Friendship Perhaps … part 35
Hi beautiful people, it’s been 8 months since my last blog n here i am again, flashing back on my journey … Hmm … Let’s see what should i pick on … Well, Friendship then. So, this is dedicated to those who’ve been betrayed and hurt by your own friends …
You see, humans have two sides, the angel and the devil. We’re trying to balance by being sometimes an angel, at times a devil. And some of us who managed to sit aside and balance perfectly can sometimes play God, watching both sides playing the games by the rules.
I’ve learn my lessons, and i think that most of u had too. When something happened to a friendship, it’s like, there’s no half-singing in the shower, you’re either a rock star or an opera diva. You’ll either leave it and live ur normal life as though nothing happened, or you’ll be the all-or-nothing person and take back what they’ve took from u once and for all. Me ? I am both. It depends on what they did and how many times they repeat it. But no matter how hurtful u r, try not to let those feelings shatters ur life. Walk on, with other friends, your family, your loved ones …
Some of us, our weakness is that once our friends say sorry, we can pretend like nothing had happened in just one second after the apology. But don’t use it against us like some of u did. We know when u r sincere and when u r doing it again. Remember, we forgive u because we want to, not because u r that great in acting pathetically pitiful. And that’s a big difference. My advice for those dumbo’s are – never use the same trick twice. U r not that smart afterall. Ur brain n mine r as big , maybe mine a little smaller, but it works faster coz it’s lighter. Haha !
Most of the time, friendship wreckage starts from - ENVY. The few who do are the envy of the many who only watch. You may think that ur bestest friend r the one who always watch ur back, but u only think, u never thought. Dont put everything right in front of ur eyes and blur the whole situation. Flash back on the past, put think to thoughts. Some of them are just waiting n watching the best spot at ur back to strive n paralyse you. You have to agree that at times, friends around us are most vicious coz they know you more than any stranger does, some even know ur secrets and schedule more than ur own boyfriend or family do. Beware my friends, think twice before you want to pick up that phone call of urs and open the door for them. My advice, never let any friend knows ur schedule n have access to ur house and office anytime they want. Dont spoil ur friends. Choosing a friend is somewhat like choosing a companion. U have to decide at times whether it is worth it for the effort n things n trust that u’ve put in, in exchange for the trouble they may cause, the havoc n heartbroken moments.
Friendship is as good as a relationship. Some of the biggest challenges in relationships come from the fact that most people enter a relationship in order to get something: they’re trying to find someone who’s going to make them feel good. In reality, the only way a relationship will last is if you see your relationship as a place that you go to give, and not a place that you go to take. If u’ve given enough, more than enough pof some may think, stop. They may took alot of things from u without ur permission or knowing, but all they can probably take is just a small tiny part of you, which can be mended back almost immediately. No ? Think again. Humans r good in finding a way to live through crucial moments. And it’s just friendship, we haven’t go into topics about love n relationship yet. Hey, stay strong my friend, there will always be a better friend around you, alot of times, more than just one better friend. They’re always there, like a twinkle twinkle little star , always there but not seen, just yet, till u r down n empty … These , are what we call friends …
If any of u ever wonder how they can be so extremely cold blooded at times when u found out some truth, never ever think that all the betrayal that had happened is because of ur own fault. Hey, how many ppl actually point fingers at themselves before saying sorry n saying it’s their own fault. Everyone is selfish most of the time. If u know that u’ve done enough, leave them. Have ur own pride, why letting someone who’re not worth ur time start counting how good they are when all u hear from them u know damn well it is lie after lie. Never think that u r not good enough to be a friend my dear, ppl who don’t have friends wont spend their time login into Friendster n start having friends all over the world everyday eih ? U wont meet a friend today n lose a friend today too. The possibilities r 100 times higher to meet a new friends to losing a friend so don’t worry.
