Leng Yein’s Blog

Fast one , before i leave for days … i make a double diary today ….

TWo choice , Pair one - a girl who has brain + beauty and Pair two - a girl who has no brain but she does have a sexy body n angelic face . TWo kind of guys are invited to this round of choosing . Pair one - A guy who wants someone to spend a lifetime with and Pair two - a guy who wants a short period of joy . Two questions for the audience , which pair do u think will make it till the end of time ? Who will die happily , and who will be so lucky to have die having AIDS ? ANyone ? Oh yes , the lovely lady over there …

Lady : Pair One ~!

Me : Why is that ?

Lady : Bcoz both pair one has inner beauty and brain and beauty at the same time while pair two however are just plain materialistic n realistic one , but the did hell make a good pair ~!

Man : Hey , i say it’s pair two . Coz We never know when we’re gonna die , so why not die with someone better looking ? And i can bring her out , i ‘got face’ , and my friends will envy how i can ‘kau tim’ such a pretty girl . And there’s a secure rubber sold all over 711 lah , wont die de ~!

Lady : But she only knows how to spend money and duno how to work woh `

Man : I have the money , all she needs to do is to sit home , keep herself pretty n sexy , wait for me to come home , never nag me , n listen to what i say , and follow what i say

Lady : (thinking ….A chihuahua also can wit u at home n look nice de) But pretty girls nowadays wont follow what u say de

Man : Who cares , im the one giving  her money , she must listen to what i say , if not i’ll get her outta my house for good when she’s no longer worth what i want

Lady : There’s no eternal beauty , one day when she’s pregnant n gave birth , one day when she grow older she wont look pretty also , by that time takkan u chuck her by the roadside

Man : It’s non of your business , by that time i have the money to get another pretty hot sexy chick lah , she sits home do whatever she wants lah , accompany me when i dont have a substitute

Lady : You’ll never get happiness then if u behave like this n think like this , u will never settle down for a good one

Man : Im smart enough to know she love me coz of money , there’s no true love either , just that we are both useful to each other back then . Who cares how many lady i have when she’s old , she has no right at all to sound me . It’s my money n its my life , she can go out with guys then , i dont care . We will have our own circle .

Lady : Then y u wanna get married early then ?

Man : She’s so pretty that time , if i dont sign her in , she might be some other man’s woman . And even if i married her , i still can have my own sweet playboy life , she’s not capable enough to earn herself a living , she cant live without me . If she doesnt like the way i enjoy , then ask her to leave , believe me , she dare not ~! Even if i slap her , she dare not even sound abit , she’s weak , she has no brain to think n lazy to work ever since the day i met her , all she have is her beauty , and now without it , she’s worthless ~ But im still a happy man although i chose pair 2 , coz im still happy , hanging out with diff girls everynight , which man could be happier ?

Lady : But if one day , u’re broke , u’re old and useless , u dont have anyone beside u to take care of u , loving n care for u , how would u feel then ?

Man : Im rich , i’ll never be broke , NEVER ~! I cant be broke , i cAnt ~! NO ~! NO ~!~!~!~!

Lady : I still stand for pair one . Coz both of them will work hard , take care of each other , travel around the world together , enjoying themselves together , having everything done together , and spending the very last minute of breath together . Who knows , someday , when both of them had made their way tru , they can be richer than what u are now . And the girl can use that amount of money to be as pretty as your lady at home .

Man : But …

Lady : Money is important , but beauty is not . Coz money can buy beauty , but beauty cant buy money . Beauty can let someone earn some fast money i agree , but just for a short period when everything starts to fade … But money , they’ll never fade . Money can buy you beauty for as long as u want … But money cant buy u true happiness n buy u never ending life spend … money cant extend your life … Money , attracts everyone …. us … But beauty doesnt ~

Man : I agree with that . If i would to choose a bag of money and a sexy lady , i want the money , coz i can get 100 times sexy lady with that

Lady : Aiyoh , u use money to get lady ~! Aiyoh , u r so stupid , u never get what i mean

Man : AbButhen ? If i pok kai no girls would want me

Lady : It is not necessary lah . If u say like that then poor guy never get married meh ?

Man : Err ……….

Lady : Then poor people de wife will forever be ugly meh ?

Man : Err ……….

Lady : Pretty girls are not stupid . They see more man in life than others do . They too , like u guys , know who love them and who love just their beauty . Just like u guys know who love you n who love your money .

Man : But no money no girls

Lady : So does it mean that not pretty no fren ?

Man : No lah … but … err ………… err ……..

Lady : See ? Speechless . Anything can happen , anything could happen , everytime , every second , everywhere in the world . Miracles DO happens . Pretty girl can end up marrying a beggar , never read that ? Never read an old man marrying a sexy lady even he’s poor ? It’s on the paper lah , always have the similar story every year .

Man : But …

Lady : BillGates’s house is as big as an island , but why does he only has a wife n only love his wife n never had any rumours about him fooling around with girls ? IF anyone in the world to have that very chance , he’ll definitely be the top 10 choice . But y didnt he ?

Man : Coz he’s a good man loh …. but ….

Lady : And we lady respect good man , n we cherish good man , and we always love good man …… long live good man ~!

Me : Ehem .. eHem … excuse me you two , please , kind enough to pass me back the mic please ~!

Now ladies n gentlemen . Which is your choice , a lifetime promise of happiness , or a temporary pride , joy and fun ?

Think about it . Everyone is not stupid , both girls n guys , we know who really love us n who ya right , LOVES US konon ……

Okay , Im really leaving now n i’ll be missing YOU ~! Bye bye ~! Holla u back when i get my cute lil butt back in my place ok ? Lovey Lovey ~~ *wink wink*

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After i started writing my blog few days ago , everything seemed to be different now . Everyone seemed to be , just different …… Different ways of talking to me , different ways of expressing themselves , different ways of carrying themselves , and im glad , different ways of looking at me . Does a shout out from the blog can really change others point of view overnight ? Perhaps my answer is … yes !

