Leng Yein’s Blog

I had received alot of appreciation messages regarding my blogs and captions . I would like to take this opportunity to thank all these beautiful people for taking their precious time writing to me typing every single letter sincerely especially the girls who attached their message with their numbers at the bottom and the girls who looked up on me as their role model n inspiration . To be frank im shocked for messages like this showering me from girls coz most of the time girls wont write to girls saying nice things . Girls , thanks for everything . Without u girls , my world wouldn’t be as beautiful and i mean it …

Every captions of mine has their own meaning and story behind … It has been sometime every since i wrote my last blog coz i had been writing my diary everyday instead . I’ll never write something for fun and if i were to choose to do it i rather not writing anything at all … so when i write , i REALLY write …  i’ll sit down for hours in my home sweet home of mine and jot every letter down , words by words … And very word that i say means alot to me … and hope that my story will help you people in your life … coz it does to mine …

( Im sorry , i had to remove all of these for some personal reasons )

Loving you forever … Leng Yein

Special thanks to all the beautiful people below …. These people are the ones who made my life so colorful … I apologize if I didn’t mention ur name . Below are the people who supported me all way long and cheer me up whenever I needed them especially the SPECIAL ones . These are all I can recall … Thanks for being there for me …

SPECIAL Thanks to :

Guys : Billy , Nic , Bryan , Darren , Zen , Shark , Jefferson , Sheng Zhe , Jeffrey , Khor , Brandon , Calvin , Danny , Willy , Glenn John , Henry , Summer , Hirai , Ice , Jacky , James , Steven , Ken , Chong , Kenvis , Edmund , Ryo , David , Adam , Ben , Alex , Andy , David , Joe , Jaren , Shah , Edmund , Rave , Victor , Kenny , Anthony , Ramesh , Raymond , Ricky , Stuart , Everett , Yao , Jonathan , Faymond , Gareth , Geaoffrey , Albert , Hon , Nat , Howie , John , Julian , Ka Cat , Jonathan , Karl , Kenji , Kenny , Jerry , All e Penang Male Models ( u know who u r ) , Kiaki , Terence , Wai Seng , Chris , ALL my stylists & boutique salesboys ß Wahahaha ( coz u guys gimme sincere comments n make me look better )

SPECIAL Thanks to :

Karena my lou poh zai ( You’re the best mate ever lived in this world ~! )

Princess Leng Sean ( You’re the best sister in the whole world ~! )

Girls : Angie , Wai Leng , Ai Hwa , Ai Lan , Yee , Suzanne , Joanne , Thini , Casey , Jessie , Ivy , April , Eriko , Chelene , Jersey , Angel , Kitty , Wei Iou , Wengal , Jaslyn , Ppit , Baby , Candy , Christ , Yuki , Sam , Felixia , Lina , Elvie , Winnie , Siew Chin , Ivylna , Janet , Joey , Bonnie , Catherine , Stella , Jenny , Kelly , Mandy , Maimai , May , Ester , Mica , Lisa , Pei Jing , Pinky , Whitney , Seong Teng , Mun , Michelle , Lin , Siti , Zegnia , Sheila , Baby , Agnes , Amy , Mod , Yoko , Fiffy , Melissa , Nikki , Ling , Kemaman Kopitiam Si Tau Poh & Si Tao ( Thanks for never forgetting to say Hi ) u’ll never forget to say hi ) , Heritage Peggy ( Thanks for being so nice to me always ) , Tjantek’s Kak Tjan ( Thanks for standing up for me no matter what ) , All my girls from my boutiques & outlets ( Thanks for taking care of my shop n work so hard for me , u girls are the greatest team ever )All the hawkers @ pasar Ktn ( Thanks for always serving good food ) , All my stylists & beauticians & manicurists & boutique salesgirls ( coz u chit chat with me while making me prettier ) , All my true to heart girls ( thanks for being so real ) , All the girls who messaged me in friendster n be-friended me sincerely ( u’re really sweet n I appreciate that alot ) , All the girls who dropped me a testi ( Thanks for checkin me up once in while ) , My family ( Without YOU , there will never be ME )

To my dearest guardian angel … I dedicate this very special blog of mine just for you … though u might not be able to read it … I understand that u had to love n protect more than just me alone in the world and that you are always so busy and on the go to bring happiness into others life , but I will always take my time no matter how busy I am to write down things that I would like you to know and thank you through jotting down every single magical moments tat I had and writing it in the very special room of mine … truly from my heart … my blog that I specially dedicated to you …

Dear angel , I’d never felt so happy before for a long long time … Eversince I call it the new chapter of my life , everything seemed to be so wonderful for me . I felt so, so lucky coz everything I ever wanted seemed to popped out just like that for me . I felt like im the luckiest girl in the whole world now … Things tat I’d never dreamt of achieving , everything that I’d never dreamt of having , the miracle and the life that im under going now , incidents that I never thought of happening , words that I never dreamt of hearing , a life that I never even dare to dream of … I now have the whole world in my hand … because of you … your existence … your presence … your love for me …

My dear angel , although u r far away from me n I cant possibly see u in real at times , I always feel ur presence in my heart . Deep down inside me there’s a voice telling me ‘ Babygirl , don’t be afraid … No matter what happens , u always have me here to guide n protect you … ‘

After what had happen to me which made me realized that people often love a person judging by their look , i wanna let u know hereby that im very glad that I know , and strongly assured that no matter how I might look or turn into one day in future , you judge me by heart above all deceiving temptations … and love me for who I am and not what others see by shallow … and by this , ANGEL , are a given name to you by all good …