Always remember, never be afraid to leave a friend when they’re creating havoc in ur life. Someone once told me, no, alot of my darlings once twice n trice told me that they feel that everyone hates them..and they start crying. Hey, Hey , Hey, wait my dear , wait … I told them they’ve been ridiculous . It’s just coz EVERYONE hasn’t met u yet. I then ask them to login to Friendster more often, and they laugh. We r not that different… coz we’re only human… So if u r a Devil today, one day u will have someone playing a devil who come into ur life… and then u shall play angel … this is just like a karma ring, it goes around n around n around … never ends …
Live with integrity. Living with integrity means: Not settling for less than what you know you deserve in your relationships. Asking for what you want and need from others. Speaking your truth, even though it might create conflict or tension. Behaving in ways that are in harmony with your personal values. Making choices based on what you believe, and not what others believe. If u want all ur friends to solely live for you, u’ll be much disappointed. No one will ever really live for you. Ask urself, if u only have 100 buck left and ur life’s at risks n stake, n u know that so does ur best fren has the same problem n finance like u. N then she comes ‘ Can u gimme 100 buck of yours, i lost my 100 buck. I have no money n i need the money.’ But u know that she still has it. Then u will start to do some thinking, if i confront her that i know she has that 100 buck n asked her why she lied, she’d say some things n things n things n the last phrase would be ‘ im sorry , i don’t wanna lie, but i have my own reason, please trust me ok?’ OK, fast forward another ending ‘ cry..cry..cry..You don’t trust me anymore. I really don’t have it. You don’t trust me, im so sad … cry… im so sad … cry… I trusted u with everything all the time … cry..cry…cry… And why on earth should i lie to you..cry…you r my best friend..cry…You are my best friend ( they will say at least two times) and there u go … stuttered. Dont know what to say. Then u’ll start to think, wanna catch them red handed or just pretend that u do not know that they have it in their pocket. Then now, to all my friends, if u r caught in this situation, before u pull out ur last 100 buck, or some even wont pull out at all, anyway, everyone, i want u to do some thinking here. Will u think twice before u pass them the 100 buck that u’re left with ? Then again, u’ll start to acknowledge the fact that if they want to survive, so do you. And u’ll start to fight back n think that they are indeed so selfish and all they could ever think of is at crucial times were themselves but not you, or perhaps, never you at all ? Back then, all the tears , the times, the ups n downs, the memories, whatever… Yes , i know , back then. You’ve said it. Not NOW. All the things that had happened back then, did they mean anything to u now ? Have u forgotten that there’s a future u’re fighting for ? And u’re fighting for urself, not for ur friends. Admit it. U can only help others when u r strong enough urself. But when u r strong enough, do u then, know that how many among ur friends want to see u drop right down again ? Such a world huh ! Well , this is life …
Friendship is born at that moment when one person says to another, ‘What! You too? I thought I was the only one. But it happens to alot of people everywhere around the world everyday. We should cherish but not abolish our own right of having our own life to live. Have a friend, have a heart, and u’ll have ur second friend … and it goes on…
Anger repressed can poison a relationship as surely as the cruelest word. But a friend will not be angry with you without letting u know the cause, why n when. If they wanna let go of their anger on you all the time, those ppl r not what we call a friend, they r computers. So digital that they’re programmed just to shout at u the second they see u. So just press the off button next time u see them will ya. Darling, always remember that u have to respect urself. Know how to love urself before loving others. N know how to handle ur life before letting more ppl into it. End result, u have a messed up life.
Friends are easy to get but hard to keep. U can just walk into a cafe or club and be friends with the cashier, waiter, DJs, everyone. But do u know how many times will u see them after that and so on, or how long the smile would last on ur pretty face ? No one knows. So make the best outta ur own day, heck em, they will be partying with other friends right after the wave goodbye. Hey, they aint bad ppl , u n me do the same thing. Admit it too.
Friendship. Hmm… The folks you help won’t remember it and the folks you hurt won’t ever forget it. The more u love that fragile friendship of urs, the more pieces u’ll find in that broken heart of urs. Well dear, this is life eih… i know it suck, but we need friends all the time. Yeah, we shit n we eat again. Heck it. C’est La Vie ! If friendship is a game, then you have to learn the rules of the game. And then you have to play better than anyone else …
A friendship or a relationship, I think, is like a shark, you know? It has to constantly move forward or it dies. And I think what we got on our hands is a dead shark. Haha ~ But why be sad , at least u can get a bowl or two of the shark fin’s soup. If u don’t like it but u don’t wanna end it, use it. Be frank, everyone needs everyone in this world. If someone says tat u r using them, tell them this ‘ ya , maybe a little less than you. But not as much as how u’ve used tom dick n harry’
Always remember that once backstabbing among ur friends started , CELEBRATE ! The only thing worse than being talked about is not being talked about. Do u wanna be a history to be talked about ? Ur name would just popped out anytime among ur friends. Hey isn’t it cool ? History is merely gossip. And the art of gossip is beautiful. Coz after all the hours of hard work, it means barely nothing but when u look at it, it’s as though everything at that point of time. Cool eih !
Dont worry that when u r successful, u will not have any friend. If A equals success, then the formula is A equals X plus Y and Z, with X being work, Y play, and Z keeping your mouth shut. Be humble n down to earth. Be noble. Let the love flows in n out naturally. We do not need to find for friends, we bump into them everywhere. Trough on lines, off lines, phone lines, queuing in lines… everywhere… all the time. Just be yourself, and u can keep a true friend for a longer time, and extended longer… and longer… and longer. If u start faking urself, after sometimes ppl will get suspicious of all ur moves, ur motives, ur stories , ur life, n there goes byebye for ur friendship.
I don’t at all like knowing what people say of me behind my back. It makes me far too conceited. Haha ~ Im a vain girl. It is perfectly monstrous the way people go about nowadays saying things against one, behind one’s back, that are absolutely and entirely true, but u cant deny that they are purpose-driven intentions too. Heck it babe, why explain urself when u know that it is useless against those ppl. I ask u, how many ppl can u put into groups n try to explain group by group, how many groups will u line up for that explanation. Now, times 20 different stories going around while u r explaining the first story, please calculate how many months n effort u need to put it to a stop ? Never. Let them be, if they are happy doing it, be nice my dear. Let them do it. Ur friends r those who spend time doing their own thing, not those who have nothing to do but gossip about all the friends in the group all the time. They’d better wished that they could turn into a newspaper, then there’ll be news all over them.
Last but not least, always remember this my dear, who gossips to you, will gossip of you. Need not say more, if u know how to login and set up an account in Friendster, i believe u r mature enough to understand this point. Never believe only what’s being told, listen to what’s been said too. Life of a friendship - Flatter me, and I may not believe you. Criticize me, and I may not like you. Ignore me, and I may not forgive you. Encourage me, and I will not forget you. Love me and I may be forced to love you … Every broken friendship has more than a way to mend , the question is, do u want to mend it ? I’ve mute few friends outta my life recently coz of the saddening reality that had surfaced right in front of my eye, what about you ?