I would love to thank all of you who drop off everything and spend your priceless time reading what i’ve wrote . Writing this blogs is my daily routine now . Another way of overwriting my daily diary , coz writing down my routine here keeps me going , and i dont feel lonely anymore . Its a way of expressing myself , or should i say , having a chance to have YOU as my friend , knowing me better and at the same time , ME , knowing you …

I have a strange feeling something different is going to happen now at this point of time onward …… something good , something fun , and something sweet … coz only after today that i realized there’s actually alot of nice people around who understands and share the same view and thinking like i do . People who care about others sincerely , people who are true and special , people like YOU ~

I love to meet different beautiful souls all around me , special ones who’s smart enough to complete my next sentence without me needing to say more , smart ones who know how to respect others and generous enough to not being selfish to themselves , someone who knows how to treat others like what they expect others to treat them … It’s easy to get a friend cuz whenever u walk out the door , there’s plenty of them waiting for you to approach them or just mingle around and u’ll got to know plenty of new friends . But to get a true one , it’s not easy at all . You might know everyone in town , but you might not even have a single ‘friend’ out of so many … agree ?

I strongly believe in the balance of Yin & Yang . Just like karma … what goes around comes around . And if u want something , u work hard for it , coz even if u dont see the result of ur hardwork now , god will definitely pay u back sooner or later . Maybe the god has been busy when u need him at that point of time . Remember , u’re only one single tiny lil soul , god has to take care of the wholoe world including aliens , give him some time will yah ? He never rests , imagine that …. pity him ….

Sometimes when u want something badly , my advise , dont push it ~! Imagine if u wanna eat a taufu so badly and u urge yourself to scoop it up fast , the taufu will smack onto the floor n turn into err …. u know ? (what kind of example is this , aDui ~!) Just like if u love someone too much , dont force them to be like what we want them to be , coz they’ll leave u someday , somehow … If u happen to think of it , if u want them to change into someone else , then they’re no longer the person who caught your attention back then , they’re no longer the person u know , the person u love , the person u care of … coz if u care , why would u wanna force them to change ? Aren’t they’re perfect enough to get u go nuts over them earlier back then ? And don’t blame them when they’re behaving like someone else , coz it’s YOU , and it’s always YOU who force them to become someone even they themselves doesnt recognize . How could u possibly coupe up with the change , if the person who are changing is actually YOU . Coz it’s YOU who changed the whole beautiful story first , it’s YOU who changed your mind about your partner , it’s always … YOU !~ So stop hurting your partner , it’s not that they’re not good enough , it’s YOU who’ve gone side ways somehow and couldn’t accept the fact that everyone is unique in a way , each and everyone in this world is special , and their different … it’s YOU who couldn’t accept the fact that YOU couldn’t manage to stuff yourself into others life , not them … They never complain about you , so stop complaining about them … and please , never backstab your love ones although they’ve made a big mistake …… for choosing YOU ~! It hurts , alot …

Love , a simple yet complicated word … there’s no actual definitions of love , coz it’s a never ending word … To give without love is easy , but to love without giving , it’s IMPOSSIBLE ~! To get more love , there’s no short cut to this , the only way to achieve the best result is to give more … and eventually more love will come to you …

Sometimes , even when we did our best to keep a relationship from going on , in the end , we ourselves is the one who end it . But deep inside we know clearly that what if that is the best solution to everything , then it must be done . There’s no need to drag a relationship for so long if there’s no more love and joy but pain n tears … I believe that all of u guys who have had someone special before clearly understand what i mean by that . When we love someone , it doesnt mean that we must OWN that very person , just let everything be the way it’s suppose to be , be natural … and everything will be alright … And when we leave someone , it doesnt mean that we dont love that particular person anymore … it’s just that maybe we cant seemed to fit into each others life anymore , and its better to keep as friend than a special friend , then it’s of course better to let go , than to hold on and keep on hurting each other and end up with two broken hearts unintentionally … And maybe by letting go , time changes everything and one day , you two unexpectedly bump into each other somewhere in this big big lil world and spark flies , lights on , music ~ and u two lil love birds will get together again . And believe me , if that happens , the bond between u two will be even stronger than the previous one … coz u knew , deep inside that what turns wrong back then , and never repeat the same mistake anymore …

If being together is to control others life like having a pet dog in your life and to get what u want from them and not giving out , then , i happily crown u with the title ‘ the luckiest person in the whole world ‘ coz u had however , found a loyal pet dog and u’ll die never knowing what’s love and what’s giving , ending your life with just two word , selfish and worthless ~! Explain - ‘ Where are you now ? Cannot , u’re not allowed to go out with dut dut , i dont like em . Why must u go out ? Stay at home , i though u have your project , u finish already meh ? Finish it lah ~! Why u wanna go out ? U’re very rich ah ? Too much money duno where to spend ah ? Why u wanna go there again ? You think ur life too long to live ah ? Why u smoke ? You wanna go search for another lengchai/leng nui izit ? Ok , OK , OK , u listen carefully ah , if u go u dont call me again ~! / OK , OK , U go lah , how dare i ask you not too , u always do things your way de lah ‘ Ok , U try to go lah , see what will happen ‘ OK , u go and i go too ….. etc etc etc …’  Eh , come on lah , u crazy or what ? U think if u lock their body at home = locking their heart in yours , u’re mad ~ Maybe nothing will happen in a year or two , but when they have the chance to step outta the house n see the world , they’ll leave u for good . And by that time if u wanna start a fight with them , they’ll answer u nothing much but this - ‘ If u dont like it , its your problem ‘ ‘ You say whatever u wanna say , im still gonna do it ‘ ‘ You dont like it , then fuck it ~! ‘ ‘ I tell u what honey , go get yourself a dog , coz i dont look like one ‘ ‘ You dont think by yelling at me i’ll follow whatever u say , u didnt give me my life  , n my life is not yours to control ‘ ‘ i think u’d gone way too far dalin” ‘Stop yelling at me im not your pet dog ‘ ‘ ARHG ~!~!~ im not a dog ah ‘ or just a simple phrase ‘ Alright , i’ve had enough ‘  <– familiar ? Want me to list out some other example of lines they will throw to you straight onto your face ?

