Leng Yein’s Blog

You can hate me for writing this but then if u could just calm down and think , im just telling the truth that no one else dare to ever reveal to others …

My hometown - Kuantan . Not very small , but not a big city yet , or should i say developing to be one in years to come ? Life here is very peaceful , everyone knows everyone around town . No matter what u do , especially if u r those rich kids or happening people , if u did something that stunned or shock others , the next minute , the whole town knows about it . Sum up , most of the people around town talks alot .

I grew up in this lovely little town ever since i was a kid . People around town likes to compare other parent’s kid with their own . People love to compare , people love to insult , and people love to show off in this town . Even just little little things , they’re so afraid that the whole town doesnt know about it . Publicity in this town doesnt costs you a cent babe , u dont actually need to print flyers and banner or do some shout outs to let everyone knows what u’re doing , coz people will start top spread rumors and stories about it even before u complete printing the papers . You dont believe me , come and stay for one year , if i prove u wrong then prove me wrong indeed ~

My friends and families from overseas and out of my hometown often asked me how i survive in this little town surrounding by hammerhead people and ’special’ minded people . They often thought they know everything and they’re the wise ones and that they always think that they’re the best . They’ll never wake up from their dream one day and realised that all they know is just how to boast and plain talking craps but doesnt know how to respect not others but themselves .

People in town doesnt give others break , they just non stop talking about what others do and kept on insulting others with their opinions . If it’s just a simple opinion is ok but you guys around town are always too much man ~ Im so sick of you guys all the time . If the ratio for bad mouth ppl to nice people in town will be 6:4 , and im already closing one eye to give out such ratio . Short cut to understanding my point is just by one single way , come and have a nice stay in kuantan for just a year , then , u’ll indulge yourself in my homely little situation and strong hold the tiny insy binsy all sorts of how the towny life actually is here .

I know i cant change the way of how people live in this town , but what i can do is to choose what kind of people im going out with . And if u dont like what i write about , just hate me n stop reading NOW and take out ur phone n start calling your friends around town n ask them to read what i wrote n hate me then , this is what u r good at right ? Well , i dont care ~ that’s your way ,it has always been your way , and forever will be your way ……All u know is just to start some stupid topic and start telling people all around about someone u dont even know , hoping that the whole town will start to talk around like u and hate that person even though u dont know why you wanna hate her for . You know why , i tell u why , coz u r too free ~ And my advise , u really should go get yourself a big bottle of water , coz u know , u do alot of talking so u need alot of energy to kept u talking on and on …

And to those of u who love to peek me wherever u saw me in a restaurant or walking somewhere in town , please , just come by and say hi will u ? Im not a white tiger , u dont need to walk round n round or pretending to be doing something and actually all u want is to look at what im doing or whatsoever . Then why dont u just stop n look in stead coz its the same right ? Coz no matter how good u r pretending my friends still saw what u r trying to do , behind you . Come on lah , my friend is everywhere lah , whatever u talk will come back to me very soon . Have u forgotten something ? Kuantan is like a ball , everything goes around , and the good thing is , it comes around very fast . And do remember something dear , karma comes around too .

I used to explain this and that , but now , i will never do that anymore . Its either u take it or u leave me alone . Be my friend , or be my enemy . Like me for who i am , or hate me for that very same reason . I dont care , i still can live my life happily without u coz im nothing to u and same , u r nothing to me . Coz i know ppl who talks about me is those who doesnt know me , then , should i say more ?

And , to those people who kept on asking around about my status SINGLE . Now , what’s your problem . I believe u guys knows both of my Ex’s very well right ? Everyone knows who my Ex are , Miss Pahang’s Ex ? Come on ? Mr who n who n who ? Hey YOU , go get them as your boyfriend then . Why bug me ? They’re still my friend , and i have no time to listen to how their life is now and then . You guys shut up and leave me alone will yah ? Wah , people’s love life also u can talk , hey , i suggest u go take up a professor course and come out with a certificate so that u can go all around the world and talk . Good ? Coz u get paid ~

Single or not , seriously i wont admit that i have a boyfriend until they day i know for sure that that very guy is up for a steady long term relationship .

And i can tell u now that i had already met someone special but yet to be revealed . It’s very hard for both of us either way because of the distance and some other problems which we should take in count . But one thing for sure is that he is special and he treats me respectfully and he has been very supportive . Im not a girl who will tell people around that i am single where as i promise another party that we’re trying out . Now , i hereby tell all of u that when the day comes that i tell u guys im taken , stop wasting your time coz im a very loyal person at heart .