I often tell myself that I’ll always try my best to help n do good even when I know clearly tat these people are not good people or they are using me or taking advantages of me . Coz I believe that by doing that , the greatest of all above will know n that I’ll get the return one day … and I believe after 21 years of suffering n strangling for a slight breath of life , I finally get my call … straight from the heaven above … from you … my guardian angel …. ^l^

The feeling of your presence had changed my life completely . No matter what I do now , I try my best n even if I fail , I know deep down inside that I need not to feel a slight of sadness coz im not a failure for you  … and coz u made me a winner above all …

Im very thankful that I have your precious time protecting n guarding me in stead of all the beautiful people around … That I have your trust and blessing no matter where I go or what I do … That im so lucky to have had all the things in the world that I ever wanted and made me the happiest person on earth … I’ll never ask for more and i couldn’t possibly ask for more now , when I’d already have the whole world with me …

Dear angel of mine , I don’t know how long would this beautiful charm lasts … But I want you to know tat for every magical moments that u’ve created for me , for every single miracle that u’ve made to happen , for all the reasons that I’d smiled for , for everything , every dream , every hope , every memorable moments n happiness I’d much to cherish that u’ve given me … im hereby very honoured n touched that u’ve actually noticed me in the very corner of the world , and spent time guiding me throughout every heaps n bumps tat I had , shower me with all your love and care , creating so many magical moments in my life , and blessing me throughout the path of my existing life …

Thanks for appearing in my life my dearest guardian angel of mine … fixing everything up so perfectly for me , making my life so wonderful … making me so , so happy … giving me no reason to cry for now as I know that no matter what happen , you’re always there somewhere in the other corner of the world , praying for me to be alright …

And by that , I promise you that no matter what happen one day , even when the day comes when u had to leave me forever and carry on your duty of protecting the others , i’ll still smile to you at that very last moment … U’ll never see me sad , my darling angel … coz I know tat deep inside you , the very last thing tat u’d ever wanted to see … is that im sad n unhappy … I know tat all you ever wanted is to see me smiling happily all the time …

I will still smile when you’re gone my dear … coz everytime I smile … I think of you … coz for once sometime ago , you are the only reason I’ll smile for … and as time goes by , I’ll always remember you … coz everytime I smile … my smile reminds me of you … deeply …

Hundreds of hugs and kisses from me a day my angel …

My heart & soul , yours completely ……. Leng Yein                                 

                                                                                                     ( 14/07/06  ….. 8.00 pm )

It has been almost a month now staying abroad in China , away from my new ‘home sweet home’ , away from the hectic schedule of mine , away from all the beautiful people I know , away from my usual on going life , away from my beloved cowcow … Hmm … :-* :-* :-*

This whole 3 weeks plus is so tiring , so busy , so humid , so lack of sleep , so always on the go , and most saddening is tat so missing home n cowcow … Travelled to Shang Hai , Hang Zhou ,  Jia Xin , He Nan , Chong Qing , Xin Chun and again to BeiJing . Everyone has been asking me , hey , how’s your life now babe ? Simple ! Happy , watching day by day passed by so quickly , been fully occupied by tight schedules as usual , high energy meter all the time , and try to keep myself smiling everyday … My life, Hah ! Its always full of challenges and chances . But im full of questions n hesitations . Each step I take and each decision tat I made sometimes holds me back a lot n scares me quite abit . Why ? Because I’ll never know the decision I made will effect how powerful to me in the future … But yet , sometimes things tat have to be done , have to be done … This , is what we call – Life …

I’ve never been so active before in pageants . This month , I’ve added 4 titles into my collection . Good ? Haha ~ if u say so then let it be … I’ve learnt alot through these pageants … Trust me , really really a lot …

Im quite lost about my current life now . Yes , of course I know what im doing n believe me , I have a very clear picture of it but then , im very scare sometimes . Why ? I don’t know how to tell you but I believe tat if u put urself in my position you’ll have the same feeling too … No , of course not because of my new titles n what u guys say ‘ more famous ‘ . Having titles doesn’t mean that im any different from all the girls around . Just that every individuals have different interest n way of enjoying things … My reason is very personal n sensitive …

Oh dear ~! Time flies … I’ve already been living alone for a month plus already . Happen to think back all the happy n sad moments I had , I must say now that im walking towards a different path of way , a different stage of my life , a different situation , and different people … but I think it’s a good . I’d learn to adapt new things , decide n do things in a different way … the ending ? I’ll never know … and I just don’t want to think about that anymore … why ? Coz truth hurts … And when im hurt , I’ll be really really hurt … really really … and I really mean it . But yet again , im already very n numb n immune to these kind of situation so it doesn’t matter to me anymore … really ? I don’t know … and I don’t wan to even think about it … I just don’t wish to know …

Well , hope that everything will come to an end soon and I’ll finally get the answer to my prayer … May god bless you all here … and may all the little angels above look after all of you everytime you needed them to … Muah ~

Sincerely …… Leng Yein

I had finally made my decision to shift down to KL and live alone , letting down everything that I had behind me , every sad moments that I’d been through , and ready to step into another level of … life … my life …

After all these days of searching , failing and falling apart … yet all I have is me to pick myself up again , and again , and again … I’ve been wondering and wanting to know the question that I had always been asking myself , which I never did had an answer to it , but now , everything will be different … Im very glad that i had found the answer , at last … I had found my true life , my long lost moments that I had , however , lost some how since so very long long time ago …

All my life , im battling with no one alongside me but myself … Daddy , thanks for leaving me so soon coz I learnt my life earlier than others . Mummy , thanks for having a new boyfriend coz im happy when I see u smiling . I promise that I’ll be home whenever my schedule is loose … and I will be home as much as I could … Don’t worry , ur lil girl will take care of ur lil princess here too … I’ll fetch her back whenever she has a break ~ We love u mummy ~! And SeanSean , study hard … I will always be there for you my dear , I promise … And I wont let anyone hurt u like what they did to me … That’s it , my whole life , my story … ends here …ends here in this lil space of mine , along with my fallen pieces …