There’s 2 kind of people . People who likes to control , and people who love to be controlled . This is what i call the balance of life . Ppl who controls feels that the other side still love them if they listen to whatever they say n follow whatever they ask them to do , they’re like the boss controlling everything in a relationship , they think that the partner cant live without them , they thought that they have however , had everything under control . I didnt say its wrong doing that , coz most of the people are doing it , even now , even YOU might be doing it , it’s not wrong . I tell u why . People who love to be controlled , they feel like a lil lamb meKkk MeeeKKkk , so soft n cuddly n ‘ke lian ‘ (stands for pity in chinese ) , they felt protected by their love ones all the time coz they are too soft to fight back , they feel like their love one is very MAN , they are happy coz they found the MASTER to control of everything which will go wrong or right somewhere , somehow , they feel safe coz they have someone STRONG who can protect them . Funny how things go , just like my case . There’s never a balance in love , its either u love that person more , or the other way round . But it certainly doesnt mean that the one who love lesser is the one who gave out lesser , get that right ~! Love is a one to one thingy , never had enough of it , never gave enough … There’s not perimeter to calculate love , and to understand that , you search for it , and learn from it . You learn sorrow , to find the way to unlimited happiness , you learn tears , to get a sweet path to a melting smile , you learn to forgive when u overcome and accept hate and lies , you learn to love only when you understand that giving out love doesnt guarantee that u’ll receive it back … you learn love only when u can manage everything wisely , but then mess things up stupidly … you learn love when u thought u gave enough , but in the end u realized its yourself who messed the whole thing up . You love , only when u wanna love sincerely , and that u are not afraid lose anything … you can love anytime u want , anywhere u want … but please love someone only when u really mean it and understand how to love and cherish , i will be glad to see u love , but im never glad to see you hurt someone , coz i rather see u not loving them at all , than hurting them …

You can paint a picture , buy a Big Mac , throw it away and treat it as though u never had it before … but u cant love someone , leave them and go on as though u never love them before … If u do not agree , think again …

Only love when you are ready to give people unlimited happiness … It’s better not to have a lover if u dont have time for them . Imagine u have a girl/guy , everytime u called ‘ im busy dear , call u back in a minute ‘ ( then there goes another same call n another n another … and the end of the story ) So why start one when u know it’s gonna end very soon … why hurt someone when u know u can love them better being a friend than a special one ? Remember , think , before u love ~! It’s worst than sitting for a tough exam , coz this is what we called - the toughest test ~!

Some says ‘ u love when u wanna love , its a natural thing , u dont need anything to love , u just … love ~! ‘ Then , please , consider this … HOI ~! U crazy ah ? U though love is really that simple ah ? Yes , but NO ~! Take this … do u see love when u see your love ones suffer coz of u ? Do u find love , when u found sad tears in your lovers eyes ? Do u think there’s love when you’re the one dragging your love ones’ life down ? Explain - You cant even buy her a meal , then forget bout it ~! Work hard n wait until the day u can then only u should get another person into your life . Why force yourself doing things that u cant be able to bear ? Why cause her to suffer for you when she can be happier without u ? Why let her suffer the pain and problems that u have when she’s better off without u ? Loving someone doesnt mean that u must have them , and loving someone is that u love only when the time n condition is suitable n fit in .

But there’s another form of love too … You love her , but u cant even bear your own expenses , u go with her … day after day , u 2 know each others need n life very well , ur lover knows u need money , they force themselves to work so so hard for each other , they end up happy , suffer , but yet , still happy ~! Then its ok . Coz its a two person thing . If u two agree , then its ok to love.

Nowadays people are all very realistic . Even me myself , i’ll explain why n i dont think u’ll say its bad to be realistic . You’re damn poor , u promise that u’ll give a girl a good life , yet , u NEVER work hard for it . We didnt expect u to give us a fixed deposit account did we ? But at least lah u work hard , if the girl agree to have a normal life just 3 meals are enough then ok lah . But dont lah if u’re not that kinda smart people who work hard n earn money ones you pulak go for a girl who can get all kinds of guys they want . This is very true u know . If u cant bear the expenses and maintenance of a Ferrari , get a 2nd hand Kancil loh . Im not being a dumb head here , just to tell u the fact of the world today . Just like girls , if u’re just have ur pity lil pretty face n body n has no brain n u just dream to have a rich guy , go get an old men in stead coz he’ll die fast n u can have all his money . Just like u guys , u’re not capable and u wanna get what ? A super girl ? Good , please go to bed now , u’ll have plenty of them ~! Face the fact , everything happens for a reason , and everything is here for a reason .

To all those pain in the butt de ppl , If u say girls are materialistic nowadays , dont blame us for doing that . Coz u guys made us one bAd sexy asshole ~! ASk yourself , if u met two girls , both were very nice person , both loves u as much , but one is pretty n one is not , need to say more ? I didnt say that everyone is the same by choosing but then this question is purposely threw by me to all those guys out there who never stop categories n critic us girls for being realistic . ANd everyone , guys n girls , just tell me this , do u agree on - everyone deserve a better life , and everyone deserves the best , why settle for the second best when u have a chance for the best ? ‘ See ? That’s what im trying to say . NEVER , judge any girl or guy for being materialistic n realistic , its not their fault It’s already here in the world before , now , and ever …. It’s YOU , yourself , your own pitiful soul’s fault for being so naive , hammer head n so left out and never been able to face the fact . Face it ~! coz u’ll have to face it anyway , anyhow … Dont agree ? I’ll give u say like , ermm …. 5 years ? And then think of what i say again , then answer yourself …

To have a better life , work hard now …… even u’re 50 reading this , it’s still early . There’s never too late . Coz if u dont start NOW , u’ll never know when it’s too late … maybe your ‘too late’ comes tomorrow , a hundred years , or , the next minute ……

My advise , in your daily routine or even in your love life , start something only when you know you’re capable of handling n managing it . Never be too overconfidence n hammer head to start something far beyond your capability , coz it’ll only cause you a bad headache and unlimited access to sadness … maybe if u’re those who love to watch Korean drama / Taiwan drama u can try it lah , so that you can make full use of the tissues and lil towels your mum bought for you when u break down , all the time along the process of suffering …

If you need a friend now , Girls especially , dont be hesitate to keep in touch with me … Im always here for you , coz i know how it feels when u felt like u’re the only one left in your tiny lil world … Been through , done that . Friends does help alot , trust me ~! You can go through the whole thing by yourself like me , but it takes alot of courage n pain to do that … alone ~! And to those girls n guys who hated me so much now for stating out the truth of life , continue hating me , but i love u ~! MMmMUUaaAHhh ~! It’s ok to hate , but not for too long ….. coz in the end , the one who suffers is the one who befriended HATE , not FORGIVE …..