I dont mean that im putting up a ‘ single and still available ‘ sign but im also not putting up ‘ im married n counter closed ‘ sign . I dont know what’ll happen next in my life but what im aiming for now is to succeed in my own career and at the same time having a very balance and healthy love life . Im too busy all the time so its very hard for me to jump start a relationship just like ( click ! ) that or to maintain a healthy relationship when well , im not in healthy condition all the time due to the stress n work im doing now …

To all of my friends in Kuantan , u can still call me out for a drink , well since it has been really a while for me to go out for a drink . Let me count , ops ~ i really forgot when’s my last time . But at least months n months ago … Always n forever stuck in my appointments and shoots .

To all the 4+4 people out there , stop checking my friends out whenever im trying my best to have a peace of mind and enjoying a wonderful night out with my friends will yah ? I notice that whenever me n my friends are , when we’re about to leave , u guys never stop peeking what car my friend’s driving or never stop asking around who my friends are . And days after that , the whole town knows where i’d last parked my car and who i went out with . Aiyoh ~ If u guys are so free come stop by my shop , i have loads of things for u to do coz u r too too free ~

Why this lovely little town ended up with loads of people like u i always wonder . Every little things u guys treat it as though its the end of the world treat . Example , a true story from my friend ‘ What ? Your bf got u a 3k handphone ? ‘ Then the next thing i know is ‘ Hey bitch , my bf got me a 3.1k hand phone the day after u got yours … ‘ and ‘ Hey , u girls know something , yesterday i saw XX and she told me her bf got her a 3k hand phone , Damn ~! I think she’s materialistic , if its me , i wont take it ‘ Hey , come on lah ~ no matter what u girls say about my friend , its a 2 way thing . 1st , She’s good enough to let a man spending all his money on her so whats wrong with u pulak ? Jealous ? 2nd . It’s u who doesnt deserve it so does it mean that others cant have it too ? People are all the same here , they cant bare to see others are better than them or others have things that they could possibly own one . JEalous ~ blekk

You wanna show others some ‘colours ‘ coz they have something u dont have ? Then my advise , work hard for it ~ Dont talk so much , it never helps . Work hard and get it yourself , the only difference between u getting urself something and others getting u one is that - u can get yourself something u want all the time but others just give u what u want once in a while . Dont get it ? If u r capable , u can buy whatever u want whenever u want . But if u rely on others to give u something u want , 1st , u must beg them like a dog , 2nd , its forever depending on the other party whether they wanna buy u that or not . So , y be a dog when u are a human . But one thing , my dog is luckier than u , he always get the best things from me all the time without begging . TadaAa ~ Still dont get it ? Well , u should stop reading my blog now coz u r a pityful empty person ….. in mind ~

Kuantan people , its nice coz everyone knows everyone all around coz this is however , a small town . But to those typical special breed people around town , EAT YOURSELF ~! Start talking behind me NOW , PLEASE ~ Coz u make me more famous for erm … i dunno , for whatever u tell others about me then . Cocky ? Proud ? Stupid ? Brainless girl who has a nice body ? A girl with no true friends ? Hurry , call your friends now to view what i wrote about u people , brain wash them to hate me NOW ~ Hurry , before its too late . Coz u will be seeing my stupid face all around town in posters , banners , newspapers n magazines all the time this year . I tell u what , im back in the modeling line ~ WAhahaha ~

Sum up , screw those bad species of sub-sided minded people around the town ~ Lovely people in Kuantan , u’re welcome to join me . Our click - coz we DONT CARE ~ The percentage of us winning the bad species will be 8:2 . You know why ? Coz we have better things to do in life ….. so to the bad mouthed people out there , start talking now u shit ~

Another talk of the town ……… leng yein

pEoPLe oFteN tHiNk tHey kNow mE , bUt aCtuaLLy , tHey dOnT ~!