You learn to speak by speaking, to study by studying, to run by running, to work by working; in just the same way, you learn to love by loving. Alright, this should be enough for now. Shout out to all my beautiful friends ‘ I LOVE YOU ’ If u don’t believe what i say, i’ll tell u this now, “Believe as I do, or I shall assassinate you”
To all the lovely ppl in this room , if the essence of my being has caused a smile to have appeared upon your face or a touch of joy within your heart. Then in living - I have made my mark. Make urs now …
Have a friend … Be a friend …
Love Always … Leng Yein
September 19th, 2008 at 6:08 am
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September 19th, 2008 at 7:56 am
i have come to accepting the fact that so long as the person does’nt backstab, i would consider them as frens..
Whatever frequencies that we send out,those are the wavelengths that we are gonna attract;same thing applies to the people around us..
September 19th, 2008 at 9:56 am
heya leng yein, its was very refreshing to read your latest entry on friendship. i never really had any bad experience with friends until recently. all the stuff about backstabbing….finally i experienced it too….sigh…and there i thought things like that wont happen to me… i guess i still havent face the world yet….this is just the begining and something tells me theres more to come….anyway i better not bore your lovely page with my sad stories ya…hehehe…you tc always…continue to excel in whatever you do ok….
September 21st, 2008 at 2:37 am
BORING craps all over and poor English grammar
September 21st, 2008 at 11:25 am
crapped my self all over due to your bad english darling..
and what do you really know about friendship..?
prostitues make friends just to get what they want…so, i’m being absolutely forward..Bull shit!
September 21st, 2008 at 7:25 pm
everybody says they can be ur friend, but how many are sincere enough to be ur friend. I hope that you would think of me of one of ur good friends and hope you would be glad for that and it would be nice to see you soon.
Luv ,
Ramesh
September 22nd, 2008 at 11:06 am
gee + Good Englis no?! : just go away !!
September 26th, 2008 at 1:16 am
HI LY, love your blog.. no matter what people say.. bad grammar or poor english just ignore them.. at least you do write a blog and shared something you want to share(might be story about yourselves) experience.
-xoxo Love you always LY-
September 29th, 2008 at 4:48 am
Well Well Well , now i see who’s talking . Aaliyah Al-Hassan. Well, this girl is one of my Models Magazine 1st Issue’s Model , used to be one of my favourite, allowed her to stay at my house for some time, gave her my keys, gave her food, brought her shopping, introduce her to my friends and family, and trying my best to be with her throughout the messed up life she claimed to have ( which is a lie ) She’s just running away from her husband, got caught having affair behind the stage on my very first launch ( which i only knew from Sunny later ) Avoiding ur divorcing for few times and running away with ur new bf, making plans with him to make urself the director of my company ( which u really broke my heart ), blaming all the faults on everyone but urself. Aaliyah , u’ve crossed the border. If it isnt because ur family called, i would’nt just let ur police case cold. Serves u right being behind d bar for awhile. I want u to know that u started it first , all these while i didnt even mention ur name, i just tell ppl my house got broke in, i kept all the details to myself. After half a year of silence n now u wanna come into my page n say something thinking that i will just keep on keeping myself quiet ? Have a life Aaliyah. Leaving cursing lines onto Sunny’s page is enough, he’s ur ex husband n that i understand. but after all that u’ve done to me, u still wanna come in n look for a fight. If to prove to me that u r a winner by doing all these things u have done n it makes u feel better, then just be it. I only thought that someone that u chose and ur lovely family will change u. All my Louis Vuittons and my laptops, my pictures with my bf in the external hardrive n documents that r lost, i wanna let u know that u can only take THAT much from me. Not everything. It hurts but it is not the first time i face loses. I have my life n u have urs , so let us not cross path again.
love,
leng yein
September 29th, 2008 at 7:27 am
I’m so surprise to have ur replied at my blog =D
thanks a lot….
ur articles encourage me alot…
and thanks for your footprint in my blog =)
September 29th, 2008 at 7:54 am
Here’s a reply to that person (we all have a good idea who this is…) in regards to Leng Yein’s apparent ‘bad englis’ on the topic of ‘friendship’
“You are not the centre of the universe! Suspend judgement!”
For a person who has studied overseas and failed miserably, you yourself can’t even spell the word ‘english’ properly anyways! What an ass…
As many would agree you’re the follwing;
1. A Certified Looser
2. Worse than a Prostitute (At least many of them have more integrity and self respect!)
3. A Blamer on other people for your screw-ups and failures in your miserable life but yourself!
4. You take good friends and those who truly loved you for granted and bring them down when you think your life is/was all hunky-dory, but here’s the low down, your life still sucks anyways!