To all the beautiful people who’re now reading this lil corner of my page … i love you guys , coz u kept me writing <– ops ~! i mean kept me going ….. hehe ~! and when the going gets tough , come on , It’s never tough , i though YOU are going to be there de ~

I’m leaving soon … my clock is ticking … hope to see you guys soon after my trip . I salute u guys , for being nothing much , but the very true self of YOU …..

love always ……. leng yein

First of all i would like to really really sincerely thank all of you for looking up to me —– on my choice of guys ~! Aiyoh , you thought im the goddess ah ? Come on la guys , being single for half a year doesnt mean that im picky or im a lesbian lah aDui ~! There’s few things i would like to verify to all u guys , not just me , but for a favour of alot of girls out there …. take this ( hAIyAhh ~! wATchAa ~! )

Example 1 : If being a beautiful person = she cant possibly be single = has a lot of choices n leng zais to choose , then i ask u guys a question . If u are thinking this way , There’s NEVER the existing of ANY ELIGIBLE BACHELOR Then ~! Coz if a guy is good looking = he cant possibly be single = he has alot of chicks to choose = pretty girls will always be single ? OR do u mean that all the beautiful people are taken by beautiful people n this world will be left with only ugly people ? Is that what u guys meant ?

Now , What’s the ACTUAL defination of BEAUTIFUL then ? good looking ? if tats ur answer then i bet u’re a total gone case mAn ~! Doink , Cockcoo Cockcoo ~! See ?? Being a Beautiful Person is like a special package , formed by inner beauty blending with outer beauty + good attitude . Will u go out with someone as good looking as an angel but she’s behaving like a baboon ? No right ? SO ? STill duwanna give up ? Ok , Next …

Example 2 : Pretty girls always go for richer guys … i shall start with ermm … hansome guys is all useless people who doesnt know how to work n only know how to get money from rich girls ? See ? Treat us fairly will ya ? We girls are not crippled lah , we have hands n legs n brains lah come on , we know how to earn ourselves a living lah . Not to say we dont need u guys , but then since if u put it this way , i’ll put it this way loh . Turn it backward , if u’re a good looking guy , ppl always catagories u as a person who would probably choose a sugarmummy , how would u feel ? That’s what we girls felt when u guys ask that . And to be frank lah darlings , we girls can earn easy money 100 times more than u guys can lah . That’s y girls model are more than guys , see ? But we never act cocky coz we understand the Yin n Yang of life . Guys are always the one who got promoted to be on highier ground , but it doesnt mean that a girl cant be at a position a guy can be . Are we clear now ? Never look down on us , coz we girls never look down on u guys . If u still think guys control everything n girls shut up , then pack urself up today n shift to live …… with your mum ~!

Example 3 : Pretty girls always think they’re so good that they have so many boyfriends at a time coz they are all playgirls who dont scare to lose a guy coz they have many n they will never be loyal to their guys …. I wanna tell u what i’ve seen in my life . Pretty girls tend to be more loyal to their love ones than the normal ones , believe it or not . People are always not what they look or seemed to be dear . We are not playgirls . And i believe u guys will agree on not every hansome guys are playboy , right ? If a pretty girl end her relationship with u , u blame ALL on her .

Why dont u check whether u’d did this … 1st - u always nag n complain ‘ i know u r pretty , if u leave me today , i know u had loads of better guys out there waiting for u ‘ … 2nd ‘ I have had enough , u dont think u can always do things your way , im not the best choice u have , but i have my honour too ‘ …. 3rd ‘ Where r u now ? wHAt ? with wHo wAh ? Angel ? Which Angel ? Really ? (the guy suddenly quiet quiet wanna listen whether there’s any funny noise going on on the girls side) What time will u be home ? And why r u going out so much these days ? … 4th ‘ Girl , u’d changed , u r not the person i know anymore , eversince u got all the attentions n the modeling jobs n ur unfinished messages n praises from people all over , i rather u being the person i know when we just started , simple and normal ‘ … 5th ‘ I know im nothing compared to those rich guys n models who’re head over heels over u ….. *then the guy cry* ‘

Actually sometimes , things doesnt need to end the way u thought it’ll ended . We never change , it’s U ~! Its all n always about U ~! Yes , dont blink , it’s YOU GUYS ~! We are girls , understand this . Do u wish your girl to be uglier n uglier until ur mum ask u what u did to ur girl ? Or do u wish to see ur girl turning into someone better ? My advise , dont always nag ur love ones no matter girl or guy anything alike those examples i list out above . It’s totally sickening u know ? Not sometimes but all the time , SICKENING ~! U dont like the change then get lost ~! Get not a better one , but go get the worst one instead , so that they will NEVER turn into someone better no matter how long u guys go together , happy ?  Use your brain n think , how would we feel if our love ones always say harsh things like that ? I duno bout u guys but i felt insulted , hurt n down .

If becoming a better person means that we’ll leave our love ones soon , then they’ll never SUCCESSFULL people in this world coz they are too afraid to lose their lover by being a better person . see ? If u love them , u should support them  feel happy for them . Think this way , they are happy + better now with u around , u r their savior ~! U r a hero ~! YEah ~! U’ll feel better …. n they , too , will feel very very much better , better than all the projects n jobs n opportunities that they have in hand , coz they have YOU …… Remember , if they love u , no matter how good they become , they still will love u . And too , no matter how wrong u turned to be , they’ll still love u ……. coz is THEM , who chose YOU . Not YOU , who chose THEM . Remember that ~! If turning into a better person motivates u to leave ur love ones , howabout ur love ones leave u for that very same reason ?

No matter how good u are , there’s always a better person out there …… whether u wanna admit it or not . But when we HAD already PICK a special one out of so many people , we stick to them . If not , why are they saying that Love is Selfish . Who would wanna be shared or compared ? Who wouldnt want someone to love them , and to be treated special ? bla bla bla unfinished touching things n so on …. dut dut dut … What i wanna state is that NEVER , NEVER EVER tell your love ones that there’s always a better person out there lah , i know u’ll leave me one day lah , i know im not good enough lah n stuff like that . All u need to do is to ask urself back a question before u even wanna start asking them that ‘ why she/he pick u out of so many people ? why is he/she still with u but not others now ? why is she/he still the one who make u smile , n smile back at u at the same time ? Why ? Why ? And why do u still care so much for him ? ‘

If there’s any point of time when u r free , dont start SOMETHING STUPID to argue about , why dont u use ur talent on thinking or some surprises or arrange some nice comfy dinner for both of u ? Or make him a cup of tea ? Arrange a facial for him ? Any idea of anything nice ?