There’s a reason behind all the captions i wrote alongside my pictures … People around me are doctors , psychiatrist , lawyers , plumbing guy , students , con mans , idiots , psychos , farmers , indah water ppl , bla bla bla … YOU , can study me . YOU , can guess what im thinking now or whats my next step . YOU , can read n follow my blogs everyday and hopefully try to get to know me tru these letters and stories of mine , but u’ll never understand how i felt in real , never …

Funny how thing goes sometimes , i met nice ppl tru my blogs , and again at the same time , i met funny people . But its ok , i can absorb all that . This is what they call the balance of life eih ~! Its lovely that some people tried to switch places and picture themselves at my position , its very sweet of you thank you . But to those guys who tried a little too hard , my blogs are mainly for those who are understanding enough and close to me de ppl , so stop wasting your time try to approach me and change my view on things that i’ve already stated clear ~

I need nice and friendly people to keep me going now but i certainly do not need some extra pain in the butt to hop in . You can say im strong , you can also say i just try not to be weak all the time . You can say im hard working , or you can say im afraid to calm down n haunted by my pass . You can say im capable , or u can say im all about the money . You can say im realistic , but u can also say im materialistic . This is what i said before , the balance of life , the yin n yang of everything , the angel n the devil , the true fact of life ….. But again , its up to you which position u r standing and what u see in ur own point of view . And again , i dont care honey ~

Girls , thanks for accepting me for who i am tru my blog , i love u girls muah ~! Guys , dont push too hard ok ? Im not trying to promote myself to u ppl here , this is just a way of free writing as a place where i write down my thoughts and stories . U can skip my page if u think its a waste of time , no one is holding a gun forcing u to read . STOP HERE ~ DO NOT CONTINUE READING ~ IT’S CONTAGIOUS ~

To all my true friends out there , YOU , kept me going … Who are my true friends ? You dont need to know me well , you need not met me before , YOU , are true to yourself , YOU , are true for being my friend in heart , and YOU , are my true friend indeed …. Muah ~

People , u cant judge a person tru her looks , but u can measure a girl by her experience that she’d been through and her capability of handling her life . NEVER look down on a weak person , coz u might never know who’s your supporter or your strongest opponent one day …

NEVER under estimate someone , never give up , never stop giving , never stop taking , and never stop changing … and u’ll find success coming your way … Understand those point in a deeper way , and u’ll understand what i mean n which aspect im talking about …

Some people told me that im not secured with all the people around me , that im running away from reality , i force myself not to trust others , i locked my heart up and not to open it to people who are kind and who love me so much , i turn down others offers just to live my life all by myself , i made myself so tired coz i dont accept a single living creature’s help , i bIa bla bla bla … sum up , im scared / im haunted by my past / i cant accept my past / whatsoever …

My feed back on your says : Right , and not right . Correct , yet not correct . Yes , but No . True , not true . Think , Analyze , and understand . Been there , Done that , Go on with it .

Whether u like it or not , i still stick with my way of doing things . I didnt ask you to follow my way , but dont u try to brain wash me and try to get me settling my life down doing things by YOUR WAY . I dont mess up ur life , so dont u try to mess up mine , coz no matter how hard u try , trust me , i know myself so well , u’ll never get to change me , NEVER . I know whats best for myself , dont try to tell me what i should n shouldnt do , dont try to tell me what to do or not to do, dont try to tell me whats right n wrong (depending on what lah) , coz i dont wanna know how u live your life and how u handle your problems , diff ppl has diff ways of doing things , agree ? But WE ourselves knows what’s best for ourself . Coz if i follow your way , something bad happens , are you the one others blame ? Are you going to pay for all the mistakes occurred from your stupid idea ? Are you capable of handling the shits for me ? You want me to listen to what you say , but answer me this , who are you ? Bill Gates ? Haha ~ No ? Then shut up ~ I dont care how or what u wanna do with your life , and guess what ? I dont even wanna know , im too busy with mine … So be clear in mind now , stop wasting your time bugging me around asking me to do impossible things , hey ! Watch this ‘ I will always be me , whether u like it or not , its either u accept me for who i am , or FUCK OFF ‘ do i make myself clear now ? Dont like what i say ? Then im very sorry …… u should move on without me now … Cool ? No ? But im cool with it , coz i still have other nice friends around me …… u should move on and what , try harder to change others around u then ? Good luck to you ~ May Mr.god have the extra time to bless u ya ?

We do what we must to survive , u can either accept the person for what they are , or move on without the person . Agree ? If u think its impossible to get a person who loves u unconditionally and accepts u 100% for who u r without a single thought of changing the very true YOU , u r wrong ~! There’s no difference between u found a girl or a guy that understands you , at least u found one , that counts ~! There’s still people out there who knows how to cherish a good person ……… and i had already met them ~ Lucky me ~!