This new place will be my new home , my new story … I will pray very hard for a life , which is totally different from what I’d been through before … no , not again …

Im playing my 3 favourites , Richard Clayderman’s - A Comme Amour , Couleur Tenoresse , and Couer Fragile while im writing this very special blog of mine right now , these pieces seemed to know me so well that they know how my feelings are running right now …

My diary , my story , my life … will be jotted down in this frame , this tiny lil private room of mine … Im really glad that u took your time to read n study my blog , and study me … By the end of the day , this , is nothing much more … but me ……

Looking back on what had happen and what’s happening right now , I even wonder as if one day im lost in my life , would this be the place where I can sit down , sipping my champagne , reading every single letters that I’d typed , every single chapter of story that I’d wrote … looking back on my life , keeping track of myself in the past , the present , and coupe myself throughout everything and touch the future … and the more I write , the more I urge to keep on writing …

Sitting down alone in this empty room , its so quiet and peaceful here … even the air cond’s are clearly heard . Everything seemed to be out of my visibility , its as though everything doesn’t really matters anymore … With the piano pieces notes dancing around me , my mind is focused to just one single person right now … A very very special person in my life … a gift … a miracle … a myth that I’d once lost hope on … and a story , a story that im gonna learn , grow up , hold on , take up the risk , and pay my price for it …

‘ If u love a person , u should let them go and see them happy ‘ and ‘ Happiness comes once , so grab it before its gone ‘ … It’s 2 strong statement which is totally different . Im tutoring myself every now and then … Kept reminding myself that things might not be the same again the next second , so that I wont forget to cherish the very second that I still have before I lost my chance to … That I will always look at things at the brighter side like what I had always been telling myself of that after the rain , the rainbow eventually appears again … and that the day would be better .But why if there’s no more sunshine after the rain ? Or that u have a piano lesson and cant go out side to see the rainbow ? I psycho myself not to think at all , and stay mind clear n mind strong all the time . I know that this way wont help , but at least , it’ll make things better … and that he is happy , and I’ll be alright … For once again in my life , im happy … Every now and then , I kept telling myself that no matter what happens , expect the unexpected and expect the worst , so that im prepared for it … and I guessed that everything would at least be better this way so that even when time comes , Im ready to leave again … and by then , maybe I’ll force myself to see the outcome of ‘ Every cloud has a silver lining ‘ … But why if there’s no cloud in the sky … its ok , coz I still have myself … I has always been me alone , why doesn’t it make any difference there ? Now this , is life …

Befriend your tears … by then , only u’ll have no fear for love … God gave me a hope , in return , I will cherish this gift and keep it with me as long as I have a chance to … until the day that it’s gone , I will keep this very special gift in my heart , forever … No one knows what’ll happen in the end of the day … But at least for now , we are more than just happy … and for this , I had already have the whole world …

Love Always ……. Leng Yein

It’s been awhile since i ever wanted or even just felt like having someone other than girls by my side … I really enjoy having my girls around me though , no offense but i never felt any happier than this when im with my girls … until ……

It’s not easy for me to fall in love , but its tougher for me to force myself not to love …

I always hope that i could just , just find a guy whom i dont feel irritated when he’s near me , feeling so secured when he’s around , felt so warm when he hug me … there’s so many around me but all of them are not what im looking for , or should i say , i fall for … its not about who they are , what they have , or how much they gave out … the problem is , am i interested ? My answer was constant back then that i just wanna have all my time with Karena … until something happened …

Days back , when i really needed some pure care , and all ppl around me just wanna offer me some fake care n wish for a what my cowcow called FF = Free Fuck . Damn ~! Really made me changed my mind of having a 2nd bf man ~! So sick of all the fakers n posers out there … Love ? Love cant buy u food man ~ Love ? I can get as much from my girls ~ n still , doesnt need to be hurt , coz girls cant hurt me like u guys do … Me ? I gave up on searching coz i dont wanna be attached coz by being that meaning i will get unnecessary phone calls babbling me 24-7 checkin on me on where am i who am i with what am i up to why am i not sleepin yet this n that n bla bla bla so tell me again , why do i need a boyfren ? Traveling here n there , forcing myself so badly , filling up my time with works n piles of projects , all because i just duwanna settle down quietly n felt so empty n lonely .. tats all …

God , WE , both of us , know that we love each other as much , or even when u have no time to love me , im gonna love myself as much too . But life is always like this i guess huh ? It’s not that u dont grab your chance , but u dont even have a chance to …

Im sad , very very sad lately … forcing myself to learn tat to love someone is to let them go and seeing them being happy … i never tot that this fake fairy tales talk is happening , coz all these while i tot it just happened in drama … The one you love , might not be the one you can love … not because he dont love you , but because of certain facts and we cant possibly be together … letting go , its easy to say , but my heart aches every now n then … and this , i felt like shit ~! My single life is so so wonderful , used to be so fun with my girls , doing crazy things together … until recently , im confused … Im still as happy , but i felt empty inside …

Its been a year after my break up … i had however , eventually , little by little , started to heal … its scary to have this feeling … coz i’d always pull back on that totally . But now as no one is forcing me , im nearer to this trap …

i need you … but i cant … im really really sad … so i guess i’ll just work harder n stop myself from being an idiot … im really down … very very down … and my body is starting to feel weak , guess i worked myself too hard n forcing myself too far though …

Once , long long time ago , even myself had already forgotten when was the last time , but now , for the second time in my life … im really sorry to say that … I Love You …

