute / without a notice . Be professional
4. People who doesn’t want to accept new lessons and experiences in life . You have to always learn , improve and push yourself further and become someone better coz you can do it ! ( besides us guiding and motivating you , you have to motivate yourself too )
5. People who backstabs and complains all the time . We are a family . If you don’t like being loving , understanding , and friendly please leave us alone .
6. People who expects everything from us , that they can be an international model or a superstar . Darling I have to tell you this , you either have to be very tall or very uniquely talented . We promise only maximum publicity and promotes you . Not guarantee your success . Coz your success is based on how much effort you’ll be putting in .

People who doubt us . If you think that we are trying to take advantage of you , kindly do not join us . ( There’ll always be people who wants to fail this project . It breaks our heart when we know that . So if you have any doubts on our purpose on helping the new faces , do not join us . Kindly attend our events and support the new faces . Your support means a lot to each and everyone of them . I sincerely thank You )

ps : More details about our family magazine kindly read tru my previous blog . TQ

love,

leng yein

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1. How do we participate ?

If u r willing to proceed a payment of RM500 if chosen , send ur profile to modelsmagazine@gmail.com for selection

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2. Why do we have to pay for our shoot ?

This is my self funded project to help malaysian new models ( read my part 30th blog for full information ) . The RM500 will be used to promote u , print the mag , holding beauty pageants , feature u in the magazine with ur profile , give u maximum publicity & let ppl recognize u . U’ll be our official Magazine Model . We wont force u to pay , if u dont want , dont send us ur profile , we will only select ppl who support this project by paying the RM500 .

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3. What do you provide us during the shoot ?

To all the new faces in Malaysia ,

I am once a newbies myself … Staying in this position right now really shatters my heart … look at the girls now … they get low paid jobs , stupid agents cut alot of their pay off , girls con girls collect the payment doesnt wanna pay other girls , man pretend to be agents and do stupid things , irresponsible middle person take advantage of new models , new models do stupid things to get the fame they wanted but end up getting cheated, taken advantaged of but still remain quiet but depressed , the newbies will only be seen in low-paid jobs , and only the famous & recognised faces will have the chance to be featured & seen everywhere. if i were to list out all , it will be pages … i am very sad because alot of girls came to me and tell me all these in the 5 years of me being in this line … i have no power to change ur life , but i am trying my best to help you … helping us , the MALAYSIAN MODELS to speed up their dreams , to be seen by others , to be remembered , to prove themselves someone , belonging … loved , and respected …

This mag started because i do not want to see malaysian model industry falling apart …

all the magazines u see , featuring the same girl over n over again . Even new models , they’ll get all the jobs in that period when they’re up , they’re everywhere …look at the most of the event girls, the non famous ones have no chance at all .. they just remain giving flyers , serving drinks lah , like what ? RM60 one day , OMG ~ what is this ?

So anyone who understand the purpose of this project … stand up for urself … if u think u can offer some help , try to help … be our crew … everyone is welcome … Our magazine needs u , beautiful ppl , both in n out … sincerely

The Magazine Cover Girl search is a new idea for building a platform for all MALAYSIAN NEW MODELS to become a model and to shine , offering them opportunities , giving them secured & well paid jobs , opening up bigger chances for them to be spotted and well recognised by all Malaysians … and only NEW faces will be accepted …

This idea came out because we studied the problems Malaysian Models are facing . Alot of newbies doesn’t have a chance to appear on magazines and papers as there’re too many professional models out there and it is hard for them to be spotted & featured . But we cant possibly take in all request so what we’re gonna choose the one we think stands a chance to do well in this line . What we’re gonna do is to promote those girls who wish to be a model but have no chance to ~ Wasting their money taking unsufficient pictures which gets them no where .. wasting their time , their money , their dream … time is precious for a model , and we wont allow that to happen . And u cant get jobs by sending candid handphone-taken photos *OMG* what r u thinking ~ No ~

We are offering a very cheap half sponsorred package of RM500 , a photography session by our key photographer , a copy of all the photos that u’ve taken will be given back to you & we’ll pick the best ones that u’ve done to be featured on the magazine . giving u a full page of everything about YOU , ur portfolio , ur pictures and also a special tag line for u . We will select around 50 - 70 models , all NEW FACES

U can then get the magazines at any news stands in malaysia except sabah & sarawak (we’re still pending whether we want to include it in) . Ur database will then be sent to few chosen webpages and active forums to be featured & promoted . Besides tru internet , we will forward ur data to few of our appointed agencies to look out for suitable jobs and advertisement , print ads , posters , etc etc . for u.The reason for our action is to open up more chances to give u maximum publicity and appearances, and also to let u stand a bigger chance of getting more jobs & exposure …

We need at least 200K to complete a complete magazine so please dont try to take advantage from us … we’re helping u , if u add up the burden we will just cancel off this project n i wish u all the best by urself … u have a photography session + a full page of yourself in the magazine. We’re gonna create different feels & designs for each girl … Once u r selected , u have to pay RM500 during the shoot, thats the best we could offer u , we give u back all ur photographs , a designed profile in the magazine , in few forums , in few webpages,u r a magazine MODEL and that counts in ur experience ( Haha , u can add into ur profile when u wanna send ppl ur port folio )

ATTENTION : If we picked u , u are SURELY featured in our magazine … we do not simply shoot ANYONE & feature them up …

We will have a few upcoming beauty pageants & also ADVERTISED models party launches where mediaSS will come and u might have a chance to appear everywhere - magazines , newspapers, featured forums , huge gathering for beautiful people. BEAUTY PAGEANTS ~ Pageants where ONLY the NEW models can participate … Pageant where the judges are the readers , our friends , ur family , and ur supporter … It will be clear and FAIR ~ Nothing will be hidden from u …

GUYS : The man hunt is on ~ All NEW MALE MODELS of Malaysia

This will be the first magazine who only accept NEW faces … and our success will be based on how many supporters will there be , supporting all the MALAYSIAN models … we are betting on hopes , dreams , and chances … so help us pass the message around … help urself up by helping us

This will be the first blog on our magazine … a year from now , i hope that this project goes well … and all you girls would be seen everywhere … smiling & shining … i love you …

This is my dream … our dream …

love always … leng yein

PS : If u r in business , u will know tat it is a SURE RUGI FIRST to start a magazine without any support from big company , and ur support is only mental support , money still goes from own pocket … magazines will only get their return after years … and to start one , it needs alot of money … the hard work n stuff is not a prob for us … the purpose of this magazine is to help out the malaysian Malaysian Models … but if we do not have enough support for it , we will call ALL of this off … so dont u try to sound like we’re EARNING ur RM500 buck , u wont get this publicity with RM500 buck out there , and we are sincere in helping … not cheat ur RM500 bucks aiyoh , dont ask for free , besides if ur dad sponsor our printing fee … come on , u go and snap some pics outside also more than RM500 lah , and u get nothing n u r not a Magazine Model . Think …

COMMENT AFTER U READ THIS , U R THE REASON WE CREATE THIS MAG SO U HAVE THE RESPONSIBLE & RIGHT TO GIVE SOME IDEAS … IF THIS MAG HITS BIG , U SHOULD SMILE WIDELY BECAUSE U R THE REASON BEHIND IT’s SUCCESS … U R PART OF THE MAGAZINE … god bless ..

If u agree on proceeding the RM500 , send ur profile to modelsmagazine@gmail.com

Photography session starting in two weeks time …