Please , CHERISH ~! It’s a very simple word , yet, hard to really study n understand the true meaning of that . Cherish the moment , every single second , be thankful that WE are still the one they love , WE are still the one waking up beside them , that WE are still the one he calls , even if he cheat , remember , its not the end of the world , coz WE are still the one he’s afraid to face , WE are still the one they want to lie , coz WE are still the one he cant bear to let go . Coz if he dont love u no more , y would he lie ? He could just tell u this ‘ Hey , im busy right now . Please , would u please dont call me again . IM very bothered by YOU ~! *piak* he slams the phone ‘ See ? So , considered the sun is still shining bright , that the flower is still blooming , and that , he still loves u , for who u are .

If u ever thought that u had made a BIG MISTAKE , check this out , he made a bigger one ~ Everyone is NEVER perfect , but its possible to be perfect for someone , when that SOMEONE is in love with u … So , if u wanna be perfect , go get someone ~! Wahahahah ~!

Example 4 : Pretty girls always sleep around n very easy to get their number . Aiyoh come on lah , are u still what ? 4 years old ah ? Even a 5 years old kid can get Angelina Jolie’s number lah . Are u kidding me ? Beautiful people giving out their numbers to people doesnt mean their cheap lah , they’re just friendly . Or if u still wanna be so stubborn ok then , coz they have too many choice to choose who to go out with so they give their number around so that they can add them to their new collection loh , happy ? We are like everyone else in the world lah , if we are not allowed to give out numbers , then i tell u all the communication station will go bankrupt . And we will never had any chance to buy a handphone , so the handphone company also bankrupt . Then are u happy now ? If u think hansome guys n pretty girls always sleep around , think again . No ? Please , take ur own sweet time . Think again  . I must agree that we DO , however have the chance 100 times highier than normal ppl , but still WE DONT DO THAT LA ~! There’s no report saying that ppl who suffer from sex dissease are mostly good looking people lah ~!

Example 5 : Pretty girls /PR girls / dance girls / models are dirty cheap . Talking about pretty PRs . Respect for them lah ~! Its a job also ,they didnt go n rob u guys lah . They didnt kill ppl n push ppl down the street , they didnt hurt ppl right ? They’re just entertaining YOU , without them , y u guys go to clubs ? Look at yourself ah ? STupid ~! Next time when u wanna point ur finger n laugh at pretty girls , laugh at urself first , u know y ? Cuz u have a mother at home who’s once a pretty girl before , n u’re their product . Funny ? Yes , i think u r pretty funny afterall , Haha ~!

Example 6 : Having a pretty girlfriend = having an expensive car …….. to be frank , My advise , ask TARZAN to intro u a jungle girl . Not everygirl is a big spender . But i must say that everygirl DOES spend . And a pretty girl spend more than a normal girl , tats for sure . Frankly speaking , if u r not capable of paying ur own bills , keep single will yah ? I duwanna see there’s another sugarmummy on the list man ~! If u cant cope with the speed , buy a kancil . Do i make myself clear now ? Im not saying that everygirl spend guys money , but what im trying to say is the fact that have u ever heard of going out everytime n the girl pays instead of boys ? Get it ? We girls , are capable to spend using our own money . We didnt force u to buy us diamonds n pearls , but if u guys dont buy , alot of business will go bankrupt ~! Again , im not trying to say that we spend ur hard earn money like running water from the tab , but im stating that come on lah , at least for special occasions lah ~! If like that also u dun agree , i think i’ll pray hard for u …. to get a girl who doesnt like presents ~! And hope god stand by ur side for that …

ATTENTION : Every girl n every guy in this world is pretty …… we are not good enough to catagories a person as UGLY . But what ashame is that people nowadays love to catagories that . For me , each n everyone of us have our own very special beauty …… its either from the bottom of our very own heart , or we go home n thank our parents for giving one pretty self . Cherish everything you have NOW , before its too late … But then remember , there’s never too late . Too late will happen only when ur body no longer stays with u , n ur soul tore apart with it …. tHat is , however , too late ……..

Love u always …………. truly …… leng yein

People always think that they know me , but in fact , they don’t …

To all those people who tried so hard to bring me down , all those who never stop backstabbing me , all those who cruely took away all my hopes n dreams , all those who break my heart n left me with nothing . Hereby , i sincerely thank all of u , each and everyone of you for doing that … Coz i’ll never be stronger without those fall , i’ll never be smarter without those lies , i’ll never be myself , now ….

To all the girls especially , thanks for backstabbing me in front of my X boyfriend , my clients , my bosses and nevertheless , my friends . Coz im really grateful that u actually love me so much that u sacrifice your time talking n discussing about me , how touched i am , Oh ~!

And now to those who believe in whatever people told you about me , thanks for believing them coz u r such a nice friend to believe a ‘friend ‘ Ah , so happy how friendly people goes around and make this world full of friends , maybe tats y its called ‘ world without stranger ‘ … do u see how beautiful the world is with u people around ? U’re like my live telecast man ~! How can i ever repay your ‘kindness’ ? Follow your style and backstab u back in return ? Haha ~! Na , its just not my way of doing things babe ~ I have better things to do …

And not forgetting all the people who stood by myside and never leave me , even people that i never met , whom i never know , anyone who never have a slight feeling of turning their back on me … i hereby thank all of you for believing in me , having faith in me . Without u people , i would have made it this far . Although i may seemed to stand alone all the way , but to reveal the truth , i have alot of nice people like u who’re always there giving me support , calling me up just to know how im feeling n how am i doing nowadays , people who do everything for me sincerely . And i tell u what , you guys were the greatest person on earth ! Without u people , i will never , never ever be myself . Thanks for standing by my side when others were not , thanks for trusting me when others believed an idiot , thanks for being a listener when others are a telecast trucks , thanks for being nothing much , but a nice person in heart .