Love a person for who they really are , for what they’re made of , and dont ever change them . Coz if u did , they’re not the person you first met anymore …… and eventually , things will take turns and change …… Cherish them , before everything’s too late …… Accept , and others will accept you …

Love Always , leng yein ……………

PpL miGht kNow a sUccEsSfuL pErsOn , bUt tHey nEveR kNoW tHe pAin bHinD tHoSe sUcCeSs … face the fact of life ~ this is my story ………

Years ago when im still studying , every time my friends call me out , it must be me to attend a party or sumthing n sponsors everything and end up people just leaving me aside . I never betray my friend , i swear to god , i tried so hard , so hard to let everyone around me to at least like me as a simple friend . I guess things just goes side ways and turn the other round . Whenever they finished uses me , i’ll be left alone with nothing but bitches laughing behind me n backstabbing me that im a useless brainless bitch .

Those days back when im outta school and stepping into college life , you know lah , those bitches who went to Australia thought that their so good . Talking behind me ‘ Aiyoh , why lah Leng Yein ? Your parents can afford u to go study overseas , y u stay put in this country ‘ You know what bitch ? Fuck off ~ It’s my life . Back then , i was nothing but just a simple girl who just lost a father and fell in love with my first love which i made my decision not to go UK to further study and stay put in Malaysia . Little did my friends know that im actually planning to go overseas but then changed my mind all bcoz of my boyfriend back then .

Back to times during my 2nd semester of my A-Level , something happen and my boyfriend asked me to stop study coz he cant bare the pain of me staying so far away from him . I know this is stupid but then i did , i did made my choice to give up my studies . And girls , i wont say this is wrong , or even say this is right . Coz i prove myself right now even people said i made a wrong choice back then . You know something , when im back from my college , i was left with nothing . My mum was so furious at me coz she wanted me to continue my studies . She was already furious when i took my exams and going to fly to UK and then i told her i wanna stay put in Malaysia , think , can u picture how angry she is at me when i ended coming back saying i duwanna study anymore bcoz of ……. my boyfriend ~!!!

I was left with no one but my one n only lovey dovey boyfriend . Imagine then i notice changes in him . He knows very well that all i’d left is him then he started to shout n scream at me . Time does change a person , from angel to devil . Just months , u can spot bruises all over me . And now , i thank him the most , for making me NOW … I thank him for letting me giving up my studies , coming back to my little hometown where everyone in town knows my family and knows who i am … i thank him for letting the whole town laughing at a useless girl who are now brainless and useless , a little girl who cant do anything bcoz she doesnt have a certificate …… a girl who love a person so much but getting all the pressure from all around , and yet , boyfriend hurting me every few days . When i left him , you’ll never get to taste the bitterness i suffered , the pain n sorrow i had . From everyone in town pointing finger at me saying that it must be my fault , it must be me coz im pretty , it must be me maybe i have another boy out there , its myself for being so stupid to stop studying n now ended with no certificate n no achievements …… It’s always me , it’s always my fault ….

All these years … this period is the time when i woke up n realized alot of things , i realized that even how much a person love u , u’ll never know what will happen one day … dreams are always a dream … and everyone should know how to differentiates a hope , a dream , and the fact of life , the reality … I realized that in the end , no matter what happen , whether u r happy or not , all u’ll be left is all by yourself … You can choose to hate yourself for being stupid , or love yourself for being strong … i choose both …

I never dare go out coz i know wherever i go around town , ppl will be starting to pointing finger at me talking bad things which is not true . Just imagine i lost my study for a person not worth me loving , lost a person i love most , and lost my mum coz she hates me so much back then , and lost all my friends coz they believe those bitches spreading my rumours around , and taking up fingers pointing at me laughing ‘ Haha , see ? She deserve it , Leng Yein’s a bitch . Now she cant get a good job coz she doesnt has a certificate n now pity her , even the boyfriend she love most for 3 years leave her … hahahaha ~ ‘