5. Like I said months ago in Facebook a classic ‘Empty Vessel’
So there –HaRRiS– has spoken, Leng Yein just ignore her…
September 30th, 2008 at 2:24 am
Hey Leng Yein & My bro Sunny,
So so…. the legendary Ms. Aaliyah final is back to show how “she concerned about others”….basically, hi Aaliyah…actually u don’t know me, but i heard about ur “achievement” before..haha..So, for Leng Yein blog….how much she scored my dear English teacher…A, B or D…but u know what, i don’t think i give a shit of how her English or grammar,i still like to read her blog… and i think a lot of ppl don’t care too…because IS A BLOG u dumb A** (oooh sorry….should i apologies for my impoliteness) …n i can write whatever i like in a blog…with my bad “englishing”…so who give a shit what u think?…What i want to say to you is that…..GET A LIFE!!!( do u have one??..i think u need it)…or maybe some friends (i doubt u have one either). You questioned Leng Yien, and u said “crapped my self all over due to your bad english darling..”… haha ..dear, i think u already crapped yourself up with your own sucky life(oooh…sorry again). your question, “what do you really know about friendship..?”… good question…i think Leng Yein already written the answer in her blog….oh…u don’t understand what she wrote??…but i think i do and most of the ppl understand as well…so i think the problem should be from u..now i know why u don’t have friends…should i petty u…or should i be glad as no more ppl will be cheated by u…U said,”prostitues make friends just to get what they want…so, i’m being absolutely forward..Bull shit!”….by the way, correct me if i am wrong, i think ur spelling “prostitues” is wrong, it should be “prostitu “T” es”….i thought ur “England” is so good…..hahaha…. Please, i have more respect for a Prostitute then a “cheap indiscipline wannabe liar” who take things for granted and cheating along her friendship… As Sunny said..At least many of the prostitutes have more integrity and self respect!…yup…at least they sacrifice to earn a living not by cheating….
So lastly just an advice, just look at yourself before you start “concerned about others”…. because nobody will entertain you as people out there know how to indentified what is right and who are wrong….and at the end of the day….u yourself will be the only joker and the “stupid one”…to dance around by youself and others around you staring…. and the best part is you will never notice about this, as because u always think that u are the “enlighten one”…..sad. “A Crazy guy will never notice or admit that he/she is crazy…so i will just wish them good luck”.
So if u manage to read this, i hope u won’t fail me as my “England” is not that good too…hahaha
September 30th, 2008 at 3:05 am
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September 30th, 2008 at 5:22 am
Aaliyah , fuck off will yah … We r a family … n i ought u dont have one !
September 30th, 2008 at 5:52 am
Oh she has/had one. But she (always) ended up hating everyone in it. Coming to a point where everyone in the/her family dont know what/how to do anymore. Some ppl stood by, mostly left. Her own family (they’re very lovely ppl) , her friends (God knows what she did until all d pics with Aaliyah’s face in was taken out from all her best fren’s profile), our MM’s family (shouting at my models like u own them), her fren like me who treats her like a little sister of mine, her husband ( she left Sunny for someone n on d way she then met Mohd Rashdan Rosli n ranaway with him (that’s when she stayed in my house in between lying saying she’s so down, telling me all kinds of lie, just like all the lies she told everyone, n everyone pity her, n everyone starts giving her lodging, food n money n precious time, wanting to help her but d fact is she is still very shaky, she doesnt know what she wants, but Aaliyah, ur frens, ur ex husband, ur family, we did everything we could, u have to learn how to cherish,u can blame n keep on blaming each n everyone, look at u now, u deserve to b happy but dont forget that no one owe u their life, and no one owe u their happiness in exchange for urs alone) And i just knew/heard that Rashdan ran u outta d house for d same incident that happened to so many man in ur life, U sleep n flirt around. We do respect ur privacy but can u pls keep it private. Flooding private testimonials n flashing ur new toys around are NOT cool at all. And u blame everyone who knows it without knowing that ur behavior talks d loudest. N now i know why the PROSTITUDE word came out. U tot after ur dad calls me n accidentally screw me up before he actually know what’s happening ( ur dad calls bcoz u didnt tell him anything,everything. The fact that u runaway from ur husband n still telling everybody u r single, d fact that u allow guys to come to my house without my permission when im not around, d fact that u love to sleep around but u cant shut up. i feed u, i gave u lodging, i gave u a phoneline, we can walk pass any branded store n u’d just walk in n want something n i buy it for u, n i proudly bring u everywhere, introducing u to everyone that i bump into along d way, n i pay for everything u use/want/need along d period) I want to let u know now, that all these while i’ve been keeping quiet, n dont be perasan that i wrote this friendship blog bcoz of ur betrayal for breaking into my house. U r not d only friend i have man ! have a life will ya ? And u think i told ppl ur exchange for sex which is worth that much that u self acclaimed ? Hell no , i didnt say anything, after ALL that YOU HAVE DONE. If u still wanna come right to my face n piss me off, i’ll show u what is open my mouth n start talk. Dont be perasan. Betrayal among humans r normal. I believe everyone in this room been tru that before. And it hurts, but it’ll be over very soon and life goes on. I’ll only say this much now. If u still wanna mess up my page, i’ll start typing ‘my bad English all over’ I heard Rashdan left u after he found out about RAOUL or whoever the name is just slightly b4 ur bday and Happy Belated Birthday to you my dear. And left u again right after ur bday when he found out again about Alex or whoever it is. And now u went back to Ipoh with whoever again after two times crying n spbbing right in front of Maybank. I dont know should i be happy coz of these karma or should my heart just tilt a little coz u were my darling. If u r reading this now, u should know i know more, from alot of ppl around, dont forget, ur friends come from me, and some, became mine after ALL that u did to them too. Im not being sarcastic here, but i just wish that u’ll leave US ( me & Sunny & his darling & our group ) alone n go put on somebody somewhere else. Maybe they’ll see things ur way, which we dont. And that’s y we part. So, God Bless you Aaliyah
love,
leng yein ( jie )
October 2nd, 2008 at 9:42 pm
after spending 10 mins reading thru your blog on friendships, i feel i finally found someone to see along the same light as what i think about friendship. It good to know about who sort of friends we have around us and to be able to see their true colors is a skill to learn actually.
