Leng Yein’s Blog

It has been almost a month now staying abroad in China , away from my new ‘home sweet home’ , away from the hectic schedule of mine , away from all the beautiful people I know , away from my usual on going life , away from my beloved cowcow … Hmm … :-* :-* :-*

This whole 3 weeks plus is so tiring , so busy , so humid , so lack of sleep , so always on the go , and most saddening is tat so missing home n cowcow … Travelled to Shang Hai , Hang Zhou ,  Jia Xin , He Nan , Chong Qing , Xin Chun and again to BeiJing . Everyone has been asking me , hey , how’s your life now babe ? Simple ! Happy , watching day by day passed by so quickly , been fully occupied by tight schedules as usual , high energy meter all the time , and try to keep myself smiling everyday … My life, Hah ! Its always full of challenges and chances . But im full of questions n hesitations . Each step I take and each decision tat I made sometimes holds me back a lot n scares me quite abit . Why ? Because I’ll never know the decision I made will effect how powerful to me in the future … But yet , sometimes things tat have to be done , have to be done … This , is what we call – Life …

I’ve never been so active before in pageants . This month , I’ve added 4 titles into my collection . Good ? Haha ~ if u say so then let it be … I’ve learnt alot through these pageants … Trust me , really really a lot …

Im quite lost about my current life now . Yes , of course I know what im doing n believe me , I have a very clear picture of it but then , im very scare sometimes . Why ? I don’t know how to tell you but I believe tat if u put urself in my position you’ll have the same feeling too … No , of course not because of my new titles n what u guys say ‘ more famous ‘ . Having titles doesn’t mean that im any different from all the girls around . Just that every individuals have different interest n way of enjoying things … My reason is very personal n sensitive …

Oh dear ~! Time flies … I’ve already been living alone for a month plus already . Happen to think back all the happy n sad moments I had , I must say now that im walking towards a different path of way , a different stage of my life , a different situation , and different people … but I think it’s a good . I’d learn to adapt new things , decide n do things in a different way … the ending ? I’ll never know … and I just don’t want to think about that anymore … why ? Coz truth hurts … And when im hurt , I’ll be really really hurt … really really … and I really mean it . But yet again , im already very n numb n immune to these kind of situation so it doesn’t matter to me anymore … really ? I don’t know … and I don’t wan to even think about it … I just don’t wish to know …

Well , hope that everything will come to an end soon and I’ll finally get the answer to my prayer … May god bless you all here … and may all the little angels above look after all of you everytime you needed them to … Muah ~

Sincerely …… Leng Yein

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