I know what u girls did to me back then , i myself know very well how much  how deep i’d fall … I would love to thank all of u bitch now that because of you … i pick myself up and love myself more …. I nEveR fOrgEt hArD tImeS … i rEmemBer iT iNsteAd , cOz i LeaRnt tO bE sTronGeR …I will never forget how u treat me back then , even if im smiling to u today … Hey bitch , remember that ~ What goes around , comes around . You can mess with me , but u can never runaway from KarmA ….. I love u deArSSss ~ thank you so much girls ~

wHen iM sMiLinG HapPiLy nOw , i sIncEreLy ThanK aLL tHosE LovELy pEopLe wHo oNcE hUrt mE dEepLy … I didnt start out easily , and perhaps i should thank god for giving me this tough test . Coz i prove myself doing the right thing even im without a certificate like u girls … you laughed , you teased , you looked down on me , now u take it back , and i give in , coz i realized that after all these times , i should’ve realized that even the worst time comes , i still can survive …

You thought its easy that a 18 years old girl climb from the very bottom to what i am now ? Yes ? Then try ~ Coz i still heard ppl saying ‘ Cheh , she must have done something behind if not how she got to this place now ? ‘ Tell u what girls , what i have now , its not up to my expectations . Hear this , what i want is more , and more and never enough . I wont settle for something just nice , i want the best for me . Coz i know its not your life , its my life . Like it or not u can still pray everyday for me to drop down again but i tell u now , even if i drop down again , i will never stop trying to climb up . And if i made it , i’ll make sure that what i have by then is more than what i am now , bare in mind ~ I will never give up on myself anymore ……. coz YOU , YOu gave up on me once , and that’s enough … I dont care what u girls think bout me or cursing me behind my back , i wont allow myself to fall bcoz of YOU~ Coz i know it’s not worth it .

Now that u see me all around town , posters , newspaper , banners , my business , my shows , and u tend to curse me more ? Then good , may god bless u forever for cursing me … my Mr. Karma will get you someday . By then i wont be laughing at you , i will help u . Im serious . Coz i know when u r at the point when u realized alot of things , u’ll finally understand how i felt deep down inside me … and by then , i know very well that you wont hate me anymore …

And NOW , people around me are fakers , posers , angels , gods and devils … They are alway there … just step aside and look at people , u’ll end up with the answers that i gave … u cant runaways from all of them , but u must find away to handle different kind of them … i found the way already , have you ? I consider myelf as a LUCKY PERSON coz out of so many billions of ppl they picked me , they picked me to become the ‘topic / person of the day / month / year ‘ to curse about … see ? Im so lucky ~ thanks babe ~

Now , people do call me up everyday asking me ‘ dear ah , where r u now ? ‘ People who doesnt even wanna throw me a smile back then is calling me up now . Im grateful that in the end of time i get this point right now … when u’re nothing , u have nothing …. when u r something , u get everything …. it includes money, fame , status and everything …. so go n get yourself something , to get everything ………. get what i mean ?

Start talking behind my back NOW , hurry ~! Before u change ur mind n become my friend one day … Coz i believe if i dont hurt people , u guys will stop hurting me one day . And even if u guys duwanna stop hurting me , i still got more love and care from all around and u will never have as much love n care n pity from people …… Dont believe me ? Come and be my friend , i’ll show you how much love n care i have everyday …… The love and care i have from myself ….. the pity part , i’ll give it to u since u need it so much bitch ~ Muah ~ Lovey Lovey ~

Hate me for who i am ……… and i thank you for that ~ MmmMMuahHH ~ This is mE , hate it ? It’s your problem … I will never mess with you , but u r always welcome to mess me up , coz its ur choice after all … i have so many true friends now , i certainly dont want any people to hate me , but still , it’s not my choice … the choice lies in your hand ……… are you kind enough to be my friend ? Or the other way round ? And do u think hating me bring more luck and love and joy into your life ? If it does , then u r always welcome to hate me … coz i know , you dont know me , thats y u hate me … and u’ll never know me , coz u never give others a chance to know you …

One last question , do you think what u’re doing now are right ? Do you think hating a person is the solution ? Do you think you really know that person well ? And do you think you know yourself ? think about it …… and please forgive me if u still however , hate me … i never offend u before , but i wont hate you … coz i know its always the 3rd party who caused you guys hate me so much …

How would you feel If people are saying things which is not true behind you and wanted to make the whole world hate you , and yet m others still believe what they say and started to hate u …. and the circle of hate grows bigger n bigger day by day n u ended up with no supporter and friends around u ….

sO if u hate me today , its ok … but will pray hard today for u n hope that u’ll love others more today , and hopefully the person that you love and trust wont turn their back on you and hate you or try to hurt you one day …….. someday ….