Unforgettable moments … leng yein

Dear friends , forgive me for muting myself out for such a long long time . Was extremely busy days back n in days coming so cant expect much from me though ~

Dush ~! <— special sound effect for a special start up ~ Finger also kaku oledi ~ Well well well … got loads of messages regarding my blog , sorry ah … i’d already try my best to keep on writing oledi but at times im really not free de lah … but im very touched tat u guys really follow n keep track on me , thanks thanks ~ *baby felt so touched*

Money isn’t everything , but without money , u’ll lose almost everything … agree ? I’ll analysed on that , wait lah … aiyoH ~ If that watsoever metre is 10 , and u’re at like erm … 1-3 , having alotsa money is everything u’ll ever wanted . But when u’re at the level of 6-9 , u’d have the power to get or have everything tat u wish for , even 10 girlfrens i suppose … in ur dream ? No shit man , u can have , coz with the money u had , the 10 girls will be smart enough to share each other n not fight herself outta ur house u idiot . So guys , get ur ass settle down n work hard . Girls , you should do the same too , coz if one day ur guy leaves u , what cha gonna do ? Buy a Vogue magazine sit by the roadside n cover ur face with the page where they have the LV advertisement so tat u can have a sweeter dream n settle down by the longkang ah ? Have a life , its yours n no one can help u on that but urself .

Switch place , if u r very pretty or rich or sexy or slutty n all the guys around u SMACK!!! can easily fall in love with u or should i say u can make any guy u like to fall for u easily n crazily , yes , a supergirl u are … haha ~u think with the look u have u can have everything ah ? You thought u have everything but wait until a time when everyone just wanna fuck u n leave , are you happy ? Or after u officially get FUCKED , they’ll treat u differently . How would u feel ? You were dreaming about having a guy neglective of whether he’s poor or ugly or stupid who’ll love u for who you are , girl ~ STOP DREAMING , coz its not gonna happen . U know why , let me ask u a question , WHO ARE YOU ? think again , WHO ARE YOU ? then , the next one , are they blind ? You still dont get it dont you ? If u r not pretty , will guys get attracted to u ? And if u expect guys nowadays to love u as much even after they marry u but u urself doesnt look that good anymore do u think its possible for them to do that ? Will they even dare to bring u out to show their frens tat they have a T-rex at home ? I know that ppl say YOU CANT LOOK GOOD FOREVER , n im gonna tell them this ‘ YOUR MUM TAUGHT U TAT ? ‘ Who said WE GIRLS cant look good forever ? We can ~ We just need to keep ourselves in track , look good at our age … u cant expect ur granma wearing ur gold bikini holding hands with ur granpa can u ? No ~! At least u dont wear the same clothes for a week , that sounds good … Hmm … So pretty girls , rich girls , smart girls , cocky girls , girls , all girls , just bare in mind that this is the fact that no matter who come near u trying to be your fren , they’re up to something . It either something good or bad , frenship only ? Na , i dont think so … maybe first frenship , but after that , hoping for more i should say … so dont be stupid , everyone’s up to something , remember that . Innocent girls are stupid , not so called good girls anymore , the word doesnt exist already . If u’re innocent , try to act not ~! Coz ppl will just take advantage of u , not help u u silly girl ~! Help to lay u on the bed maybe .. hmm … So , this blog advise u girls to becareful of all the people around u , open ur eyes big big big before u do something which maybe can or will affect ur future life alot … i had my lesson once but i learn from it . So please dont make yours , coz its not easy to make it tru … and YOU , know what i mean by that …

Guys turn ~! You’re rich , you’re a celebrity , you’re sizzling hot , you’re successful , you’re everything ? Yes , of course ~! You’re everything a girl wants in a future husband ?? ~ Haha ~ , so sweet hor ? I tell u what , with all those potential u have $$ , u do however fit perfectly into their potetial financial plan u dumb dumb ~! Girls around u love u for who u are ? Haha ~ Is ur education level until standard 6 ? Stop day dreaming guys , if u’re TAT high up , becareful of who u choose . Always cherish the one who was staying by n on ur side when u’re nothing days back . They , are the true ones whom u can hardly find around u now , wat , in loft n cynna n luna bar ? Haha ~! Come on , i know u have money n u can have loads of girls with loads of happiness n who cares to settle down with one , i mean by all means its ok to have loads of girls with u at the same time but think again , if something really awful happened to you , how many outta the crowd would stay by ur side ? My answer , all ~! Coz they want u to get their name into ur will after u die u dumb dumb ~! Its easy for a girl to grab a rich guy , and its very easy for a rich guy to grab any girl he sees , but then … is that what u really want ?

The fact is , there’s always a reason behind one choosing another and not the other options they have … and with intentions … we cant change the fact but then , we can choose to have the least level of bad intention ppl to stay …

We’re too young to settle down , yes its true … so play hard , rock hard , bang hard , whatever hard … by the time u wish to settle down … just do it n forget about the pass … then , move on with your dream … choose wisely n never regret … coz every individuals are different in a way , dont expect others to adapt themselves into ur life , coz things will be nasty that way … just go with the flow … and like what i always say … as long as you are happy , always ….

kisses from …. leng yein

Guys  , nice guys , i damn kesian u guys lah …… Why when i tot i met nice simple guy FRIEND then you pulak turn into HAM SUP DEVIL de ? Damn u lah , u tot u rich = u can get any girls u want meh . Fuck off lah …. You guys drag nice guy’s reputation down lah , go die lah ~ Girls , thanks for everything … u girls are forever so sweet to me …. Muacks ~

Now , every Alphabet i wrote below stands for different true person that i met these 4 months . I wanna thank some really nice people , and some fucking idiotic ones .

