The Fall … part 28
I believe that the true test of character is not how much we know how to do , but how we behave when we don’t know what to do. There’s nothing such as a certain right or wrong , it solely depends on how u want to put it and let it be … does right or wrong really matters anyway ? What do u earn from winning ? Is it worth the part that you’re losing ?
When you’re at the most downside of your life, u tend to see things clearer. Coz each move u make mean so much , so much more than the same move u take during normal days. It can be the same topic , the same discussion , the same joke , the same thoughts , regardless of whether it’s u or others , one wont understand until we’re left alone n stuck in the situation .
No matter what other says , no matter what other does doesn’t seemed to bother or matters to u anymore. Coz the decision that u make lies on nobody else in the world but u … n the pain that u bear , gosh , makes u felt so heartless … dying ? It doesnt matters anymore , my heart dies the second the decision was made final … it’ll be alright soon ? i dont think so . This incident breaks me apart … For these 22 years of my life , i never felt so torn before . I know i could never mend all the pieces back together , it was never meant to be mended … it were never to be accepted … wasn’t given a slight chance to , im sorry , im so so sorry … God ~
I felt as though i have no heart … where have all the love gone ? For all my life i’ve been loving everyone else around me , but why is it so different this time . I am so lost … this is the best for everyone ? But what about me ? What about … oh my god , where is all the love ? Where is justice n fairness ? What about my life ? What about how i feel ? What about my dream ? I really break apart n fall this time , deep n hard …
God bless all of you …
May you find peace , love & care … I will never forget you … never … I Love You so much … so so much … im so sorry … so very sorry …
Love,
Leng Yein
June 19th, 2007 at 1:13 am
I KNOW TAT U ARE A LOVELY GAL,AND U ALWAYS KNOW WAT U WANNA BE.eRM,SOMETIMES MAY REALLY HURT,BUT,I KNOW U WILL BE OK DE.COZ U HAVE LOTS OF FRENS AND “FANS” WILL ALWAYS SUPPORT U AND CARE U MUCH LIKE ME MER,HEHEHE ANYWAY,U SHOULD ALWAYS TAKE CARE URSELF TOO YAR,MANY BAD CASES ARROUND.BE STRONG YAR,DEAR
June 19th, 2007 at 1:32 am
Take it easy, princes. You just tired. And that’s normal. Even the strongest person in earth need a time to rest. Cause we all still human being. So, just take a little time to rest, and you’ll be recharged and ready to face whatever in front you.
God Love You, and so do I
June 19th, 2007 at 2:15 am
dont worry, no matter wat happens i’m alwiz there for u with full of muackksss.
June 19th, 2007 at 4:35 am
all the best to you.
June 21st, 2007 at 7:14 pm
life is always up and down, see how you take it only. so take things easy leng, there are still a long road for you to go. I will always support you no matter what decision you make. Take care and keep it up.
June 21st, 2007 at 11:19 pm
Miss yein what happen??..who hurt you?? lets kill him..hehe.. i hope your fine now..stay strong and happy..i know you can..No one can let you down..
Your Miss Leng Yein right!! your one and only miss yein.. nothing compares to you!! remember that..
you know what i want to become like you or your daughter in next life.. that’s how much i adore you.. mommy yein take care!! love you.. mwuahhhhugz..
June 21st, 2007 at 11:24 pm
All I know is that the mere fact that you’re single tells me there IS a God
June 22nd, 2007 at 12:11 am
Everyone has their darkess moments. Just walk through the dark side to see light again. I’m waiting you there and willing to give you a hand. Cheers..
June 23rd, 2007 at 1:32 am
Miss,I duno wat happened to u..but hope u can pass tis obstacles..Aries gal is tough enuf in front of any challenges…
June 24th, 2007 at 1:56 am
sounds like u regreted of wat ever decision u had made but then u also know that u wont change that decision coz it is the wisest things to do.. ur only wish would be if only u dont have to make that decision.
for those of us who is trying our best to keep everyone around us happy be it our love one n famalies or just a normal fren, sometimes we being hard pushed to make a choice and either choice will hurt someone that we care about and we hate doing that, thus we hate ourself for having to make the choice.
or is it a choice between ur inner most desire and the love one? watever it is wat is done is done, this feeling of guilt is not helping in watever venture u have ahead, just hope they will understand and forgive.
June 29th, 2007 at 5:39 pm
winning is not about getting what u wanted but rather is the ability of u to surpass yourself while in that situation(s).Whether of not you have done your best,live true to yourself during an obstacles.
Of coz ultimately it’s the end result that we all wanted but dun u think more important than that is what we have learn from the process??
July 1st, 2007 at 4:09 pm
if u don’t have that feeling the life will be too smoothly right ? this is call to be breakthought ;then u wil be know the way to go …..and if not you will think every to be good and gol mention….gol is try to get people to be good but actual is not……tis is call actual life and life is depend of yourself ,,,,,,…..please be remeind……. and good or bad is defind by your self and compare with each other….this is why i said nothing is right or false …right ??????
July 3rd, 2007 at 11:17 am
Our community and fans supports u always … coz no matter what u’re going tru now , we know u’re strong enough to stand up again all by urself … we believe in you …
July 4th, 2007 at 10:13 am
Hi Leng,
Been a reader or u can say a voyeur to ur blog for some times., I do must say that u are one truly a brave & true to ur self person, I know u had many fans & frens that love & care about u, but from the wordings from ur blog, I do believe u are a person that lack of confidents in human relationship specially in love, from ur pics, words show u are a person truly searching for the love & see the worlds thru the eyes of love, but sometimes life is not a bed of roses!! I’m sure a lot ur fans & frens gonna kill me when i say this, but i just wanna to tell u the truth, I do believe u be a truly butterfly after the process of metamorphosis..just give ur self some times & the world around u a chances, U will truly see a beautiful & kind world, cos at that time u will truly see things from the eyes of love !! Take care & live well !!
: )
July 28th, 2007 at 1:09 pm
Leng Yein, I am your very straightforward friend and let me be straight with you again. You’re getting thinner and thinner and sometimes you say you dun feel well and all. Dun burn yourself out like a candle, there is more to life than work work and work. I know you have to move fast but take time to R&R. Your hectic lifestyle and business is slowly showing on you physicaly, you’re getting thinner … you’re burning yourself out. DON’T!
August 19th, 2007 at 4:55 pm
I am philip from Singapore you are so cute lady is nice to be a model like you you are well paid for your jop god bless you
October 5th, 2007 at 9:31 pm
hi dear leng yein,
this is my first time here but been seeing ur picture everywhr..
reading through ur blogs.. i agree with you..
oh yes.. i’ve been through a deep bad cut too.. i ask GOD why is the world so fake!! why thing hav to be like tat.. whr there is choose but never good options… i’m feeling ur pain and hurt as i read through.. just like nothing else n no one will understand..
who else other than GOD where we can lay other trust on..
whoever might say..’no worry i understand’ but most of all those whom u need the trust might be the one who never understand..or some even tell the whole world wat happen!!
ppl judge.. ppl gossips.. jeolous.. n so on…
that form some hurt n pain remains as the ‘darkest secret’ in a lady’s heart.. where ’speechless’ seems to be the word..