Love Always ………….. Leng Yein

She’s always so egoistic lah , tot she’s a supermodel , tot she’s everything . You walk out ah , there’s so many girl prettier than her lah ~ I see when she’ll fall lah , very fast one , you guys just wait n see lah , she’ll fall very soon ……

I believe alot of girls out there is cursing me this all the time , those girls who doesn’t know me , and those guys who cant get enough of what they want from me *wink* ……

I dont care anymore ….. yes , im serious . After writing my blog for days , i got alot of feed back from girls . Im very happy that you girls finally understand my stand . Thanks for everything …… you reply really touched my heart …

I never thought that after such a long time of suffering from ppl’s mouth , a few simple blog could change someone so much … aNd if anyone of u out there is thinking ‘ this faker damn good in telling grandmother story ‘ tell u what bitch , go get a mic now n spread around that im a true bitch then . It’s your bloody mouth , i couldnt possibly slap u cant i ? But i wont anyway , im not like you … i live my happy life ….

Now to those who faced problems and sent me messages n overcome ur probs n thanking me , u dont need to say u owe me one . Im very grateful that out of so many good friends of yours , u messaged me in stead , u messaged a stranger to ask for help n opinion . I love you ~!~!

Different people has different opinions and views on things happening around em’ . Things always happens , we cant stop them , we cant get rid of them . But what we can do is to live on n off with em’ . We control our live , never let anyone control yours . Coz u’ll end up suffering …… suffering bcoz u’ve made a wrong choice .

I made mine twice and i learn from it . So make one today , and learn from it ~! Haha ~! Just kiddin’ …… When something happen , never run away from it . Face it in stead , learn from it , and never make the same mistake again …

There will be a time when you needed a shoulder to lean on … but when u look into the mirror , all you see is yourself …… call this a self pity process . It’s good to at least experience that once coz u know , by that very split second , that u need somebody so much , and u have no one by your side …… Only then , u will learn to cherish people around you , only then …. you know how to love yourself more than anyone in this whole world …….. coz only then , u realized that when u’re so so down , all u’ll be left is yourself …….

Love yourself more today , coz by the end of the day , the person who’ll pick u up and let u down is forever the one and only ………… your true self ……

Sorry for muting myself out for 2 weeks , was busy with my Korea Trip . I’ll be off today again and will be back on 13th Feb . Im happier even since i started writing my blog . I found out that through this very special page of mine , eventually people started to understand me and what makes me happier is that , YOU , do have the same opinion n view like me . Muah ~!

Like people use to say , we cant expect everyone to like us , but what we can do is to try our best not to prove to people , but to be honest enough n not to felt sorry for ourselves on what we’re doing all the time in life today and dont regret later on …

Once , i believe everyone had the same experience , that we have a few good friends that we trusted them n love them so much , and we could possibly do everything to help them get outta troubles , and guess what , we’re getting into troubles . Then , people didnt thank us but then accuse that we are the one causing troubles for friends . I learn something today , help yourself n not others when u know that the HELP u offer will not HELP urself in return . If something u do can drag u down , leave your friend . Remember one thing , friend will be there when u need them , not causing trouble for you . Yes , if u runaway when ur fren need u is wrong , but then i ask u sumthing , if what ur fren doing is not worth u helping , who would help u in return after u helped them n u pulak got into deep shit ? Them ? If they can help u in return , why did they need ur help at first ? Get this right , a good friend will only make u happy , maybe cheer u up a lil when u’re being a pain in the butt , forcing themselves to chat with u when u wanna bla bla bla ur stupid stories for hours and yet , they’re there , sipping a table full of different drinks , listening to u , sincerely ……. This is friend . A person who call u up once in a while , borrow money from u n no news after that , ask u out the settle the bill , ask u out when she cant get anyone out to go kaikai shopping with her , only call u when she broke up with her stupid bf n cry cry cry in front of u then when she had found a new guy she forgets about u , only call u when she need you for some yeah right , GOOD REASON and u still think they can be called , A FRIEND , then please call me now coz i wanna be your friend . Coz i dont have such dumbo cute lil friend in my life before .