Ms.SS , my dearest lil sister & Ms.Karena / Waiwai  … wah ~! if i wanna write it’ll take forever … so i’ll cut it short , u r indescribable … coz u 2 r the best of ALL … ALL !~!~ This 2 very very very very special girl , dont need to elaborate , they’re the most understanding n greatest gift from god that i ever had … thanks for watching over my shop for me , thanks for making everything so right , thanks for having faith in me , thanks for trusting me , thanks for supporting me , thanks for loving me for who i am , thanks for teaching me things that i never know , thanks for being there for me ALL THE TIME whenever wherever i need u girls , thanks for accompanying me 24-7 , thanks for staying so true to me , thanks for being such 2 beautiful soul and being the most fascinating human on earth , forever n ever n i mean it …. thanks for being so sincere to me , thanks for bringing me up when im down , thanks for the laughter & joy that u girls had brought me all the time , thanks for the moments , the special moments that we 3 had shared whenever we are together , we are unseparable … with you girls around , everything seemed to be nothing and worth nothing to me anymore … i love you girls the most ~ More than my own life , and this is sincere;y spoken from my heart … you girls are the most precious thing i have in my life …. i love you ….. thanks thanks n thanks for everything …

Ms.A from California Fitness , nice meeting u … really happy tat i have a cute fren like u from frenster … would like to go mum mum with u again …

Ms.B from Kuantan , hey bitch , stop stealing things form my shop ok ? Im not stupid lah , come on . I’ve been running my business for about 4 years now u tot i dunno what u did behind me ah ? 4 bf come my shop n quarrel , hah ~ U r really a joker man ~ Bitch ~ @!#%$@#Q

Ms.C , Thanks for calling me up all the time checking on me …. really appreciate that ~

Ms.M from Kuantan , Bitch , stop teaching my girls how to steal n take things outta my shop . They are with me and we will stick as one lah . I have my own way of handling my girls , u cant psycho them one . Try harder next time ok ~ Challenge me ? Come on ~ Why dont u come and see me so that i can pass my whole shop to you , good idea ? Go fuck yourself ~

Ms.WL mui from KL , thanks for being so true to jiejie all the time . Very hard to find girls as innocent as u in KL nowadays , jiejie wish ur boyboy n u can find true happiness forever … jie is not as lucky as u to have found such sweet first love oh , but jie know u will cherish de … mui mui will stay pretty forever in jiejie’s heart oh ~

Mr.A from Kuantan but now studying in KL flying to Uk later , thanks for everything u’d done for me . Thanks for the watch , i love it alot . Going around for days looking for the Limited Nike i want , the LV i want , although ended up buying me the B watch , but i tell u what , im really touched for the whole process of you rushing from places to places just to get me the best present , its priceless … Now left u hanging pok kai oledi , i felt really bad loh … but no matter what , ur gf is very lucky to have you ~! Muacks , buddy , u r the best ~! Hey , stop nagging about that PINK PLAYBOY lah , i dont understand why until today u still so geram loh *laugh* . I also got smile when i saw the watch ward … Haha ~! Ok lah , dont be angry lah , ok ? *wink , wink * ok lah , wei , *push A’s shoulder* Brother , weih , ok yah ~ Haha ~

Mr.A , my lawyer buddy from the biggest lawyer firm in Msia or Asia , thanks for keeping in touch for about 1 2 years now … thanks for the Crystal music box , the poster all the way from Washington and the sweet lil bird nest as my bday present now TAT was really a suprise ~ haHa , i tot y suddenly got a botle of it on my office desk de , hahaha ~ Very very thoughful … thanks , like u say …. its very sweet

Mr.B from Kuantan (you know who wakakakakaka ) , Sei Lou ah , y now so kiddo de aiyoh ~ cut ur hair in HK until like that ah , tell the stylist im gonna kill him . Last time we went that salon cut damn nice at the lan kwai fong y this one like kiddo one ? Aiyoh …. miss u lah , ok ? Hehe ~ Still look nice in my heart if no girl want u ok ~ Waahahahhaha *laugh until pok kai*

Mr.B from Hartamas , thanks and sorry for the troubleSSS caused by me . Having you around me is one of the most relaxing one … Dinner @ Planet Hollywood was very funny , u r very cute , haha ~ you are very caring and it really touches my heart , every single word u say coz i know u mean it …

Mr.B from Tmn.Connaught , stop doing Lan ciao things lah . Damn angry when i know ONE OF THE SHIT u did . Go call kao my sister’s admirer ask him dont woo my sister , go fuck urself lah . I never see anyone as ‘ MOU CHUN DOI ‘ as you one loh . We were never meant to be together coz of our same same egoistic characteristic loh . Admit it lah … its not ur fault nor mine , its just tat we are both pest … i loved you , but then we two were just not not not n never meant to be together lah … u r a nice guy , but y u always do lan ciao things one ? Stop calling my frens n try to break my relationship with them lah , come on . you CAN NEVER succeed no matter how hard u try , my bond with my fren are VERY VERY strong de loh , sorry to tell u that no matter how smart n strong u r , ur move are always weak when u wanna break my life apart , coz like u say … i shield myself up very very sternly …

Mr.B lil boy from Johor , treat my sister good good ya if not i’ll cut ur XXX hahahha ~! Thanks for that lil quacky duck from room interior design , i really love RID de stuff … that duck will be place beside my bath tub ok ? Haha ~ And dont send so many chocolates to my sis ah , wait she fat fat no ppl want how ? We still wanna stay single for a longer time de ah , brother , support LONELY CLUB lah ~

Mr.B from Johor , thanks for having such much patience in me . Thanks for all the lil gifts you sent all the way from Johor . Forgive me for not replying u for such a long time , im really busy … Thanks for caring bout me tru sms when im not happy , u r the most patient person tat i met for years now ….

