wHat i feLt aBout tHeM … part 12
I stepped aside and look at myself , my life now , yes , im a very very lucky ~! And most importantly , im happy now …
Life is so beautiful with love all around … We always have so many choices to choose from … Single or Counter Closed ? Normal or Gay or Lesbian ? Fifi or Bobo or LuLu ? RobertzAi or Marco or Paladin ? Friends or Lovers ? Gathering or 1-1 dinner ? Work or Dating ? Get rich or gone broke ? The toughest of all is , Love or Money ?
Sorry , louder please ? What ? My choice ? Oh , Ehem …… neither one ~! I will ONLY fall for someone who are VERY special . My boyfriend is DEFINITELY the best of all ~! My choice is someone who are better than all of the guys around me , very understanding *wink*, someone who are very patient with me , extra sensitive to things happening around , extra time for me although i dont have that , very very extremely caring and loving , responsible , someone who wont blame me for his own fault , someone who dont hit and/or scold me , someone who can bring me around and show me the world , someone who can teach me things in life and on my business , someone who can made me a better person , someone who are smart and sexy , someone who has confident and mind strong , someone who knows what they want in life , someone who can step into my life but not changing it or messing it up , a guy who knows how to respect girls and himself too , a man who are capable of doing things that a man should do , a person who are honest and trustworthy , extra extra extra money for me to go shoppingSSssSSss ( Mr.god please grant me this wish ) , a guy who knows when to start talking and when to stop , someone who knows where to be at the right time and where not to be , a guy who know what to do when something happen , a guy who knows HOW TO BUY ME A PRESENT ~! , someone who will always stay true and protective someone who will NEVER forget important dates (yes , its a must must !!!) , a guy with a kind heart , and most importantly , a guy who will love me for who i am and wont force me to change into his fantasy (fuck off) , a guy who knows how to respect and love the important people in my life (my sister , my family , my bestest chi muiz ) , a guy who accept US for who we are and never complains , a perfectionist , a guy who will never waste my time , a guy who never nags me , a guy who will only bring laughter into my life and not bombing my peaceful city at heart like Mr.u know who , a guy who NEVER hate my friend (i warn you ya , there are less than 5 people in my life that u never wanna mess with , my sister , waiwai , ai lan , ai hwa and my mum ) if u ever dare make them sad or just unhappy , im out of your story man ~ Muah ~ Yeah , thats about it , easy right ? You just need erm … let me count one , two , three , four … dut dut dut … those simple qualities above to be my qualified boyfriend . But the finalist will be judge by those five person above , thank you . Take note : U cant rasuah the judge , or u’re out straight away … Closing date of this competition are near , please send in your resume to join this competition of love .
Prizes : you get to know how nasty i can get , you can try to mess with my friends and see how WE react , you get to know how loud i can talk and how long my conversation will last once i start talking (ur house can flood) , you can realized alot of things that ur teacher never taught you in school , you will know why they always tell you ‘ Aih , Girls … (shake head shake head ) ‘ , you can know how busy i am and what i do and where i go , u can get hold of my schedule of who i stick 24-7 with (answer : my sister and my bestest fren waiwai) , if u want a 1-1 meeting , erm … maybe im free next life then . For now , i realized that the most important people in my life is still this two very special person , they are both two very unique girl , very understanding and caring and true … to get to know them , add up :
my sister ……….. lengsean_sean@hotmail.com
waiwai ……….. waiwai_lim@hotmail.com
Money or Love ? I choose friendship ……. Coz until now , i cant get a guy who can give me everything that i wish for in my life , or at least , an average good in everything de guy . I dont simply take in crap shit , i only choose the best . If u r cursing me now ‘u think u r so good ah , then i can tell u one thing - yes i dont think i am so good coz i know im good’ U dont like me ? Then u know what ? FUCK OFF , i dont give a shit . I control my own life , i have all the right to search for one very special person who will stay with me FOREVER … (although i had already found two)
Read this ~! It happens to alot of girls all around the world at this very second . Guys around me now … what they can offer me , the sum up of all man kind , and this is what i analyzed : money but lack of attention , overload of attention but not practical (basically just talk crap lah for heaven sake) , love me but cant even pay for my hi-tea , wana be with me but his too busy himself , try to act as though he is rich lah bla bla bla but actually he’s nothing but a cockhead , act as though he loves you but actually he’s just flirting around , someone who says that he understand but actually he knows nothing about me , capable but not capable of handling me , protective but too harsh on my friends , scares my friends’ nenek *wink* (yes , this is true ~! Oh Mr.hansome , dont be angry , they wont know its YOU ~!) , did something wrong and blame their fault on others , they say they’re perfectionist and are picky but then never does things well and mess up alot of things … Ehem , im not saying its YOU . If u terasa , then go ask yourself , what have u done and not done ?