Face this fact , when u’re high above , u have friends . When u’re down in deep shit , where are they ? Where’s ur heng dai n chi muiz ? Dead ? They are joining other people stabbing ur back darling , they are not your so called friend , they are idiots . Then y r u crying now ? Oh baby , come , jie jie sayang . Dont cry , they should be gone for good . Dont forgive them , remember how they treat u n move on dear . Just move on … stand up one day , stand tall , and u will have a lot of friends , at least , u have Me . And when they call u back , dont hate them , smile back . Be friend with them , but dont let them use u . Remember , always , forever , that once when u needed them , how did they treat you . People like them wont change , u really thought once people do this to u they’ll be so good to u for nothing ? Stop being silly girl , they NEED u n they’re up for something , thats y they call u back when u’re UP from all the DOWNS . think ~ U are not stupid . And u can live without them , live on …… have your own life back , you can do it ~

REmember , you can live without them . NO ONE ~! NO ONE in this world cant live without one particular person in this world . EVERYONE can live on …. coz everyone SHOULD live on … You lost a friend today , walk out of your door , look around , they’re millions of new friends all around u . Find someone who can bring u happiness , someone who can teach u n guide u to become a better person . Leave those who drag u down n do u no good . U dont need them …

If u’re with a bunch of very good friends , but then the group however split to two n ask u to choose either one of them . DONT CHOOSE ~! Walk out , get a new group of friends who dont force u to choose who and who , leave those kids , you dont need siblings do u ? Leave them in the kinder garden . You should move on for graduation already . Never think that when u leave they’ll spread rumors bout u then u’ll end up with no friends . Maybe for abit but not forever darling , if your friends around u believe those kiddo friends of yours , leave your friends too , coz they’re the same kind , idiots ~! After sometime , u’ll get new friends , believe me .

Try this , mingle with different standard of people , different groups of people or different interest de friends , and then u’ll notice that actually it’s good to have friends , alot of them , alot of different ones , and yet , they wont betray you . You know why ? Coz they know that even if they doesnt call u out , u always have substitute . Never let a friend lay a thinking on u that ‘ this fella cant live without me ‘ Even couples have problems on this issue . Never let someone think that they’re so good that we cant live without them . Like i say , no one is suppose to die because someone doesnt want them . Remember always that if one person leave your life , there’s so many coming in every second without u realising it . Think of what i’d just said . True ?

Hop in and make friends , this is what friendster are for right ? So why stick with idiots when u have so many friends around u now ? Come on , make yourself at home in friendster ~!Mis around with different friends , keep in touch . You never know when u’ll need them and you’ll never know , maybe one day yet to come when u’ll end your life with them … you’ll never know … so stay true , be yourself , make a never ending friend chain , dont choose friend , they’re human , but choose your close friends , coz u dont want your secrets and stories to be spread around by them dont u ? But bare in mind , you’ll never know the true person behind those masks , cautious , coz u might never know when they’re gonna get jealous of u n turn their back on u .

JEALOUSY is always there especially among girls , and the process will never end when one is better than another one . There’s never equality , even in sisters . They’re so many girls around me bitching about each other all the time , but what hear n see , i’ll just laugh n forget about it . Coz i know everything happens for a reason and no one hope for the worst to happen , but things just always happen dont they ? So let it happen , forget bout it , laugh about it n then move on . You never wanna live in the past forever dont u ?

The best policy is to keep really important dark secrets to your bestest friend , which is however … YOURSELF ~ That’s the best , coz things which is too strong n too important for u and you’re not suppose to be reveal it , will never be revealed if u keep it forever in your heart …… wise ? Yes …. Hahaha ~ And it’s good not to tell anyone , coz if it’s that important n u cant help yourself , do u think your FRIENDS are capable of handling it when u yourself cant ? Coz u are the only person who understands yourself more than anyone in this world , when u cant do something , do u think your friend can help u with it ? It’s your life , your choice … You can tell everyone your secret , you can make up stories n bitch around , but in the end ask yourself , is this what u ask for ? Is this what u want ?