It’s funny how things turn around . Now that i stopped aside n look back , alot of them who once hated me , befriended me . I never hate them , n in the mean time , i love them . Coz i know that they’re once a failure , for believing whats not true , for being a cruel person to kill a person’s soul , for being an asshole n mess up people’s life , for breaking others heart , for letting others down , for being nothing much but a naive person like me before … Yes , i was once a bitch just like u girls too . And at a point where i realised it , i am no longer one , n i will never be one … It’s useless to explain how good we are n stuff like that , for me , its totally a waste of time . Dont need to tell others how good are girl , dont come n tell me bullshit to impress me n befriend with me . I know who is my friend and who is a piece of sh*t . Trust me , i know ~! If u made me tell , it’ll take ages to finish my story being lied , conned , betrayed , hurt , let down … bla bla bla . Dont need to pity me coz im not a girl who need your pity anymore . You dont like me , keep it to yourself . You dont need to tell me coz i like u no matter u hate me or not . Im not trying to act as though im such a lovey dovey sweetie pie here . come on ~! We’re grown ups lah , i love everyone coz i know people who hate me doesnt know me , thats all . i will never have problems with people who knows me , in the sense that they know ME , not ‘ Oh , Leng Yein ah , i know , i know ! ‘ <– this is stupid ~!

I took myself awhile to learn to not hate everyone who hurt me , or should i say force myself not to . But at last i gain unlimited happiness … Girls , please , dont hate me for my success . If u ever have the chance to understand n feel the pain of the process to my success , i guess u’ll pity me instead . What i’d been through is not easy girl . I know everyone says that my family is rich n stuff n i forever will get any attention n anything i need but that is not true at all .

Kuantan is a small town , everyone knows me here , and everyone is talking about me all the time . But what can i do ? I cant stop them , i just can smile whenever i heard them backstabbing me , tats all . Try to feel for me , what if u were me , how would u feel if people around are talking about u 24-7 when u never even know why ? How would u feel if people never stop accusing u when u never even know the person who are backstabbing u . Just imagine strangers talking n discussing about u as though u were best friends but actually u never even see her before , how would u feel ? I tell u how i feel , i feel very sad . That’s y u girls never see me in town hanging out . I work 10-10 everyday without off day and i just ta pao my meal back to my shop n eat , or maximum u’ll see me around few restaurant opened by my friends for dinner with my lovely sister thats all . You know why ? Coz im so sick of going out and people starting to telecast my news . It’s in saint ~!

But now , after half year of celebrating my single life … im imune … so its ok to go out now ~ Oh ya , you girls , if u changed your mind , next time u see me , say hi ~! I promise i’ll greet u back ~!

Love Always ,

leng yein

Never regret what u’ve done , only regret what u have not done enough. I once told a very special friend that its very funny how things always happen , how people meet and felt for each other , how the very special story started , how the story goes on n end , and how everyone change … a move , a smile , a glance , a rose ? Anything will happen , everything will happen , everytime , everywhere , to everyone … It doesnt matter how it started , what really matters is that how u make things happen , carry on n how u decide to end it , and leave a legacy behind … Everyone has their very own story to tell , to share , and to learn from … Me ? I have mine too … I cherish all the beautiful things on earth , remember it , and share it with people who understand the true meaning of the simple word ‘ cherish ‘ … Its very easy to give without loving , but it’s not possible to love without giving … Love has an equation - Love equals to compromising , not sacrificing … Im not Mr handsome W.Shakespeare here so i wont write loads of those touchy touchy stuff lah ok ? To fall in love is very easy , but to carry on the story is tough . Once , i learn to accept others mistake and to token others’ good point onto my weakness and learn from it . Then , i learnt that time changes a person , to either a better one , or the other round . As for me , i only allow myself to change into a better person coz i believe that only by this way , i’ll keep myself true … as always n forever … Everyone will eventually change … i had already accept this very cruel truth , there’s no such things as pure love … no one will love us if we sit 24 hours at home doing nothing , no one will love us if we’re nothing but a big ass dumb head . No girls will love a guy who cant even support 3 meals a day , no guys will love a girl who only knows how to do shopping and not saving . We dont force someone to change for loving us , we instead change , for loving them … Everyone deserve a better life , i deserve the best , why should i settle for the second best ? And what’s the true defination of the ‘BEST’ ? It doesnt mean that i must go n get myself a darn rich guy with no brain , coz i rather settle for a guy who knows how to love n care for me and work hard for a better future . I will however hate guys who try to impress me with promises they made who cant keep it . I truly understands that promises are to be broken n heck the rules but then , ehehm ehem , guys , if u get a gf who say ‘ its ok if u broke ur promise , please text me , coz i want to learn from her lah (cuz she’s crazier than me)’ I dont need a guy who’ll forever saying ‘ yes dear , yes dear , oh, but i think this is better but its ok , yes dear ‘ My man will forever get my respect , and will be respect for being one fine man . Define a fine man , for me , a fine man is a man who dont hit, slap,punch,push n smack me (like my X), never yell at me without any reason in front of the crowd / friends (like my X), not bossy n selfish (like my X), and a guy who dont have the intention to be with me n spend my hard earn money as though im a ATM (like my X),a guy who will never push me down his car (like my X) , a guy who will never knock me down with his car (like my X),a guy who has plenty of girlgirl outthere n still , he’s a bad liar (like my X) , a guy who doesnt allow me to even go out with my own sister for lunch (like my X) , a guy who doesnt let me have friends (like my X) , a guy who never understand these words - compromise , cherish , understands , respect and love , or to be frank , a nice guy will never be anyway near my X . Im sorry to say this but the worst guy i’d met eversince the very first day i was born will be nobody but both of my X’s . Refer to the statement above , if a guy who can do that to his girlfriend , who could be worst ? Hey , dont laught at me . I’d learn my mistakes n realised it , thats how i stood up n became what i become now . This is just the slight touch of my life , if u guys knew the very story from the beginning till the end , i bet u’ll feel lucky enough to have your love ones loving u so much . I spent 5 years being an idiot believing that there’s such thing as pure love until the day , the very day that i scoop my very dying soul up n carry on … with no one but myself … Now that i’d succeed , i see things differently … I believe that the only way to let others feel n agree about what u felt is to be a successful person , succeed n do things that others cant possibly do , prove n show them that whatever u say or believe is true … No one will believe a begger , get it ? I’d learnt the fact that everyone in this world today is very materialistic n staright forward . People wont just talk to u if u have nothing that caught their attention . Or at least , love ….. Haha ~! Got chA ~! Ok , too long now … will continue in part 2 ……