And then , when i stop analyzing , i realized i cant stand guys with these GOOD qualities : Guys who never seemed to get things done the way they said so , someone who are a good actor ( Honey , this doesnt work on me , im better in ‘acting’ ok ? Wahahahah ) , guys who doesnt know what to say and where to be at the right time , guy who doesnt know how to make a quick decision , guy who has no balls (believe it or not , there’s alot ‘mou chun doi’ guy out there) , guy who are OVER confident with themselves , guys who just know how to complain and not saying thank you , guys who doesnt know the true meaning of appreciate , guys who doesnt know what a MAN should do (help us carry things loh , pay money loh , shut up when girls are talking loh , dont start to complain and stop complaining ) , If u already know IM LIKE THIS de and u dont like it then DONT CALL ME ~! If u already know that im a busy person , then stop complaining i dont have time for you . If u think u r POOR , then fucking go get a job and get money loh . Its not that u have no hand and mouth ? At least u have a sexy butt then go sell butt lah ~! Im just telling the truth , maybe u might not like what i wrote in all my blogs , but then , think again …… its the truth , face it ~!
Nowadays im very mean already , coz i finally found my soulmate ……. the greatest goddess of all kind …. wai wai and sean sean ~ Wahahaaha ~! They never complains , they never sleeps , they never stop talking , Shit ~ We’re truly 3 crazy girlS ~
People who just started reading my blog , forgive me for being such an asshole . It’s however , the ME and i will forever be like this de . That’s why i always tell people , whoever ended up being the man in my life is the unluckiest person on earth man ~! I guessed all of u guys agree with it right ? Then , guys who still love me for who i am , think again …… HahaHa ~ Give up , Yes , u should if u cant take this heart attack ride of your lifetime ~ Im not an angel , not a devil , coz im a crazy bitch ~ Nothing more than that ~ I love myself more than you loving me , thats for sure … And i love my friend more than i love you , so bare in mind of that ~
This very fact will only change when i met someone who fits perfectly in my life , someone who are worth of me loving and settle down with , someone who are my everything and will be my everything , someone whom i love more than my own life , someone …… who are however , my one and only lifetime partner .
You guys always think that u r so good , but then think again … are you ? We girls always think that we love our bf so much and that we did everything we should do as a gf , but think again …… did we ?
Everyone can be someone special for someone , everyone has a chance to be in each other’s life , everyone has the possibility to end their life happily with someone they never thought they will love when they first met , anything could happen anytime , anywhere , everytime , everywhere …… My advise , if u never try , how would you know ? If u never give YOURSELF a chance , how would others have a chance ? If u r so good , then why people around you doesnt love you for who you are ? Think … sum up … analyze … and make up your mind …
Every guy and every girl has their weak point . Everyone wears a mask , everyone are both an angel and a devil . If they met the right person at the right time , u will see the beautiful side of them . If they met the wrong person at the wrong time , u will see the ugly side of them . And me ? Im the extreme one , im basically formed by these add up equationZ :
Angel + Devil + Crazy Bitch + Talkative + Sexy tHenGg = me
And the result of it , people love me for who i am and hate me for that . Not good ? I dont care , although i does things my way , but i never hurt others this is FOR SURE ~! People who knows me know what i meant by that . Although im straight forward and very strict ALL THE TIME , but then i wont over do it . So i never had any problem dealing with people working with me . But if u never appreciate what i’ve done and pissed me of , u’re 100% my history ~ It’s not the money , its the regulation ~! You say thank you , not ok lah ~! You learn to cherish and appreciate , not complain and complain . If u think u r so good then go do everything yourself lah , go set up a project yourself , complete it yourself , live your life yourself , and at the end of your life … u r left with nothing lesser than just yourself ……
Everyone has their different choice of partners and choices of what kind of life they want . And after you chose , DONT complain , coz no one force you on your last decision . That’s why im always so harsh to myself , coz i want to hold on to what i believe . People ask me ‘ Are you not tired , stressed or ’san fu’ ? Mu answer , No . Coz i know very well that in the end of the day , i will get what i want in life and that i will be happy . I will never ask for more now coz this is the only i doesnt had enough in my life … MONEY ~! hahaha ~! What u tot i’ll say , Love ah ? Dont be silly , if u dont have money , u wont be as happy as ppl who has it … Im used to being showered with materialistic things , i wont settle for love without money . And when i say this , u should check back on my previous blog for what i’d wrote . I will not settle for money without love either . I want BOTH ~! And i will get it someday … No matter what u say , i will get it in the end … Dont believe me ? Then just give each other some time and you’ll see how i ended up with … shall we ?