Keep it up !!!
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October 6th, 2008 at 6:24 am
Wah……. ” Pen Fight”!! Alehluya everyone~~ take care health~
October 6th, 2008 at 12:45 pm
Ouch…
October 7th, 2008 at 11:02 pm
well…well…well..
poor you and poor sunny..
hey sunny…just so you know..you suck in bed.
October 7th, 2008 at 11:07 pm
oh…by the way…no one left me..
i’m still with him..lol~~~jokes on you leng yein..you have no idea how much of crap i get from you…all the things i’ve done for you.I break my neck to fix your problems with your sugar daddy..and i try my best to be a good friend..
but you stupid as hell..you don’t know shit about friendship..
all your lies and all your shit will never bring me down..
i didn’t break into your house…for what?i have better taste in clothes then you!Karma says it all…have a good life leng yein..and i’ve learned why everyone never wants to work with you…your a bitch and all you care about is getting what you want.
October 7th, 2008 at 11:51 pm
first…and foremost…
to leng yein:
You lie..about everything…why should i break into your house?
i don’t even have the key?I left you the day before what ever happened.I HAVE BETTER TASTE THEN YOU.
If you think its me so be it…but just bare in mind that you have other enemines.Who says i don’t have a family?My mum is here for me..no matter what happens..and don’t lie about my family called you and asked you to pull back the case..i told the police everything…EVERYTHING.You got the wrong person..and about this stupid “taking over my company” give me a break…do you know how much worth is your company?I’ve checked…only RM2.50..why should i want to take over such a company?I think your really dumb..when i said read the contract…read the damn contract.It was a damn draft.I break my neck just to get what you need..rush here and rush there.I never asked for anything…what ever you gave me i was content with.And don’t say it like i owe you anything…if your “sincere” as you allways say…then you’ve been liying.I help you because i truly belive in your cause..but after i’ve seen how you treat people around you like damn slaves..i pull back and leave.My father wanted to take a case against you leng yein..but i told him not to.I belive in karma..and you did me wrong…and some bad things has happened to you…i’ve heard.I really thought you were a friend..but i realise you did the same thing to every one that’s worked for you before.Many of times i asked myself..”why did he/she dislikes leng yein?”..well the answer is simple..you don;t know what friendship is all about.That’s why i said what i said.PPl aroud you might think your a saviour..but only time will tell your true colors..Don’t talk about friends..i have plenty.Made even more when i left for Paris and NYC..And i’ve learned a lot from my travels..that your world is so small..you keep yourself in it because your affraid to accept who you are and what you’ve become.PPl can protect you with words..but words are only words..you never know when some one is using it againts you.Leng Yein..you are actually a very lonely person, i was your pet, whom followed you around..says yes to everything you need..cared about your health and make sure you were emotinally fufiled.Many a times i’ve been there for you when you were alone at home…never have i grumbeld over having to calm you down when you cry.I never wanted to hurt any one..but you’ve hurt me the most.I don’t care what other say about me..and how i live my life..because the truth is..no one really know’s what we are like when it was just me and you and the laptop!No one knows when it was just us writing paper work..sorting out dates and events..NO ONE REALLY KNOWS.Lets not talk about wining or loosing..at the end of the day no one remembers.I know who you are…and you know who i am.YOUR FAMOUS QUOTE “IN TIME WE CAN CHANGE FACTS”
what does that tell you about yourself?I know i’m not perfect..and yes…i’ve made a lot of mistakes..especially getting married to SUNNY HARRIS. FOR GOD’S SAKES THE MAN WATCHES PORN WITH HIS DAD!
Leng Yein…i never lied about SUNNY..he’s not a good man.A real man would want to start a family, not modifying cars..and telling me we can’t have a baby because he doesn’t have money.I’m not a gold digger sunny..you know that..all i wanted was to be with you.You let me down..far too many of times.YOu rather sleep with you couisns then your wife..you rather wash your car then spend time with your wife,Your rude to your mother and father,YOU MADE NO PLANS FOR OUR FUTURE.
And yes sunny…i lost all the love i had for you..your just a little boy and i need a man.And did i mention you were teribble in bed?You would rather jack off watching chinese porn then be with me.Yes…you have so many dirty secrets and i’m sick of having to cover your ass everytime you upset a group of people.No one likes you sunny..when we got our divorce..i’ve got so many phone calls from perth..telling me that i;ve made the right dicesion.Marriage with you was like hell on earth..even when i stoop so low to gain your love and compassion..you kiked me in the teeth like i was not worthy of you..but know this sunny..you are not worthy of me.About MOHAMED RASHDAN AND MYSELF…we didn’t break up.Its non of your business tho but..this is just the sake of clearing up the “air” as we speak..
i was on holiday for a month..tarvelled here and there..and he is still with me.And about raoul…i’m sure sunny made that story up hey leng yein..you know how good he is with make belive?..Raoul is still a friend to me and rashdan.Plus i’ve gotten intouch with alex sunny…and he tells me you walk like a robot with something stuck in your ass..HOW HILLARIOUS!