I once try to live my life how people want me to be , i change myself to suit and tried my best to stuck myself into my friends life , but in the end , what i see is that they’re happy but im not . And they never cherish until i walk away from their life . If u’re suppose to live your life to make others happy while they dont do the same , best way is to leave . They’re still my friends today , loads of friends , or should i say loads of girls who once hurt me so much and try to be-friend with again now . I never say no , i never show my temper , but i did remember how they once treat me , n i let them know how i picture them in my head when they call me back , i told them straight to the face , flat ~ ‘ I will never forget how u use to treat me , but its ok coz everything is the past for me n i dont actually care anymore , keep in touch my friend ‘ Coz i want them to know , im not a junk which they can dump me and pick me up again . I dont need them to be happy , i can find my own happiness coz its all around all the time everywhere … And u girls should do the same , and if u dont dare to , call me , i’ll be your friend , i’ll introduce u to my nice girl friends , they’re all very good people , no bull shit n funny business . Never let a friend of yours hurt u , coz it’s your life . Leave them , u have so many good friends all around , all u need is to look using your heart , u’ll know who’s true n who’s not .

Never believe words that people tell u about people . This is one thing i never believe in . Words always play our mind and causes problems … You have a function brain to think , words should not affect your perceptions on a person . If u believe words that ppl tell u , think this way , what if ur friends backstab u n ppl believe words they say , does it hurt ? Yes . So why believe backstabbers when u yourself know very well that no matter how bad they tell u about someone , they’re always n forever …. BACKSTABBERS ~! If u think backstabber are good and people that they say is bad , think again . Who are playing the bad guy part ? Who is the one who causes heart break in friends ? Backstabbers ……. if there’s no more trust n happiness in friends , u should leave n move on …

What’s happening around u , what’s people bitching around u today , is what u made them to , its all about how u made things outta yourself , how u treat people and how people return their hate or love to u … If ppl started bitching u dont la join them, this is why bitching never stops . If u hop into a topic , it’ll be never ending and in the end u’ll be the one ppl call bitch becoz u’re part of the bitching group . See ? Never call ppl a bitch if u’re nothing different . But no matter what , do this once n for all ….. cherish the one who once love u , never forget what they did … remember those who once broke your heart , never forget what they did … thank those who once helped u outta deep shit , sincerely thankful that there are still angels in this cruel world … FOREVER , cherish your own family members , coz they’re the most faithful friend u ever had in your life like how i cherish my little sister , she’s my bestest friend forever , i love her more than myself , she’s my life and i’ll never let anyone bully her , she’ the best girl i’d ever met , Leng Sean , my angel , my world , my everything ……….. I love u sis ~! You’re forever the best …… my little lamb lamb ….

Learn to be strong , be mean , be stern , be mind clear 24-7 , be independent , learn to cherish , and everything will be better somehow …… God Bless ~ Happy Valentine’s Day and i’ll hit u back after my trip on 13th ……

Love Always ………… Leng Yein

Hey YOU ~! Where r u going to be on 14th ah ? I’ll be in Kuantan with my darling girls and family having BBQ in my home sweet home’s garden. Will not be in town till 13th so sorry if u cant contact me yah . Will paste all my Vietnam trip’s photo when im back in town . Special thanks again to those who cared for me so much , not necessarily guys lah , girls also wEih ~ You people are great ~! Cant live without u guys ~! Party hArd  yA ~! Happy Valentine’s Day to ALL OF YOU COOL PEOPLE OUT THERE ~! yEah ~ And to those who’re still single , ENJOY ~ coz u still have friends , like me ……. Valentine’s are not necessarily for couples la , it’s for a memory of CHERISHING each other . If u really understand the meaning of this very special day , u’ll be as happy even u’re single . Coz u know that u have so many people around u that u should cherish ~! Muah

love always ………… leng yein

I bet all of you had been waiting for 2 weeks for my return coz i had a total of more than 100 missed calls , average 20 sms a day , more than 300 messages , more than i duno how many new testimonials n friends in the adding list when im gone . Crazy ah ? U guys will cause me few broken fingers for typing lah ~! Aiyoh ~!

Make this short , overall the trip is fun ( actually everywhere i go also i say fun de lah ) Check out my pictures in my album lah …….. Pictures tells a thousand word ……. I would like to thank a special person who never stop caring and taking care of me everywhere i go and making me felt so loved all the time . You are the greatest person on earth ~! Muah …

Ok , the saddest part . I had so much Korean food until i got over excited and wormit for 8 times in few hours . That was a hell of experience . Make it easy dear , i just cant live with boring food n funny smell . <– see ? This girl is demanding ~!

Visited GyeongJu , Seoul and few places all over Korea . Fun , VERY COLD . It’s like what , -12C out there we’re talking about , freezing lah ~@!

Check out the new photo in my photo album ……… Muah ~!

love ,

leng yein