Learn to cherish although u see ugly things in life . When others made a mistake , remember what they did and dont do it to others . If u think your boyfriend always screw things up , learn from him , thank him for teaching you a new lesson , study his mistake and dont do it ~! If something happen in a relationship , its nobody’s fault . Neither one of you want it to end that way , just that things always does happen and noone can run from it . Learn from the mistakes that BOTH of you did , remind yourself and jot it down , dont repeat the same thing again and your next relationship will be a better one , hopefully the last one ……
I will only settledown when i know deep inside that , that very special guy has the quality to be the man of my life … its easy yet not easy … but noone knows what’ll happen the next second so let just say leave this aside and let destiny leads us naturally …… we have to hold strong to what we want and believe and the only thing that’ll make me kept going on and holding on will however , only be love … Everyone needs to be loved , and needs to know that they are loved …
Cherish everyone around you … Appreciates every little things that they do . Coz if u dont , they’ll leave you very soon …… Bare in mind : You might overlooked a diamond when u r collecting stones , never let your love ones slipped through your life because of your own naiveness and selfishness. Cherish and appreciates … i repeat , learn to cherish and appreciate ……
No matter what you think about my blog , ITS MY BLOG . U can either hate me for it , or the other way round , love me for being true and straight forward . But then , i love you for reading it ~! Muah ~ My blog is like my diary , and this is the very true side of me …. So love me for who i am , and hate me for that ~
Love Always ………… Leng Yein
March 10th, 2006 at 8:54 am
hmm… so far i’ve just read some of ur ealier blog and never comment.i skip certain parts when its too long. u seems to critise guys alot. every1 is different. calm down and relax abit.. hv some peace in mind which i think u ald hv. i’m a fren of wai wai. u can ask her wat kind of guy i am.i never knew u were her fren until now.i’ll make tis short and out of curiosity as a fren of fren. keep up the smile…
March 11th, 2006 at 1:30 am
hmm…there is a saying that say handsome/charming guy are mostly heartless, pretty girl mostly materialistic go for money first.
Yes, I find this very true…sorry guys and gals if i say wrong words…but my life experience encounter many of these kind of ppl from friends through friends, even myself also see them problems a number of times. I listen to their life story, understand and feel them b4 i could give them any advise to make them feel better.
Leng Yein, I agree with you that dun’t give other ppl any chance to change our own life….coz they will fail not matter what they keep on trying to do. Some words I can share with you girls and guys, is that if you dating 1 person that mean you are dating with 3 person, 1 is the person u go out with, 2 is the person who you wish he/she hope to be, 3 is the person that both hope is the right person. Now, the 1 and 2 one will always end up disagreement to both party, coz if u insist in your mind to make the person as the lover u like him/her to be, then both can never advance to the next relationship.
Leng Yein, my friend…you have accepted that ur ex has make you of what you become today and without them, there will be no you of today…..Just to let you know that nobody in this world could take away of what you have, what you enjoy and what you need…
seem like u are making yourself available to many guys out there….
….bad news is not many can do what you listed in ur comment…I just wish you good luck and take ur time to choose. 
good news to them…
March 13th, 2006 at 3:00 am
Yein,
you’re a strong girl, it’s always good to have high demand as a person.
Just a friendly reminder, it’s more important to focus on the future of a guy, the prospect of him in long run.
Love is a life long game, many guys can give you a lots of flower and diamond when they want you to be his gf, but how many guy will give you that after marriage?
Choose a smart guy with high earning ability.
A guy who is really good, will not change himself to fits what you need; in return, he will not change you to fits what he wants as well! Learn to respect guy, who respect you in return. For those guy who doesn’t respect you, you don’t have to respect them. But not all guys whom does not respect you, so don’t miss out the exception one. Appreciate them!
March 16th, 2006 at 12:26 am
Hi! I come across your profile last few months ago..
Although I never see or hear U before and neither your friend… I once again wish u all the best and all the things U expected come true!
I quiet often see read your profile and blog( although not every thing but some)
Last but not least, what the earlier comment posted by vincent you may consider!
Take Care!
March 19th, 2006 at 8:22 pm
I like your thinking!! Everyone has their reasons of being who they want to be and mind you that changes over time and experience but deep down your roots will remain. I like everything you say cos I think people should just accept others for what they are bad or good. After all every good has a bad and every bad has a good. Life is a journey about discovering who you really are ain’t it.
March 20th, 2006 at 5:40 pm
well…seems like i’m going to print out those blogs and compiled it to make a publication of book with the title “Leng Yein:My Life” …..Lolz….anyhow, to come across such a girl with a huge and different perception of her life,especially the way she think of what, how and which kind of guys suit her the most are really some kind of reminders for other girls out there 2 take note of…at this stage of life, i guess u had already achieved at least 1/4 (not more not less) of what u want…another 3/4 is still under “constructions”….Alright, good job girl! U set a very very good example for most of us…All the best and take care~~
July 6th, 2009 at 4:40 am
u wan a perfect man,but do u thn u r nt perfect at all?u knw how 2 selective but do u knw the man will so much selective as well.if there r a perfect man,they wnt come to u de.they will chose the better 1.if he is frm noble family,alamak,his parent wnt accpect u.their parent and relative will dislike ur job and ur pass,right?if make u mad then i say sorry.i just telling the truth,and hope u be realistic abit.coz most of them just treat model/actress as their toys.be smart