Mr.C Stop behaving like a kid lah . You’re a nice guy n i kinda like u but not love loh … Come on , like to walk off when lil things happen , say things that u cant afford to do , come on lah . Malukan guys only . Dont try to tell my frens how much u love me n what u can do for me lah , ppl will just laugh at u only lah . How much someone love me n sayang me , we can see de . We never listen to wat others say , we see by ourselves … get it ? So dont make the same mistake again if u wanna join my geng ok ? If u dont like it , fuck off … n move on … coz u got ur SPORT CAR u can go get other chicks if u want , you know what , WE DONT CARE ~

Mr.D from Penang , Thanks for being so supportive although we never met before … you’re very sweet … thanks for promoting me to your frens , haha ~ But u r the best yo ~ Muacks ( wow , see i kiss u oh ) Tabik , to the Mr.D , the chairman of 3D , from your one and only DEVON … and will always be the Devon you met … Will fly to Pg very soon ok ? Promise *finger cross*

Mr.D from Uk , love to talk to you again . 14 hours of work a day , wow ~! We are the same species … workaholic ~ n tats dangerous …. must take care oh ~ talk to u some other time ok ? Hey , havent send me the details i want lah , what lah you ~

Mr.E , all the way from Aus … Thanks for having faith in me no matter what i do , your testimonials and messages meant alot , i know that u r very busy but yet u still take ur time writing to me … im very honoured to be treated this way … very touched ~! thanks yo ~

Mr.G from Sg , thanks for the notebook , thanks for bluetooth , the this n that , the dut dut dut dut dut wah too many to tell ah . You know what , u r the only guy whom i know that can really sacrafice so much for a girl ….. salute salute n salute ~ U r unbeatable … forever the best n sincere guy i ever knew … hope that u’ll stick so truly being the G i knew eversince the day i knew you forever … About ur dad’s company , take it easy ok ? You know , we have the same problem with family business , so , look into the mirror now , the way u picture urself is how i see myself the very same second … remember that always ok ? My bag will always be carrying an extra phone battery for you if u wanna talk , coz u r worth my time … n i mean it . G , take things easy ok ? You’re the man , cant give up de , n i know u wont ~ Life is tough n it sucks … Prince L , your princess will always be there …

Mr.G to the J from New York , sorry for muting myself out for abit , im really busy these days … when im free i promise to reply ok ? Hope that u’re doing fine in the states , sorry sorry n really sorry ~ Miss talking to you , it has been months or half a year but then , u r not forgotten , tats for sure …. thanks yo

Mr.I all the way from Taiwan … thanks for the host when im in Taiwan , ur carSSSS are the best , ur drift left me speechless and ur house is so so big , wakakakaka ~ Thank your mummy n aunties for me too yah ~ And thanks for the new handphone ~ that is one of my bestest birthday gift …

Mr.J from keielle , thanks for the 2 hours waiting with karena … u’re quiet but ok , very nice guy lah ~ Thanks for showing her the way from Hilton to KL , hahA ~

Mr.J , salute ~ All the way from Sg , u’re very cute in a way … Im glad that u love the way i express myself playing my piano pieces … Hit me back whenever u r in town ok ? Keep in touch ~

Mr.K from bangkok , u hansome thing ~ of course i wont forget u silly … Belle park , well , i will remember that incident *ops~!* hahaha ~ so cute

Mr.K from KL , stop wasting my time . Even a simple phrase also u wanna sms me so many times to ask me what i meant n shit . R u retarded ? No ? But for me u r …. damn @#$@#54 . I hate ppl who waste my time … u r free , but im not ~

Mr.M from Subang , yo ~ My bro from Quantan , thumbs up ~ Oklah , I promise whenever im in Darussalam i’ll call u ok ? hahaha ~ i know lah i know lah , u damn sien oni … okok , i know what to do !~! Will call A & Z out , C was kicked out by us oledi …. haha ~ U know lah , we are very choosy de , bitches cant stay long … and we dont accept junks , wahahhaha

Mr.N , who just got outta Inti Nilai College , thanks for the gifts , the chocolates , the medicines n the KAI CHING , haha ~ To tell u the truth , it really comes in hand loh … just when i needed it . Really lucky that i have ur med box with me when i got food poisoning loh … thank you thank you thank you ~ Add u 10 marks ~ Hahaha … And thank again for when i had my fever days ago ur med comes in hand too …. Wow ~ r u god ?

Mr.T from KL , thanks for being such a wise MAN i should say , 26 years old huh ~ Yeah , for me ~! *think think* Wakakaka … Hey , get ur Lexus back from penang lah , y lah put at e hotel , switch ur ferrari there loh … Lexus nicer leh … u still can have ur Merc mah … i want Lexus ~!~!~!~! want want want ~ And dont forget my free ycyc ah , i help u save money liao ~ owe me one ~ And u have the girls already … dont forget one for ur ehem ehem … *think think think* You’re the best ~ Salute salute salute ~ And very special to me … and believe it or not , i mean it ~ Miss Miss & DusH dUsh DusH ~ Hahaha , u know what it sounds like , funny but , ok , as long as u like it ~

Mr.W from KL , thanks for accompanying Karena , u’re very sweet for rushing down from Kepong … haha ~

Mr.Z , thanks for everything n every effort that u’d made , the step u’d take … You are special to me in a way …

Aiks , travel outta Ktn dy … busy continue later ~ ciao ~

Dear Friends , Believe it or not . My bestfriend Karena CREATED this very 100 reasons for not loving a guy … and me n my sis tot that its very very true … Please study the 100 reasons below … Haha ~ Man , she really write words by words …… Karena , i love you ~ Muacks ~