love love ,

leng yein

There’s 3 things in this world that we girls hate , but then love em so much at the same time - boys , guys , men . Well , shall we start this debate again ? ( OoOo i lurve this ) All girls dreamt to get a rich , smart , loyal , honest , loving , understanding , warm and innocent guy . But we ourselves knows very well that there’s no such man living on earth nowadays . Dont agree ? Well , let me explain . Do u think there’s a rich guy outthere who’ll love u forever if u keep nagging him all the time that he didnt give u enough money to spend ? Do u think with all the girls who’s trying to act so innocent and be a goody goody girl surrounding your perfect man doesnt make him change his mind towards a girl who has been with him so long enough for him to see through all your weakness n mistakes yet we ourselves still being naive thinking that they cant live without a sexy ass like us ? Come on , nobody in this world is suppose to die if they loose someone . Stand up , face it , learn your mistakes , learn your past , carry on and not try , but MAKE SURE you dont repeat the mistake again . Its your life n u’re suppose to decide what u want . Dont let people decide for u , coz when u fail , are u suppose to blame others for your own mistake ? Guys n girls both need respect . You dont respect them , hahahah ~! Think yourself , how would the story end ? I lost 2 men in my life , and both ended with a very bad situation . I chose to runaway n not facing them coz i cant bear the pain of looking at their face . I believe now that everyone change , or should i say evolve . No one wants a relationship to end , coz if we knew it’ll end somehow , why would we wanna start it then ? But when i comes to a point when there’s no joy but pain , why continue it ? We dont know when we’ll leave this very colourful world , cherish every second that u have . If u both cant work things out , then end it  . Carry on . Walk out the very door of your , there’s like , what , millions of people out there who’s single . Enjoy ~! If u’re not ready to commit yet , dont commit . Its ok to lay back and enjoy your single life n at the same time , dont need to look for someone , coz love will come , believe me . It’ll come naturally . A smile , a glance , a move , a trip . Love do wonders , and make wonders . Believe , and believing makes miracle … There’s no such things as ‘we were not meant for each other ‘ . Just that when something bad happened , both should talk things out than just shouting at each other like barbarians . If u’re like my case , u wanna settle things out but the other hand take us for granted n kept shouting at us n make things worst , comes to a point where all we left were just tears n pain , learn to let go … give them some time . They will finally understand someday , somehow that once a person who truly love them so much kept silent for so long and yet they take them for granted . Now that the person had gone for good , they’ll finally realised something missing . I believe that alot of people had been tru this stage . Learn to cherish , and everything will be better . Shouting , accusing , winning quarrels n fights is always the winner , coz u’ll ended up the FIRST , to be kicked out from this game of love . Cry , when your love one has gone ……… So , cherish your love ones , do not take them for granted . And if u did , apologize , before everythings too late . But for me , nothing is ever too late …… coz love do miracles , and believe , coz believing makes miracle

truly always ,

leng yein

I hope that all of you are not judging a person by their appearence or dressing . This are just accessories add on to our very nude body . Come on , a girl can be darn sexy AND very classy at the same time . The difference between that is just the clothes they put on during that very time . For me , i cherish my body more than anyone in this world . I dont exercise , i eat n eat all the time but maybe this is my family’s gen that we dont get fat easily . I feel most comfortable when my body n hair is in very good condition . Maybe some of you thought that im a very open minded girl . The answer to that is ‘ Yes But No ‘ ~! Im not a girl whom u can just buy me a big present or should i say pay me to get laid . Excuse me lah , respect yourself abit lah ~! Go to hell if u think u’re so good to just pay and get a sexy girl laid . We girls can earn ourselves a living lah come on . Not every pretty girls are useless . WE have brains and we need respect too . Imagine i say all the hansome guys are useless n they always stick to rich girls n dont work , how would u feel ? See ? Think ~! Being sexy is a personal opinion anyway , some may think its a slutty act , while some think its a very good thing to record it down as a memory , that once , we have that sexy body to be proud of … Being sexy is not a guilt , we didnt offend anyone did we ? We didnt go around nude n cause traffic jams did we ? We didnt pose nude in cafes n cause everyone stay drinking in their place for hours and other ppl cant settle down for their drink did we ? No we didnt . So , dont think that sexy girls are easy to get . Coz its totally the opposite . Being sexy doesnt mean we play hard to get either , come back to the same thing , its a personal opinion . And its a token for us that we have something that not everyone has . We didnt purposely act cocky in front of girls cuz we have a killing body . Smart sexy lady uses their body to earn money . NOW U IDIOT , HERE U GO AGAIN . It doesnt mean that they’re slut lah u bengong ~! Girls with sexy body get alot of offers for jobs , classy advertisements n shows . Mind you ? Ever heard of models being not sexy ? And sexy does mean that u have big boobs , small waist n big ass . Sexy comes from within … only the smart people reading this article will get what i mean . Coz the stupid ones even i pay to invite u to a talk regarding this matter also , u’re wasting my money , coz u r stupid ~! No respect for girls , n we girls dont respect u either , u IDIOT ~! ARGH ~!

love always ,

leng yein

Love is when you wake up, he is already on your
mind…
Love is when you lost your heart, he is all that you
can find.
Love is when you want to be the one to dry his
eyes.
Love is when you see the truth in every one of his
lies.
Love is when you want to listen to all his whims
and woes.
Love is when you want him to take care
everywhere he goes.
Love is when he calls you , your heart goes a
flutter.
Love is when you see him "I love him." you
silently stutter.
Love is when you tell the world that you love him
so.
Love is when you’ve told the world … but he
doesn’t know.
Love is when you know you’ll still love him when
he’s lost his hair…
Love is when your eyes light up when you see him
there …
Love is also when you hear your heart breaks
when he held hands with her.
Love is also when you crumbled as you hear them
say that it will last forever.
Love is also when you cry inside yet smile
outside when they say hi to you.
Love is also when you held your breath and
said "How do you do?"
Love is also when you let him go … you know he
is happy now.
Love is also when you know you’ll get over him
somehow.
Love is also when his happiness is what matters
to you.
Love is also when you let him love her … and not
love you true.
Love is when you’ll still love him … and still …
he’ll never know
Love is when you’ll swallow the pain and slowly let
go
…Yet.. love is a funny thing …
Love is when you smile when you hear that it’s
him and her no more.
Love is when you hear he sent her through the
door …
Love is when you try to "bump" in to him again …
Love is when he’ll say hi to you and there is no
more pain.
Love is suddenly real love when he says he loves
you too …
Love is suddenly real love when his life revolves
around you.
Love is suddenly real love when he’s always loved
you but he didn’t dare.
Love is suddenly real love when he’s always loved
you
but thought you didn’t care …
Love is suddenly real love when now it’s all
coming true.
Love is suddenly real love when you love him and
he loves you…
Love is suddenly real love when now your life is
nearly complete.
Love is suddenly real love when everyday … it’s
him you meet.
Love is suddenly real love when you friends
accept him too.
Love is suddenly real love when you can have time
for them and him and you.
Love is a many splendoured thing … and a really
complex feeling.

