Leng Yein’s Blog

People always think that they know me , but in fact , they don’t …

To all those people who tried so hard to bring me down , all those who never stop backstabbing me , all those who cruely took away all my hopes n dreams , all those who break my heart n left me with nothing . Hereby , i sincerely thank all of u , each and everyone of you for doing that … Coz i’ll never be stronger without those fall , i’ll never be smarter without those lies , i’ll never be myself , now ….

To all the girls especially , thanks for backstabbing me in front of my X boyfriend , my clients , my bosses and nevertheless , my friends . Coz im really grateful that u actually love me so much that u sacrifice your time talking n discussing about me , how touched i am , Oh ~!

And now to those who believe in whatever people told you about me , thanks for believing them coz u r such a nice friend to believe a ‘friend ‘ Ah , so happy how friendly people goes around and make this world full of friends , maybe tats y its called ‘ world without stranger ‘ … do u see how beautiful the world is with u people around ? U’re like my live telecast man ~! How can i ever repay your ‘kindness’ ? Follow your style and backstab u back in return ? Haha ~! Na , its just not my way of doing things babe ~ I have better things to do …

And not forgetting all the people who stood by myside and never leave me , even people that i never met , whom i never know , anyone who never have a slight feeling of turning their back on me … i hereby thank all of you for believing in me , having faith in me . Without u people , i would have made it this far . Although i may seemed to stand alone all the way , but to reveal the truth , i have alot of nice people like u who’re always there giving me support , calling me up just to know how im feeling n how am i doing nowadays , people who do everything for me sincerely . And i tell u what , you guys were the greatest person on earth ! Without u people , i will never , never ever be myself . Thanks for standing by my side when others were not , thanks for trusting me when others believed an idiot , thanks for being a listener when others are a telecast trucks , thanks for being nothing much , but a nice person in heart .

It’s funny how things turn around . Now that i stopped aside n look back , alot of them who once hated me , befriended me . I never hate them , n in the mean time , i love them . Coz i know that they’re once a failure , for believing whats not true , for being a cruel person to kill a person’s soul , for being an asshole n mess up people’s life , for breaking others heart , for letting others down , for being nothing much but a naive person like me before … Yes , i was once a bitch just like u girls too . And at a point where i realised it , i am no longer one , n i will never be one … It’s useless to explain how good we are n stuff like that , for me , its totally a waste of time . Dont need to tell others how good are girl , dont come n tell me bullshit to impress me n befriend with me . I know who is my friend and who is a piece of sh*t . Trust me , i know ~! If u made me tell , it’ll take ages to finish my story being lied , conned , betrayed , hurt , let down … bla bla bla . Dont need to pity me coz im not a girl who need your pity anymore . You dont like me , keep it to yourself . You dont need to tell me coz i like u no matter u hate me or not . Im not trying to act as though im such a lovey dovey sweetie pie here . come on ~! We’re grown ups lah , i love everyone coz i know people who hate me doesnt know me , thats all . i will never have problems with people who knows me , in the sense that they know ME , not ‘ Oh , Leng Yein ah , i know , i know ! ‘ <– this is stupid ~!

I took myself awhile to learn to not hate everyone who hurt me , or should i say force myself not to . But at last i gain unlimited happiness … Girls , please , dont hate me for my success . If u ever have the chance to understand n feel the pain of the process to my success , i guess u’ll pity me instead . What i’d been through is not easy girl . I know everyone says that my family is rich n stuff n i forever will get any attention n anything i need but that is not true at all .

Kuantan is a small town , everyone knows me here , and everyone is talking about me all the time . But what can i do ? I cant stop them , i just can smile whenever i heard them backstabbing me , tats all . Try to feel for me , what if u were me , how would u feel if people around are talking about u 24-7 when u never even know why ? How would u feel if people never stop accusing u when u never even know the person who are backstabbing u . Just imagine strangers talking n discussing about u as though u were best friends but actually u never even see her before , how would u feel ? I tell u how i feel , i feel very sad . That’s y u girls never see me in town hanging out . I work 10-10 everyday without off day and i just ta pao my meal back to my shop n eat , or maximum u’ll see me around few restaurant opened by my friends for dinner with my lovely sister thats all . You know why ? Coz im so sick of going out and people starting to telecast my news . It’s in saint ~!

But now , after half year of celebrating my single life … im imune … so its ok to go out now ~ Oh ya , you girls , if u changed your mind , next time u see me , say hi ~! I promise i’ll greet u back ~!

Love Always ,

leng yein

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