我不爱你的一百个理由

1. 我不想每天胡思乱想

2. 我不想再担兢受怕

3. 我不想得到忧郁症

4. 我不想再独自流泪到天明

5. 我不想听到伪装的甜言密语

6. 我不想为了你失去所有

7. 我不想家里的白开水为了你而污染

8. 我不想为了你而得到心脏病

9. 我不想我家的小狗为了你离家出走

10. 我不想再等待没有承诺的未来

11. 我不想浪费钱在你的身上

12. 我不想浪费时间猜测你的想法

13. 我不想为了你而改变原来的我

14. 我不想因为你而减肥

15. 我不想因为你而憔悴

16. 我不想为了你而失去和朋友相处的自由

17. 我不想做你的黄脸婆

18. 我不想让你有机会抛弃我

19. 我不想因为你而强颜欢笑

20. 我不想因为你而让自己伤痕累累

21. 我不想因为你让家人有机会踢我出家门

22. 我不想为了你活在虚伪的童话故事里面

23. 我不想要成为你保险金的受益人

24. 我不想每天鼓励你

25. 我不想每晚都等待你的电话

26. 我不想让你牵我的手

27.我不需要你的枕头, 因为我有自己的羊毛棉被

28. 我不想对你有任何的期待

29. 我不希望拥抱我的人是你, 而是我的好死党

30. 因为我的小云( ITS ME ITS ME~! ) 不希望你成为她的妹夫

31. 我希望我的宝宝是可爱的, 而不是像你呆呆的

32. 因为你, 我老妈开始讨厌我

33. 因为你, 我家的家私开始死气沉沉

34. 因为你, 我的键盘开始变得迟钝

35. 我不愿意告诉你我的过去

36. 我不愿意和你分享我的现在

37. 因为你是个坏男孩

38. 因为你, 我家的大门开始打不开, 害得我沦落街头

39. 因为我不会爱你一辈子的, 这只是拿来骗无知女孩的承诺

40. 因为我相信我会越来越讨厌你

41. 因为你在心中说爱我的时候, 只有老天听得到的话让我觉得虚伪

42. 因为你, 我周围的空气变得不再新鲜

43. 因为只有我在赚钱, 你在花钱

44. 因为你其实长的并不帅

45. 因为我不想成为你未来的老婆

46. 因为我不希望你是我未来的老公

47. 因为我的心房不想让你一个人独占

48. 因为你, 我每晚都发恶梦

49. 因为就是有人像你一样笨, 能打出一百个不爱你的理由

50. 因为你不会是一个好情人

51. 因为你不会为了一个女孩而停留

52. 因为我不想让你照顾我一辈子

53. 因为我不想一辈子只让你疼, 而是我身边的人都疼我

54. 因为我很享受我的生活舆工作, 我不希望为了你而放弃

55. 因为我不想和你天长地久

56. 因为我不想为了你而跑遍大街小巷, 蛮累的

57. 因为我的心思只会为死党舆家人而费神

58. 因为我不希望为了你而变得软弱

59. 因为我比你还会做戏, 你的演技太差了吧

60. 因为和你在一起不是一个福气

61. 因为我不想每天都对你说"我好恨你", 这会让我很快有皱纹

62. 因为你未来可能会很有钱, 但不可能会花在我的身上, 而是别的女孩身上

63. 因为你只会"想"为我而戒烟, 而不是"会"为我而戒烟

64. 因为你只会欺骗我

65. 因为我不需要你来关心我, 我还有我的知己 ( its me its me ~! )

66. 因為妳，我不想毫無保留的把我的所有、通通給妳

67. 因为我老妈一定会讨厌你

68. 因为我的小云也会讨厌你 ( its me again ~! yes ~ )

69. 因为我不想为你准备早餐 ( yes , go get ur own Mc.Donald )

70. 因为你的甜言密语让我觉得很恶心 ( ueak ! )

71. 因为你对我所讲的每一句都是废话

72. 因为你永远都不会是我最好的选择

73. 因为你不可能是我童话中的男主角

74. 因为你的甜言密语不是只对我一个人说

75. 因为当你不把握机会时,你已经失去爱我的资格 ( This is the best )

76. 因为失去你, 我的世界变的有色彩, 而不是黑暗的

77. 因为你所给的证明, 从来都不证明过什么

78. 因为你爱耍浪漫, 肤浅!!

79. 因为你那"动人"的文章, 对我没有一点作用

80. 我不想为了你而变的蠢蠢的.

81. 因为你爱说一些不真实的话

82. 因为我已经答应我家的枕头, 我不会离开它而投入别的枕头

83. 因为我家的房间物备俱全, 我不需要你为我准备任何的东西

84. 因为我已经告诉身边的人, 你不是我的男朋友

85. 因为你很爱自作主长 ( Yes , u suck ~! )

86. 因为你, 我变的没有什么胃口

87. 因为我的唇不会让你来亲

88. 因为我的腰不会让你来拥抱

89. 因为我不会对你有任何的感觉

90. 因为我们是两个世界的人

91. 因为我们性格不和

92. 因为你曾经欺骗我

93. 因为我很享受我的单身生活

94. 因为你会让我有一股冲动说 (你去死吧) ( yes , y so many ppl die but not u ~! )

95. 因为你是唯一让我生气的男孩

96. 因为我需要永远对我认真的人, 而不是花心的人

97. 因为只有你能让我发脾气

98. 因为你不会是我最好的依靠

99. 因为你总是让我伤心

100. 因为我已经为你打下一百个理由, 你该死心吧!!