SO when you love someone … just tell him … or
her
… You’ll never know how it’ll turn out … one way
or the other.

Tell him before he’s gone … tell her before she’s
taken … Confess… confess … what’s there to lose
… When pride and ego’s forsaken.
You might never know … he might love you too.
She or He , might feel the same way for you …

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You Never Lose by Loving
You Always Lose by Holding Back

Hey , this post is specially dedicated to all the guys in this world . You read about us , u study about us , u do research on us , u hate us , yet , u can’t live without us coz u’ll be , GAY ~! Wahahahaha ~!

Ok , let’s start this ‘TheEnG’ . What we really want . You know what ? We want a better life , cuz everyone deserve a better life . Everyone deserves the BEST , so , y should we settle for the second BEST ? The defination of the ‘ BEST ‘ , everygirl has a different point of looking at which guy is better . But one thing for sure , they have their own reason why they pick their choice of guy among so many others . If a girl complains bout her bf ‘ my bf is a piece of shit ‘ = girl , u are a pain in the ass n u ashame all girls . No ? U don’t agree ? I tell u why now . If he’s that bad ( not to blame u for accepting him as ur bf cuz its allowed to make mistakes ) , then why r u still with him . There’s no need to scream n shout at your bf , just dump him lah . You think u r a big girl having a bf already but u cant handle your own relationship ah ? Dont say someone is bad n yet still stay with him . If he’s bad n u wanna stay , SHUT UP ~! Switch place , y if ur bf tells u he love u then behind u , he went n tell all his friends u were a piece of shit . Ever thought of that ? People wont pity you if u always complain that ur partner is not good enough , relationship are between two people , it’s YOU who know what’s best for yourself and what’s not .

How to define a GOOD & BAD guy . The answer : NO DEFINATION . My elaboration starts …… This guy A , falls in love with this girl X . They went out n were very happy . After few months , guy A found out that girl X were very self centered , selfish , not understanding , bad tempered n always likes to raise her voice on him in front of the friends so he try to talk things out . X shout shout at him n say ‘ u dun like then we break up lah , no need to talk crap here . u duno how to cherish me i can get a guy who know how ‘ Guy A tried his best but the girl just left him . Guy A met Girl Y , they fell in love almost immediatly . Girl X came back begging n crying , Guy A says ‘ Sorry , it’s too late . I have had a gf already ‘ Girl X went telling everyone around this guy is BAD , but Girl Y thinks guy A is sweet . So , the point is , there’s no defination of GOOD guy n BAD guy . Just that when did the relationship comes in , what stage does the relationship leads to , n where does the relationship hit on matters n take in count . You leave a realationship , learn from the mistakes we had made . Don’t say we didnt make any mistakes , coz it takes two hands to clap . Learn n dont repeat the mistake again . You will have a better relationship ahead ……. and i hoped that it’ll last ……..

I believe that everyone does make mistakes before . All we can do is to learn from it , and not run away from it . My mistakes are the same , for never been able to be open my eyes big enough , be smart , calm and wise while picking my man . My awful past leads me to alot of shits now . I wonder why both of my X who used to be such a gentlemen could ever do this to me . Telling people around you bought my car for me n even opened a shop for me ? Haha ~! I had have my shop even before i met u silly , i had everything i need before i had u both . My life is happier even before i had u both . Stop creating jokes around man ~! Even if i dun have my own business running , come on , my family is capable enough to support me lah . Why are you both so thick skinned de ? Telling all the people around me backstabbing me ? Silly Goosey , people will be laughing at u back , not me . I never backstab you guys from the start until now . It has been months , cant u pick yourself up and carry on ? Stop messing my life up , coz if u made me to , i’ll tell the truth ok ? Now you two , stop it ~! Im very happy with my life , i can do whatever i want n have whatever i want . Spending everything on myself , the process , so adorable ~! Stop being a monkey and showing off when you are not up to the standard yet ~! Coz u’ll end up a good laugh …

Girls , be wise while picking your man . It’s easy to get a boyfriend , but its hard to get a right one . Everyone needs a space for themselves , everyone needs some respect from others , everyone need to be loved . Don’t be selfish in love , dont be selfish in everything , even making friends . No one likes selfish person . Both of my X were very very very selfish , at first i though they’re just too protective of me . Then , i was wrong . You guys reading this , u know what i mean by selfish . You can go out with girls n we cant go out even with girls ? U can lay around with ur friends n we cant ? Why if u switch place n see how things goes ? Fair ? u wanna argue bout fairness ? Haha ~! ok . Then i’ll present one question for u , just one simple question whenever u wanna argue bout fairness between girl n a guy . ‘ What if u switch place with him/her , how would you feel ? ‘ U’ll understand the situation better if u think for people and not being selfish by just having your own point of view . But if ur answer is uacceptable , it just prove that your man/lady isn’t the right one for u . They’re SELFISH ~! So , dont complain that he’s / she’s not good lah , this lah , that lah , he’s a bastard lah , she’s a biatch lah . simple ~! DUMP THEM LAH . Dont need to backstab n insult people . Just drop the relationship , its easy . It’s not like u gona spend the rest of ur life with them , YET ! U still have a choice don’t u ? Dont be with someone , telling them u love them , n insult them saying they’re not good enough behind them . If they know about it , how would they feel ? How would u feel if u were them ? Think ~! You click , you go along , and if u click well enough , u get married n live happily ever after . You click , but things goes subsided , then table talk . Can’t fix things up ? Then go on with your life . U didnt kill their parents don’t you ? No ! You guys can still be friends right ? Don’t compare , every human being is DIFFERENT . Don’t agree ? It’s ok . Respect , and you’ll gain respect + happiness for free ! Try it today …….

Love you guys always ……….. Leng Yein