And hanging out with steph makes every one laugh at the two of you..
we all agree that you both belong to each other.Thank you sunny…you made me realise what a looser you are..and i wanted to have a baby with you!THAT CRAZY!!!Any ways..have a good life leng yein..may the truth unfold.And sunny…your looking missrable by the day..only i know what your made out of..and don’t talk about empty vessels…talk about empty PROMISES.
October 8th, 2008 at 1:23 am
All d things tat u have done = WHAT THINGS ? My PA ? Cut it out babe ! Weight urself n know where u stand. Dont over value ur own self which i wont.
U r not the one who broke in = u now why i say it’s u ? I have 3 laptops & one Apple Imac 24 inch, only my personal laptop is lost but the other r still in my room. Who would just take one n not all if they break in ? When i lost the cash, all the drawers r clean but ONLY the one i hide my cash r emptied,only u n my sister know where i leave my cash. Who would wana steal DRESSES ? Who would steal all my favourite Chanel,Fendi, LV n all sorts of brands’ bags n purses n luggage n KEYCHAINS n leave those i classified as ‘not so favoured’ ? Who would only take 2 handphones AND THEIR CHARGERS from my drawer of 8 n leave the left over 6 lying there still? And the 2 handphone that was lost r the ones which i bought A PAIR - One for my boyfriend, n ONE for myself. Which i dont use, it’s more of a sweet feeling to have same things at the same time,i just keep it there. Who would take away 1 out of 4 external hard drive which is put together in a place n leave 3 lying there still, n the one i lost is my Personal hard drive with ONLY me & my boyfriends pictures in it. This break in is obviously a PERSONAL MENTAL ATTACK, it’s clearly a revenge. N i dont mix with different groups of people at the same time. I pick a group, n i stick to that group of frens. I dont hop around like u. Tat makes us very different. Each unique, we’re only human. I agree tat we left each other 2 days before the break in. True. But if it was someone else, that person would hate me n my boyfriend so much that everything she took was a personal mental attack to me. To take away ONLY the things that i cherish, but not of MOST value. And one thing tat i wanna tell u now, the last thing that u spoke to me was - I AM JUST UR SCAPE GOAT. Aaliyah, u r not. N u never will be. We were so close before, so dont say hurtful things just because u wanna say something. But have something to say.
Everyone leave me = Not everyone, but i admit a few ppl left me along the way. Ppl come n go in my life, but u forgot that it happens to everyone. If some have different views in life, different charactors n we dont like it, or that we do not like the way they do things, we go away. N if they’re not meant to stay by us, they dont need to. But if u want me to admit, yes, ppl do come n go in my life, but this is life, it simply means they’re gone, as easy as that. We dont need to keep the grudge n hate them. Always remember, if someone is once dearly to us, keep the thoughts there. Dont just remember how someone hurt u, coz they loved u before. I still love u in a way, the way we hugged, the things we’ve been tru, the way we lived together, the sweetness inside of u, till now. No matter how much hate it is suppose to be, i have to admit i love you. And it hurts when u just come back into my life n leave some things like that. But i cant stop u, it’s ur life, no ppl can. If u r happy writing things like that, then i’ll defend myself a little. I wont want to fight with u. It’s very hurtful u know, to go through life so closely in a sec, n turned to be enemies the next second. It’ll be a circle n both of us just go around n around n around, finding empty slots to slot ourselves in n break things up so that we’re happy to see the other party going down.
Ur claims about me n u urself = U r a very lovely person, that’s what i felt n i still want to believe, at least, hope to. Words will never tell how good/bad a person is n can be. U dont write to bring ppl down, u fight to bring urself up. And i want to believe it isn’t u. Coz the Aaliyah i knew was not like this.
Trust = I got the phone call from ur dad n he told me too many things. And ur sister called. N ur family members clarify too many things which shocked me. But whatever it is, it’s between u n them. It’s non of my business so i do not want to comment on that. And pls dont clarify further as this will go on too long.
Sugar Daddy = Me ? Good story Aaliyah. What’s next ? This really hurts Aaliyah. U cant find one urself doesnt mean i have one. I am happy with my own relationship so pls mind ur words.
Always there for me = u’re with me when u have no where else to go. But u’ll leave the second ur phone rings, hopping in n out. My house is more like a lodge, not even a hotel, u dont even need to book.
U n Rashdan = bless u two ! Since Sunny too had already moved on his love life like you do, i think everyone has the right to be happy. You too my dear.
U n Alex = nvr knew who he is , just heard his name from u when we’re together
ur dad = if it wasnt because ur dad didnt know i gave u that 0169340000 n the phone, he wouldnt call YOU n ended up speaking to ME after u’re out from MM’s family following the incident at Starbucks Low Yat, all the Langkawi stories n ur sports car which actual fact was ur sister’s saying she’s a bitch which i spoke to her few times n i think she’s sweet but nevermind, n thinking u’ll change after the 2 days locked up after ur dad calls me again n i just let the case cold n not closed. Ppl cant just send u behind bars locked up. But i think we’d better dont elaborate it as my blog will be a 100% war zone. As what everyone know, u fight back very hard. Just like how this blog turns into our little pen fight. U just cant keep quiet n leave ppl alone. U always have to say something. Look at all this. Everyday in our life, ppl comment about me, here n there, this n that. When i heard, i just hear n that’s it. There’s so many forums that i didnt reply. Coz i dont think that i should. But this is different, u came into my personal page. I wont say that after we part for so long, we shouldnt click into each other’s page. But to prevent the broken journey that has turned into hate from getting bigger n bigger, bad to worst between us, it’s best to just not know anything about each other n live our life in separate ways. I believe we wont cross path. i hope u take this as a simple phrase with simple meanings n not hate.