Very special thank , thousand thanks , and sincere grateful from the bottom of my heart …… My sister Leng Sean , my bestest friend Karena , my buddy Ai Hwa , Ai Lan , Ah Yee , who who’s ehem ehem Sheng Zhe didi , aunty , uncle , My girls Bella , Siti , Joanne & her lil daughter , Karena’s bf Ah Hou , Nic , my mum , my maid and of course …… my beloved DJ Joe , YOU GUYS ARE THE GREATEST .

I’d been away for a long long time . Just touched down Kuantan and Karena & my sister accompany me wherever i go ( God , thank you for being so nice to me that u sent two angels to take care of me and keeping me so secured and happy whenever im with them n wherever i go ) … No one is acting strange so i assume its like any other day of my life getting myself stuck im jams ? Nope , u’r wrong … my life is all about stucking in between appointments and appointments … Aih , but most of it are sponsor jobs lah , so cannot get money de . But it’s ok , u do good , good things’ll come to u very soon … bleKk ~

So , Nic came all the way down from KL , i’s shocked but he never tell me why he came down so , ok , im cool …. coz i’ll be damn busy anyway . As usual , work work work , calculate stuff , count things out , Analise things , sorting things , getting all my appointments done , phew ? No way, it’s like no ending de … slept at 5am then woke up at 9am … !#@#$%^! so tired ………. @#$#%&%

Now , this is getting interesting . Karena out of sudden sat down in front of me holding my hands ( hahaha , nolah , not tat serious lah ) staring into my eye ( Wahahaha , she’s gonna kill me for this ) killing me softly , Eh , silap ! Telling me seriously , asking i mean …

Karena : Wei , tomorrow night u free ?

me : Why ?

Karena : You tell me first , u free or not ? Coz i got something to tell you

me : Why ? We go eat with ur bf together ?

Karena : No , tomorrow just 2 of us …

me : Why ?

Karena : Aiyah , tomorrow i will tell u lah . You ok ya ?

me : Why ?

Karena : Aiyah , i will tell u tomorrow lah , u make urself free for tomorrow night

me : … eRr , dont tell me u wanna borrow money ah ?

Karena : Sei poh ah , When did i ever borrow money from you ? Aiyoh , my situation is not until that level lah …. so cham meh ? Crazy ah , not lah . Aiyoh , hahahahhaa ~!

me : …………….

Karena : tomorrow yah ~! (then she turn away and continue doing i forgot what, oh ya i remembered , watch over my shop for me)

me : ……… ( still puzzled )

The next day , everything goes like everyday loh , busy busy busy ….. Karena waited for me for more than 1.5 hours in the car coz i went bank n its so crowded … but she never complains , never … she’s the nicest girl on earth … i love you ~! Then we went to fix my car de sound system and we went makan makan for hours , wAkaakakak ~ Tom yum enggak sedap yah sayang … ice cream goreng bleh tahan lagi lah , the coconut can be accepted (cop passed) , the rice so so loh hor dear ?

Then busy busy busy , train the girls for the upcoming show … Karena train he girls catwalk for me when im away doing tattoo for a while … Sean helped out too … everything is just hectic , tiring n yeah , wat else , busy lah …~!~!~!

Fast forward , Sean say she gotta leave at 9pm coz her fren bday . She left with Sheng Zhe , my girl Joanne leave at 9.30pm . Clock strike 10pm im still working ..  Karena waited n reminded me about the meeting . Then i fast fast kao tim everything n leave . Then my girls Bella & Siti wanted us to fetch em back coz they have no transport . Then it takes us 5 like 15 mins to search for my car coz i forgot where i park , and tat the gate is closed so we had to walk all the way up n down n out aih ~ tired ….

So , my girls say their house is at Tanah Putih n i just kept quiet coz Karena drive tonight . Then when they turn n turn n turn i notice tat the path is very familiar … Oh , their house is near my buddys Ai Hwa & Ai Lan & their parents’s house so i was making jokes tat hey , u girls stay so near their house man ~ Then damn funny things happen . Karena took a left turn , its the way to Ai hwa & Ai Lan’s house lah , then i was so excited , i told my girls ‘ Hey , which lorong u stay , u know , the two stylist Ai Hwa n Ai Lan stay at this row at the house number …….. (it happened so fast ) then i notice there’s light at the house n there’s so many ppl there , uncle auntie n everyone and oh , there’s a party ….

Just before i finish the sentence ‘ Neh , this house loh , neh my bestfren Ai Hwa n Ai Lan ah , the two stylist leh , they stay this house lah, haha ~ And their having a … (just before i finish my sentence i saw my sister n my frens ) then Karena stopped the car and say ‘ Get down lah ~! ‘ and i was like ……………….. then Karena say ‘ What ? Get down lah ~! ‘ Then i was like ‘ …. wat ? ‘ Then Karena n my girls laughted ~!

Oh My God , So Sweet , everyone in the world including my mum n my Indonesian maid knew about this surprise party but i dont sense a thing man ~ We had so so so so ……… my god so so so much fun that night …… Everyone worked so hard n planned so hard just to complete this very special day for me . Especially my sister n Karena , my god ~ You’re the best … And Ai Hwa , Ai Lan & auntie uncle , sorry for messing up ur place just to hold this party for me ….

Im so so touched ….. really feel like crying straight away . Never did anyone surprise me like that before …. and i had never , never never had such joy n so much laugher in a birthday party before . Even when i was young i had this party with 200 ppl in my house , i never had this much fun …..

Thanks for everything girls … and of course got 4 guys lah ~ Its the happiest day every , 21st birthday , i will never forget this , never ever will …… No way ~!

I love you ……. thanks for everything , im really really really very touched … from the bottom of my heart ……

Happily ……… Leng Yein

P/S : Karena , Sean , Thanks for everything …….. U’re the best ~! Forever ….. and i really mean that ~