U n Sunny = the 1st time we met at SS2 Indomee, i tot things would work out. But it’s non of my business so no comment. As a fren , u have my blessing to get someone to sayang u. Be it Rashdan or whoever, as long as we are happy when we close our eyes.
Relationship = Just a brief one. U r smart enough, so u know what to do.
Empty promises = Dont u too have some promises made but not fulfilled ?
To control n conquer is not to take n leave.
I believe we both r free thinker so we best go both way like what i did until u started writing n dont cross path. Coz i dont like ppl clicking into my page but ended up watching this sad past of us two.
Dear Aaliyah, mirrors are two sided for a reason, one side is reality and the other is the life you wish you had. You know…all my life I always wonder if it could have been worse or better…what was missed and what was gained…now I realize that it could always be worse =) so always be happy for what you have that others don’t.
Love,
leng yein jie ( bitch - which u’ve been calling me )
October 8th, 2008 at 6:44 am
Wow ‘dirty laundry’ has surfaced! I knew it, so you Alia. Leng Yein dun worry abt her, when ppl are desperate, they will bring up every dirty detail(s) no matter how true/untrue or plain stupid/irrelevant especially in a conversation like this…
I dun have to spill dirty laundry as I will not stoop so low to make ‘come-backs’ to prove a point! When a person does this it shows how desperate you are trying so hard to make a stand to make yourself look good when you’re an idiot. Ppl are not stupid, they can think for themselves who is who…
1. You say i’m a Bad Person, then why you were in a relationship with me for two years plus engagement, plus marriage?
2. If I so suck in Bed (which everyone knows your sex life b4 you met me how much you love sex) then why be with me from the start? Hmm odd since there’s a stench of ‘double-talk’
3. You knew my passion for my hobby for cars, gokarts and so on right from the start, if you didn’t like it why lived a lie? At least I have a hobby(or hobbies) and I dun womanise or cheat around like you!
So dun start with me as I have a whole lot of dirty secrets about you, but I choose not to as it’s not worth it one bit!
Plus I don’t care two hoots what ppl think abt me anymore, I know who or what I am and I have come to terms with alot of things that has happened all this while!
October 8th, 2008 at 10:05 am
“Kar Hou Yuet Yuun” arr~ “Yi Wo Wai Guai” la~~ (Cantonese)
We dun pen fight in ppls blog la. We dun look back to bad things while we movin foward la. So give us a break man,if really want to argue or watsoever…try in SMS,Emails or Talk face to face la……. Peace peace everyone~~ Chill~~!! I miss u guys so much neh!
October 8th, 2008 at 4:19 pm
Hey more pics please, you must balance the text and the pictures
October 8th, 2008 at 11:53 pm
Hey Delicious,
You always ask whether i read your Blog. Well I did! but i’ve never read the responses until now, since you mentioned about a war building up here.
So here is my 2 cents worth to all those English so called experts. Like Crayven mentioned, “It’s a Blog la, for goodness sake!” as long as the message gets thru, a bit of grammer and spelling mistakes along the way doesnt matter LA! it’s semantics.
Anyway my FRIEND, after reading thru, I wanna just share some words of wisdom from some really wise men.
“An open Foe may prove a curse, but a pretender friend is worse!!!!!”
and
“The only way to please a Fool is to let him have his own way.”
and this is from a not so wise man…me la.
“”Life is too short to be spent on Bullshit”"
Take care, “stay cool and don’t be a fool.”
xoxo
Gary
October 9th, 2008 at 12:01 am
FRIENDSHIP PERHAPS???
For you to ponder dear…………..
QUOTE:
“Choose friends wisely, the portrait they paint
Is who you are and who you ain’t.
Friendship is life’s great support
When friends are of the right sort.
For all your dreams do they make room,
Or bring you down with doom and gloom?
You will know a friendship is true
When it brings out the best in you.”
xoxo
Gary
October 11th, 2008 at 4:36 am
Hey Ms. Good Englis No?..
A lil’ word of advice and a reality check. Um.., i heard about this talk about Sunny and I being the talk of town. Well Alia, I’ve never really had the time or desire to ever talk to you, but honestly i really don’t put up with trash. I’m glad and very flattered that you two have taken the time to talk about Sunny and me. I rather be talked about, than not at all. haha.
Well let me indulge you with a few things. Im not going to stoop to your level, but you’d be amazed to know the things Alex has said about you to me. You really don’t want to know. I’ve fallen off my chair laughing at the stuff said about you and sometimes pity you. Its sad that you think people around you like you, when sometimes they’re just being nice.
For the record, i dated Alex longer than you ever did. Our break up was never as bad as yours. Plus, we were very much in love with each other and you were merely a rebound, when i left him. Wake up and smell reality, about who’s a loser and who’s not. You’d be surprised if i told you more about Alex and I, but he’s my ex at the end of the day, and we share a certain degree of respect with each other. So I’m not going to say much about him. He’s a smart guy, he knows what he does.
I’ve dated enough guys and rather content with the way things are for me. On the other hand, i don’t think you are. Coz from the look of it, you seem to be really bitter about things.
Stop talking badly about others, it’s not going to take you very far. For the record, Sunny has a Malay girlfriend whom he’s quite happy with. Fucking grow up.You keep going on about Karma, well you’ve bitched so much.. I’m sure it’s coming right back at you. You’re no God to judge anyone for any matter.
Im not sure what issues you’ve had with Sunny or with yourself, not that is any of my business, but talking about me, is my fucking business. Don’t cross my path, and i don’t cross yours. And for you to call him a loser, and that joke according to you, about Alex saying ‘he walks like he’s got a stick up his ass..’, Well you dated him and then married him! What a loser that makes you? Please make sense of what you quote. Don’t talk about others looking funny, when you’re a joke yourself. Speak for yourself. Before anything else, listen to yourself. The things you say are hilarious and so immature. Furthermore, you’re a mess from what i’ve heard. Instead of sorting out yourself, you’re bitching about others to prove a point so badly. You really make yourself look small and foolish, and i find this truly sad.
It’s a shame you may never change for the better. I may be wrong, you might one day. However, I don’t give a flying fuck on what you’re going to reply to this.. cause it’s a waste of my time. You reply, and I reply, and then this gibberish can go on for a million years. So say what you wanna say, coz I dont care. Its quite pathetic going on bitching about others and being lifeless, when in reality you’re the loser. Its truly a shame. But hey, what ever floats your boat.
October 11th, 2008 at 10:20 am
Hi Steph & Leng Yein,
Yeah looking from what you mentioned the other day, what Ms. Good Englis mentioned in her Friendster pic
“when everything seems to go wrong, never be affraid to give uncondtitional love”
seems to be a whole lot of ‘bull-shit’ and yes I do agree Leng Yein & Steph she talks a whole lot of jibberish as I think about it I never saw any such thing as ‘unconditional love’ from that woman during the course of our marriage! Yup if she talks about ‘everything seems to go wrong, never be afraid to give uncontional love’ why Ms. No Englis did the following;
1. Sex messages between Raul and her (and possibly even rendezvous) since she was famous in storming out of the house when we have arguments (even at numerous times for no good reason) and coming back late and dun tell me where she goes…
2. Three Ppl close to me and ppl who know her confirming her ‘holding hands’ with a guy(s) that closely resembles ‘you know who’ mid-way during our first year of our marriage!
3. Owh I love this one! I, Sunny Harris and my cousin Luqman had a glance of her ‘making-out’ with the Emcee of that night (name withheld) for the Model’s Magazine launching at Ruums in 07′ (yes Ms. No Englis I felt like giving you and ‘him’ a piece of my mind that evening) as I came all the way to Ruums and back-stage to congratulate your SORRY ASS for such a star performance on the catwalk and made that effort to give you support during that launching! Yeah you think I never knew huh! ANy other guy would have broken yours and that Emcees’ legs legs where you stood and but I didn’t want to stoop low and bit my tonque and let it go!
4. And yeah numerous ppl you say who say are your friends that support our divorce come and tell me dirty lil secrets about your ‘mishaps’ in your so called sorrowful past! (Yes your lies abt the lucky guy who made your life a misery back them b4 me!)
So yeah I do agree you’re sad case, a joke of the century, there the jokes on you!
October 13th, 2008 at 12:34 am
Oh, good lord ! Now only i am cleared Steph is Alex’s lover. Aaliyah, come on, u r his ex too. Why cant u just stop pointing curses on ppl. U always side guys than girls, and u always hated girls ey ? Dont forget that u r ONE OF his EX’es too. If u think Steph is a loser coz Alex DUMP her (i think tats what u always thought), what makes u a winner when u r too his ex. Breaking up in a relationship or a friendship doesn’t really have to end up being enemy. Some ppl doesnt know how to handle themselves when such situation occurs therefore ended up swearing at each other. But anyway, Steph is cool. She doesnt wanna involve herself in this pathetic pen fight, and she didnt elaborate on sensitive topics which is no point to be spoken out for, she fought back for the same reason that i had, coz YOU crossed path. Btw, Steph n Sunny has good english. So for the sake of ur NAME ‘GOOD ENGLIS no?’, shame on you. The more i happen to think about all d shit that had happened, the more im really dissapointed with you actually. You just cant leave d past where it belongs. And u just cant leave ppl alone. U love WAR, but please acknowledge now that alot of ppl out there love PEACE.
love,
leng yein
October 14th, 2008 at 12:27 am
impress with what you have written about friendship….i use to give alot of things and happiness to friends but i never ask for anything back…but when you really get betrayed thats hurt…
peace,
ling
December 13th, 2008 at 1:13 am
wow…. dis is wat so-called da nature of life… here i din clarify myself pro in english o wat-so eva becoz human are like to keep blaming people o try to hide sumting behind the truth… Whn doing sumting (business) plz dun hangat-hangat tahi ayam… i tink tht person wil knw wat i trying to say.. high quality of facilities, but low quality of da food n summore expansive… n even worse no menu o ady telan by ppl… haha…. God will punish to da people who ever try to do sumting bad and bless to da good people..
May 16th, 2009 at 1:05 am
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If you need some pointers, you can email me. If your fan base is really strong, you’ll be surprised where you’ll be in 2-3 years with my strategy.